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Being Like Moses Had Been Here Will Only Guarantee Removal Of Good (Deuteronomy 3:23-29) [08/23/2026]

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I remember hearing angry people parade themselves every day when I was younger, and today, I can’t avoid them even when I’m off work 😓😓😓😓😓 I believe most of them took inspiration from Moses and the devil, thinking God delights in hateful people. That’s why God blocked Moses and Aaron from Canaan. This passage is found in page 105 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, pags 134-135 of the NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 211-212 of my VOICE copy, and page 216 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’ve never felt safe around anyone who behaved like what the title for this note 📝 📋 suggests, and for years, I questioned if I was responsible for any of that 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I don’t find it fair that anyone would mention only severity, as if it were a forgotten truth. But sadly, this truth is so often remembered that God’s grace and truth in other similar choices He makes is actually hated by His own “church” — it’s not as though they’re in contradiction, though. I think Romans 11:22 explains it, but God’s goodness is for everyone, and He is kind to even His enemies, just as Jesus had said in Luke 6:35. Too bad all of them hate everyone except each other, to their knowledge, and when they find they believe the same things, they join forces, hoping to trample underfoot the lovers of humans and the needy ones from among mankind. When their operations are successful, the devil rejoices, and God’s kingdom suffers. Eventually, it may be mowed down into oblivion 😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 and this happens too often at work. Indeed, this is why I need professional help, and even with five months of it and counting (for some reason, they scheduled me during an appointment I have on Tuesday), I don’t think it’s safe for me to be around others here most of the time… I wish safety had been practised more often, but I guess the world needs godless men who pretend to follow Jesus and strip random people naked and shave their nuts and post it online! 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮 Many of their mechanisms are illegal, and even if some aren’t, it’s against the Word of the Lord. What they did in 2016 to remove safety from those who would be born later, like all my nieces, is unforgivable. The U.S. has been declining in happiness every year since, and the lack of safety that had already existed in abundance back then has grown from bad to worse. And the “Christians” think all that’s of God! They’ll never learn.

And you may be asking me, “What does all this have to do with this passage?” Well, the thing is, Moses had been the one to inspire great wickedness this time, for he and Aaron had erred at the tail end of the wilderness journey (Numbers 20:10-11). God then told them not even they could enter Canaan due to this (Numbers 20:12). Maybe he wasn’t getting at this, but the older we get, the more powerful our actions are for the generations to follow, given Jesus’ words in Luke 12:48. And since I’m already 35, I’ve actually thought it good for me to die young if it’s not my fault this happens, for most people at least 50 years old hate everyone even in the “safest” countries 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 like the Netherlands 🇳🇱 Costa Rica 🇨🇷 New Zealand 🇳🇿 Finland 🇫🇮 Fiji 🇫🇯 and even Iceland 🇮🇸 and that’s too easy to fall into, faith or no faith. Why grow old? Indeed, I’m afraid to make any decision that may ruin someone’s life. Moses didn’t seem to care much concerning this, as evidenced by what he said in Numbers 31-32, claiming it’s not good for those who didn’t participate in a cardinal sin to live. He should’ve preached that a Messiah would come and they could look forward to Him. But again, he and Aaron had erred in the tail end of the wilderness journey, and Aaron died soon after that. Moses had angered God by the burning bush (Exodus 4:13) so He chose Aaron to be his mouthpiece (Exodus 4:14). However, Aaron turned out to be a very poor leader, as evidenced by what he’d pull off in Exodus 32 by request of the Israelites when Moses was on the mountain for 40 days and 40 nights. And I don’t think I’m any better…

