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Aaron’s Blessing (Numbers 6:22-27) [12/24/2025]

Posted on by Ron Outland

I’m happy to write this post on Christmas Eve night here in Arizona, and while I pray against ICE some more for their terrorism and their false claims they’re making people safe, it wouldn’t be good if I didn’t write something on here for Christmas time — it’s my favourite time of the year, and I wish people celebrated it much longer ❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚 it’s easy to forget about Jesus during this time of year, though, which is ironic because Aaron’s blessing, the passage of which is found in page 81 of the NKJV Bible, page 104 of the NASB Bible, page 166 of my VOICE copy, and page 168 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy, is for Jesus’ benefit and for ours as well, and I’m still like, “How long has it been since the vast majority of all the churches on Earth have done anything but exalt religion while denying Him?” (See 2 Timothy 3:5.) But may this Christmas be a blessing to all mankind, especially for the little ones, like my four nieces (here’s something worth mentioning: I got to meet my nieces’ half-sister on the 7th!) — Russia NEEDS to give up many of the things on how they treat children on Christmas (they beat them down if their parents didn’t like their conduct, whether good or bad, I guess) — anyone publicly threatening to do this, especially at Christmas time, the Lord Jesus has decided to curse them, since they’ve repeated the pattern in Isaiah 66:3-4 that never ends for those who reject Him. I can’t believe it still needs to be said, but whoever does this to anyone under 18 regardless of how they know them — they’re like one who rapes dogs and records it all on live TV. I don’t think that should be legal in any case, for it’s making sex slaves out if these people… but thankfully, God is able to prevent that 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

The second-longest chapter of the Bible is up next, but I don’t feel it’s necessary to write on that right now. For I hope to enjoy Christmas with my family as we’re all in Tucson for the rest of the week, beginning tomorrow afternoon. And if I get to go bowling with a couple of friends again… let’s hope they can beat me 😅🎳 so without further ado, merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!

Census Numero Uno (Numbers 1) [09/10/2025]

Posted on by Ron Outland

I tthought I’d do some of the title in Spanish to make things a little more interesting 😂😂😂😂😂 every country has a census around every some-odd ten years, I think. I don’t know when Canada does theirs, but the latest one here in the U.S. was in 2020 during COVID-19. So in less than five years I can only imagine what it’ll be like if I have to do the 2030 census. But this chapter is found in pages 77-78 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, pages 98-99 of the NASB Bible I’m using for this (Old Testament, 1995 version), pages 160-161 of my VOICE copy (with both censuses on the top of page 161 and the difference between them, see also chapter 26), and pages 159-161 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I often find this part of the book not-so-useful, but I find it interesting that Judah (verses 26-27) has the biggest amount of soldiers, 74,600 men in all (in those days, they had counted the guys at least 20 years old and could fight in combat). I don’t want to join the U.S. military to destroy my mind, though, and I don’t believe it’s worth it to engage in violence, for all of it is un-