I remember also one day, after hearing my mom yap about a dog barking at her where she lives the night before, I blurted out some pretty loud expletives concerning her, and I think I made babies cry from that 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I actually feared I had broken Proverbs 20:20 that morning. This was over two years ago, after I went to another recital that two of my nieces were in 💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝 but I must be stupid to believe any family member who’s been alive longer than I’ve been is safe… there’s not enough evidence to convict those who’ve intentionally broken good laws to profit off my misery. They’re too good at living off the system. But God doesn’t play their selfish game. I do love how a few days ago, I discovered one of my cousins had brought his daughter into the world last June 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💓💞💕 even if I never meet her, I pray mercy for her and her second cousins, like those my one cousin who’s now in his late 40s had fathered — both are now college-age, and I pray God helps them discover Him if they haven’t yet 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 I pray love, hope, and grace for my four nieces, too, and any other siblings they may have 🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🤎🖤🩶🤍 I still haven’t met two of their second cousins that their dads had brought into the world, although I met one about 20 years ago during a family reunion 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I was 15, so I didn’t think it would be any good, but I didn’t know I would have a new family member 😁😁😁😁😁 I’ve seen pictures of her and her sister on Facebook over the years after that, but that wasn’t too often… I am glad my one cousin I visited a year and a half ago in Prescott during a snowstorm 🌨❄️☃️⛄️ now has a baby girl; it’s his first kid. I pray God can keep her safe from the unforgiving people we’re stuck with 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I’m not sure I’ll ever meet anymore family members, though, even if I do go to Tucson to visit my mom’s in-laws every Christmas… my nieces can’t do that every year, for their parents are no longer together as of about a few years ago, but I pray God helps me be like who they believe me to be: safe, faithful, and trusting, among other things. I know I didn’t think family members could be dangerous when I was younger, and for a long time. I still find it difficult to believe my mom’s isolationism isn’t my fault…

The other related passage to this is Psalm 106:32-33, where the psalmist sings that the new generation had also offended God in some level when they were needing water 💧 so that Moses would bark at them — some translations say Moses’ spirit became bitter, but some say that they were rebellious against God’s Spirit, so that he’d speak rashly with his lips. I guess Aaron’s influence in his life had made it so that he’d more or less be unwilling to make alliances with good people 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 did Moses enjoy being angry? We don’t know… he once wanted ALL the Lord’s people to be prophets, that He’d put His Spirit on them (Numbers 11:29). Eventually, he’d more or less get his wish when God’s Spirit was poured out from on high, like in Acts 2:1-4. This has happened quite a bit in the early church days 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 I can’t tell what Moses was thinking when he said everything in this book, Deuteronomy, giving all the necessary instructions his hearers had wanted to hear even when they were young, being used to life in Egypt 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 thankfully, though, the Law of Moses isn’t necessary for salvation, for Jesus earned it for all of us by living a perfect life then taking the cross for all our sins 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🤎🖤🩶🤍 for we can’t save ourselves. I know. I’ve tried years ago. And that wasn’t even with the Bible! And no, I don’t think Moses wanted to say that something needed to be added to Jesus and His sacrifice for all mankind, but people elevate Moses to a position of worship all the time in too many circles. It seems just about every church in the U.S. does this, and Two Rivers is no exception — for over a year, now, I’ve believed I couldn’t rely on my pastor’s words that much anymore, just as I hadn’t believed about half of what he’d said for a few years or so by that time. And now, I’m having the same approach with my young adult pastor, whose Awaken group I used to attend many moons ago (I had to leave after leap day 2024, for I was 33 and could make the high school girls nervous even though they were 18 and could go to Awaken, now, but I hadn’t taken any of that into account, so I’m sorry…) — in early 2021, I once believed God was having me step away from Awaken, but little did I know I’d discover secrets about someone who played a key role in my walk with Jesus up to that point… the latter days of the pandemic almost killed me. I’d mention what happened, but I don’t want to embarrass anyone, so if you want to know what had happened, I’ll have to discuss it with you privately, like an email 📧 for instance. Of course, they published an article about some of this, but I wasn’t involved in any of that, for I had already moved a lot closer to the church and had to keep a low profile. Boy, do I miss Gilbert… but it doesn’t matter, now, because they criminalised homelessness in every single sliver of the country, knowingly put Trump back in power with full awareness of what he’s like, and destroyed the vulnerable in too many foreign lands. God will never forgive them.

I realise I made a very long post about many life events and didn’t talk much about Moses’ errors affecting Israel a lot, but I do wish I could escape the madness of the atheists who love nothing but offence and shaming even Jesus Himself for standing for the vulnerable, instead using Him as a needless mascot for the rich and powerful… it would be good indeed if they hadn’t been born! It’s too bad I have a ton of college debt, though, but when I see an ad for people in danger, I usually pray they can get the help from God they deserve ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I just hope we can be Jesus’ hands and feet for them more often. Unfortunately, though, the poor will always be among us (see Deuteronomy 15:11, Matthew 26:11, Mark 14:7, and John 12:8) 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 I know; I have experience with advanced levels of poverty in the U.S. I’m glad God rescued me from that in May 2017, but I’ll always remember being homeless and destitute more than once. Indeed, at one point, I actually contracted pneumonia 😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😳😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱😱 and I may get it again in less than three months. So I PRAY I don’t get it a third time (apparently, I once had it when I was 15 — it’s been about 20 years since then… but I was sick with bronchitis that season, too, so that’s no fun). But it’s nice that Isaiah 33:17-24 has a passage of a better world, with the last verse there saying, “And no resident will say, ‘I am sick,’ for the people who live there will be forgiven their iniquity” (author’s translation).

I hope you enjoyed this post; I’ll be back sooner or later with Deuteronomy 4:1-43! In the meantime, enjoy these screenshots I got from Google Maps concerning a lovely private island from Bora Bora.

I realise I uploaded over 20 screenshots lol 😆 😅 😂 🤣 call me #obsessed 😅😅 this song 🎵 also helps me get in the mood for a vacation like this 🏝🏖😇😇😇😇😇 I need to go there 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 I think Heaven’s filled with gorgeous places like this, though 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 I can’t wait to get there without experiencing death, if possible. Again, Jesus is the only One who can make it happen, so if you receive Him today, you’ll be able to live for Him now and enter into Paradise when finished, per His sovereignty (I don’t bring that up much, but only because the devil’s children had hijacked that, too). And yes, all LGBT+ people are invited, for God’s love and grace is for everyone 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💓💞💕💟❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥 again, I’ll be back with Deuteronomy 4:1-43 later this week, God-willing.

In Christ,

Ron Outland

A City To Be Safe In: Dealing With Cases Of Murder And Manslaughter (Numbers 35) (08/11/2026)

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This chapter sort of reminds me of Genesis 9:6, for killing someone is a terrible sin, and if that were accidental, that would be tragic enough, but murder is if someone intentionally does this. And if that happens, God will see to it that he/she dies a violent death even if that murderer repents and follows Jesus later. For Paul killed all sorts of Christians left and right (see Acts 8:3) and later met Jesus (Acts 9:5-6) so that he’d love Him upon realising the Christian faith wasn’t heretical after all (Acts 9:18-20), but he was brutally beheaded for his faith decades later (see 2 Timothy 4:6-8). Yet God had forgiven him of all his sins, which he always had a hard time accepting (1 Timothy 1:15), and I don’t blame him! But this chapter is found in pages 101-102 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, page 130 of the NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 203-204 of my VOICE copy (along with the note 📝 📋 they wrote after that chapter), and pages 208-209 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I just had a therapy appointment where my therapist and I were able to discuss some things, and I realised I felt stuck in life, and that practising godliness may be my only way out, if that even happens 😬😬😬😬😬 I don’t know if I’m going to get any sort of promotion, extra job, or raise, but I can’t expect any of that to happen, can I? And besides this, I feel at home in Gilbert, though it’s not much like home anymore due to the deeply selfish and abusive ordinance they signed into law a week and a half ago about churches not being required to report child sex abuse cases to the authorities in Arizona. And if Gilbert isn’t much like home anymore (and I’ve considered it safe and my favourite place to be in the region for years), there’s no chance I’ll make it out of this one… my mom still may be trying to take me out of the Christian faith 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 (she lives in Phoenix, and I grew up there) and because of all this, I won’t be safe anymore. Indeed, even if they never removed the law that gives me autonomy when it comes to choosing where to live (and I was born with autism… and for what I don’t know), my mom can still outsmart the leaders again. I needed to stay in Gilbert because it was the only place I knew I could be safe in the U.S., and now I can’t afford any living situation without a roommate, even if I’m making a good amount of cash above the minimum wage here. For just as those who commit any sort of accident, no matter how outrageous, are forgiven every time, but the unforgiving people always succeed (and someone is able to seize me in lieu of supposedly sinning against them) — the cities of refuge mentioned in this chapter were for anyone who had accidentally killed someone and could stay there until the avenger died, much like how Moses had killed an Egyptian for abusing a Hebrew, who shared his flesh and blood, but the Pharaoh found out and he ran off to Midian (Exodus 2:11-15). And though I did NOTHING violent, my mom would seek to indoctrinate me into oblivion this time… she cannot delight in what’s good, and her heart is in love with the wickedness she had caused, causing her to be permanently unrepentant. And I bet even if no one reads this (kudos to those who actually do 😅😅😄😄 you’re the real MVPs), something can happen so that I can’t get any closer to becoming debt-free or live somewhere safe. I really feel like I’m in a losing battle here 📉 for I have no control over what rent will be after my lease ends late this November, nor does anyone else. It’s just corporate that determines everything, and for those with wisdom, you can tell that corporate is selfish and greedy about even a slight advantage in someone’s job they work at. This country really should work for the people, but it isn’t. And the icing on the cake is, most Americans pretend this problem doesn’t exist 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️ the leaders don’t care about following ANY good laws nowadays…

My apartment complex has been good so far in promoting safety for being in a bigger city, but happiness isn’t very high in any neighbourhood here, nor is the life expectancy. I will say that it is good that there’s lots of big trees around the outer edges of the complex and by all the buildings, but I still feel the air isn’t very clean… maybe it’s because it’s crowded where I live but I legit feel like my dreams are being depleted daily. At least, though, the love of God will never run out (Lamentations 3:22) 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💘💓💗💞💕💟❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🤎🖤🩶🤍🩷👯🏼‍♀️💃🏼🧚🏼‍♀️🧜🏼‍♀️🧑🏼‍🩰 so while I realise I didn’t talk much about the cities of refuge here (I guess I just explained my backstory some more), if God’s mercies work towards me becoming debt-free so that I’d honour Him with my finances, that’s awesome, but I can’t put my hope in that 😅😅😅 I do wonder what He’s got planned for me here, though. But I’ll see you soon in chapter 36, and after that, Numbers will be finished and we’ll go to Deuteronomy, the fifth and final book of Moses.

In Christ,

Ron Outland

Life’s A Journey, Isn’t It? (Numbers 33) [08/10/2026]

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It’s cool to read about the Israelites’ journeys from Egypt to right beside Canaan, and today, I want to mention how life’s a journey for all of us. I may even mention and review a road trip or two. This chapter is found in pages 100-101 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, pages 128-129 of the NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 201-202 of my VOICE copy, and pages 206-207 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’m glad the first Amplified Bible version didn’t rag on about any sins in a note when I was writing on that last chapter, but I wish they had said something about life being a journey in a footnote in this one… I guess that’s why I now realise the 80s (when that translation was first published) was and remains to this day an intimidating era — I may have been born in 1990, but not everything about the 80s was good. There were delusional prosperity preachers everywhere (and this has been the case ever since), abuse was (and still is) worshiped in every block, and Epstein, Trump, Dobson, and Reagan were beginning an unholy alliance, hoping to destroy Christianity by means of child trafficking and call it godliness. Indeed, that may have worked in those days so that God would fight against it until it is no more. But this doesn’t nullify God’s promise to His people, who don’t follow the utterly bankrupt everything in the worldly systems (see 1 John 2:15-17, James 4:1-4, and Romans 12:2) and instead choose love so that miracles may happen. Too bad offence is high enough so that progress is stalled too much, or even reversed.

I guess part of a promise is that we’re sadly on a long trip home, fraught with many evils, disasters, and heartbreak in every corner, and when it comes to if we’ll even get there, we can’t be certain of that all the time, can we? Indeed, as I write this down, I get a text from Oxfam about a devastating earthquake in Colombia 🇨🇴 so I pray for recovery and healing in all the affected areas, even if there’s only a slight impact 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖🩷❤️💜💙🩵💚💛🧡🤎🖤🩶🤍💞💕💓💗💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌💌 I’m sorry that country sits on the Ring of Fire, where violent earthquakes are common and loss and devastation is massive in most cases… I remember Japan had this horrific earthquake and tsunami in 2011 that actually made the Earth’s axis get closer to the Sun ☀️ by about five feet. I posted about it on Tumblr all night long, but sadly, my account has since been deleted 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and I was beginning to learn about how we’ve been in the last days since Jesus had ascended back to Heaven. I wish safety was common and in every country… the Ring of Fire is, for the most part, where the Pacific Ocean touches land, like California and Chile 🇨🇱 for those who don’t know.

But enough with my rambling… I feel life often has all sorts of curveballs and unfair surprises, and many people, even the sensible ones, don’t take into account that too many people don’t have a chance to make it to a place where good things may be common and safety is high. That’s why I often pray for hope and revival in mostly underdeveloped nations. At the same time, though, many people in the richer nations think they’re entitled to what they were given or what they received from others, including from God… which is weird, because I don’t own the land I live in, and I pay rent at my place, too. I’d rather not be in a rush to get some property here… nor do I want to chase after anything worldly like money, fame, women, etc. I remember I had a dream about two and a half weeks ago which contained over 1.6 million bucks randomly showing up in my account, and I had some funny clothes on (I don’t really remember what they were haha), and everyone I’ve talked to so far hasn’t said it’s a trap, which I’ve suspected from not long after I had that dream that night. Even some close friends I’ve mentioned this to didn’t get the memo… I guess the Church has been poisoned by prosperity preaching more than I thought. This isn’t to say you shouldn’t get what you need in life, though. Indeed, if it were up to God, no one would be in misery, but everyone would be saved and there’d be affluent places everywhere. For God wants everyone to go to Heaven (1 Timothy 2:3-4) and doesn’t enjoy loss or injustice. Indeed, it’s not your fault if you’ve suffered any! Yet He didn’t want anyone feeling like a robot 🤖 or a machine with no good mind, so he gave us all free-will to choose Him with, but I’ve seen it go wrong enough for all sorts of people to conclude it was a mistake or something 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓 and that’s what I can never accept… and I don’t even know how soon God actually defends His Name for anyone 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 I don’t want to believe He’s inactive in His goodness and benevolence 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

If life is indeed a journey, why then does evil often have the upper hand? And why is the Church complicit with most of it? These questions are unanswered, and I’m surprised the true Church still has a way in any region of the world… but I can’t tell if anyone is saved or not… usually when I feel I’m close enough to someone for us to be brothers (or if they’re a lady, like brother and sister), I discover something… disturbing they hold to and won’t let go of. I don’t want to mention my personal history of all I’ve noticed so far, though, mostly because I don’t want to embarrass them… but one friend, Josh, started a weekly Bible study with the Gospel of Matthew a few days ago, and the whole thing’s over the phone 📱 📲 ☎️ 📞 📳 so that’s nice. We started in chapter 4, though, for the first few chapters are really about Jesus’ early life and His baptism. I’ve missed doing things like that… we used to have a men’s Bible study group every week or month on various New Testament books, usually… until one of them started living with his girlfriend and we had to step back because he was living in compromise. But I’m happy to inform you I’ve never done this before and don’t plan to start now in the future. This was in the previous decade, mostly before Josh got married to his wife and before I landed my first job in mid-2017, after I escaped homelessness by Jonathan taking me in to fulfill some of the Lord’s will for me. Life happened after that, though, and eventually the living situation fell apart. But at least I still haven’t gone back into homelessness! Too bad I’m very low on hours at work right now, though 😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓😓 I’d pray for more, but I feel I need to use as much time as I can to rest and write all these Bible notes 📝 📋 for you guys 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇 I want to experience God’s goodness again, too, and I have a doctor’s appointment on Wednesday anyway.

I guess all I can say from all this is that our lives are like road trips, but at least road trips can be fun 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 I just wish life could be more enjoyable for more and more people… we’re born into the fight, and victory is never guaranteed. But it took 40 years for Israel to head from Egypt to Canaan, with the entire congregation being at Kadesh (that is, the wilderness) for 38 of these years. The notes 📝 📋 written into the VOICE translation, for the most part, actually provide good explanations in this chapter, too. And this is an actual good chapter in Numbers, so that’s nice. I’ll see you in chapter 34… we’re nearing the end of this book 📖 here.

In Christ,

Ron Outland

Zelophehad’s Daughters And Appointing Joshua, Moses’ Successor (Numbers 27) [08/06/2026]

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I’m glad the Lord God decided to leave a property to each of the five women whose father perished for his wickedness (though he wasn’t part of Korah’s company in chapter 16), and also, He had to remind Moses of what he had done in Numbers 20:10-11. Later passages would mention He was actually angry at him for this — I just thought I’d mention it now, since Deuteronomy is filled with rememberances of many things, including Moses and Aaron’s sins; not even they could enter the promise land. Moses also mentions the sins of Israel several times in that book 📖 and if I can get to that part of Scripture, I won’t really have a lot of fun with that one, if I’m being honest with you… but it’s worth it to remember that Deuteronomy was only for a season, and Jesus is forever. This chapter is found in pages 96-97 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, page 123 of the NASB Bible (Old Testament; this is from the 1995 version like in all my other posts that mention it, for I didn’t take into account that a new version would come out lol), pages 194-195 of my VOICE copy, and pages 198-199 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I think it’s great that God decided to give all 5 of Zelophehad’s daughters the inheritance they deserve here, for there were probably no women’s rights in these days, and whoever mentioned they were good must’ve been shamed into compliance — I don’t want to suffer the same fate with what I believe, church community or otherwise. However, I noticed that last week, they voted unanimously here in Arizona to not require churches to report sexual abuse on children, and now, I’m wishing I had been born in a different part of the world where the well-being of my nieces would actually be upheld. These lawmakers and voters are going to Hell… and not many would believe this truth. Even my therapist blurted the nonsense that there’s two sides to every story in things like this 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 maybe she was simply scared of the truth? I don’t know… but the only human who didn’t question me in this was a Starbucks manager at work; she’s a huge delight 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝 I pray she can find love in Jesus, knowing that church is supposed to be the world’s safest place, period. And I’ve had a taste of that for a while, but over the last few years, I’ve noticed it had become too political for my liking, and I realised the Spirit of God never had His way here, really 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 every time the true church says or does anything, the falsehood-lovers who may have founded all the churches in the country always trample underfoot the poor and needy humans among them while claiming to honour them and God in serving them 🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️🤦🏼‍♂️ this is the Great Apostasy perfected indeed. For though corruption went down in the U.S., the pandemic had ended, and inflation cooled off big time, all in 2023, the Americans hated the good and were unwilling to give glory to God without maniacally obsessing over Trump and other atheists who pretend to follow Jesus and are more or less like him, and would even close-mindedly reference Luke 19:11-27 to say that Trump was who Jesus was speaking of 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬 politics is ridiculous enough already, but this?! All I can really do is shake my head, shrug my shoulders, and holy crap, there are extremists cleverly disguising their wicked souls with a faux pas of their faith in Jesus, ruling the world forever? I’m better off dying as a martyr at this point, and I have goals I want to accomplish, such as paying off my student loans and making it to all my nieces’ events and supporting their endeavours. But enough of my ranting… I’m again glad God decided to give Zelophehad’s five daughters an equal share of an inheritance 💖💖💖💖💖👸🏼👸🏼👸🏼👸🏼👸🏼🧜🏼‍♀️🧜🏼‍♀️🧜🏼‍♀️🧜🏼‍♀️🧜🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧑🏼‍🩰🧑🏼‍🩰🧑🏼‍🩰🧑🏼‍🩰🧑🏼‍🩰💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼💃🏼👭🏼👭🏼👭🏼👭🏼👭🏼👯🏼‍♀️👯🏼‍♀️👯🏼‍♀️👯🏼‍♀️👯🏼‍♀️ I’m planning the same thing with my nieces and their children, however many they decide to have, but I don’t know if it’ll be wise to do that even if we lived in an actual safe country… oh well, that’ll be many years from now.

The second half of this chapter deals with Joshua succeeding Moses, and I have to mention again that sin shouldn’t be remembered all that much. Of course, Jesus wouldn’t come into the world for another 1,400 years or so, but too many people highlight things that aren’t even anything more than trivial, and from this through the rest of the first half of the Old Testament (and also many other later passages in Scripture), forgiveness is practically criminalised. I’ll never forget the words of the buttholes who preach against the way of salvation for all humans, for they claim God’s wrath comes before we even have a chance to believe. And I’ve seen those guys who worship them ruin my life, and for what?! A claim of safety that doesn’t even exist?! Because of them, I’m now stuck in student debt with likely no way out, ever. This has been a thing for me for several years, now, and I wish I could have a lot more checks to pay it off… work isn’t even that enjoyable for me, either, for the managers may want to help the customers rip off the store and deceive the cashiers, for what we don’t know will kill us. I may have a shot in getting the maintenance position full-time someday soon, but if that doesn’t happen, there’s no telling what I’ll do even though I was promised the position — I pray no one takes it even though that’ll mean getting up at like 5 am daily to get ready and actually haul my butt over to the store to clean after everyone else 😅😅😄😄 I should probably say when Satan succeeds in giving it to someone else… I can’t possibly expect to have anything go in my favour this time. I don’t even enjoy retail anyway, for they changed the laws a lot here, starting about ten years ago and making everything progressively worse and worse with no sign of anything being reversed. (Hey, that rhymed!) And I can’t be naively optimistic about this, for John 10:10 exists, and we don’t think about it often enough, plus, the fight’s often unfair, if not always, so I don’t know what’ll happen to me when the maintenance guy retires and someone else gets the position… one thing I have learned from him, though, is that where there’s a bunch of rocks in the concrete, that surface is harder to clean than if there were none. The more you know, ladies and gentlemen.

I realise I went off on multiple tangents today, but it doesn’t matter, since I’m sick and I have to miss work tonight due to that… I pray I can recover and maybe have better words to write on here? Haha 😄😄

In Christ,

Ron Outland

There’s Too Much Unfaithfulness — A Quick Note For Numbers 11-25 (02/26/2026)

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If you’re like me, you’ll probably go “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!” when reading most of what’s in these 15 chapters. And I remember trying to steer clear of doing the sins the Israelites had pulled off when I did Bible notes on this for the very first time in late 2012. I discovered the episode when God judges Israel for these things to be in chapter 14, and over the years after that, I found out they weren’t poor like I had been (I’m barely making enough to pay rent this month, but the tax refund was a big help). But this section of Numbers deals with the 40-year waiting period God consigned Israel to due to most of the people being overtly hostile to Caleb and Joshua in response to their plea for hope in Jesus to take Canaan (Numbers 14:10). Indeed, it’s found in pages 85-95 in the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, pages 108-121 in the NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 173-193 of my VOICE copy (with all its notes 📝 📋 there’s a lot of them; I should actually comment on each one like I remember saying in the beginning of this journey), and pages 175-196 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I don’t have anything to say except that waiting is always frustrating, including in events like this. And if you don’t have the chance to be productive, too bad. Yet this is what Israel forced an entire generation full of those under 20 years old into (given the census in chapter 1; there’s another in chapter 26 after all this) — I’m reminded of my own misfortune when reading this, for I was supposed to have graduated 🎓 from ASU in the mid-2010s, but my mom was petty enough to break good laws by lying about me and hiding the truth about it until I realize how bad my grades were one week in the summer after high school (this was in mid-July 2009) — what followed was a lot of crap, for lack of a better word. I did become Christian later that same week, but it was too late: I couldn’t clear my name due to me not knowing it was illegal for someone to force me to live somewhere I didn’t want to be… until I went to a mental hospital five years later where I found that out 😓😓😓😓😓😓😓 I’ve been in a lot of debt ever since. And they don’t want to forgive another one of my loans, even without Trump around. For his return to office over a year ago signaled everlasting doom for even born-again Christians like myself who don’t believe politics is the Gospel, and now, there’s nothing I can do but go back to work every week to basically… watch nothing but defeat at every corner. And most of the people doing this claim to be born-again Christians! For if the country had honoured Jesus, they wouldn’t have reinstated the acceptance of child abuse and the death penalty. And they claim abortion’s worse than both? While I don’t believe in that stuff, either (indeed, Romans 1:30 does say a deprived human being is an inventor of evil), abortion’s been around for less time than the other things had been. I don’t know when it was invented, but I guess they’d rather enforce ye olde-tyme religion instead of acting against anything hateful! 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 Why do you think Europe’s 🇪🇺 mostly a lot safer than anything in the U.S.? For the nation’s hovered around 128th place (out of 163 countries in the rankings) of how… SAFE it is compared to the others for nearly a decade, now. They also have no interest in releasing the files that can relieve this generation of the abuse they’ve endured for decades. I don’t know if anymore good will happen here, actually…

I also think the Lord Jesus is now the U.S.A.’s enemy due to all this, and I’m not looking forward to when they do me in because I write the truth on here… but God-willing, I’ll see you in Numbers 11 soon. Later!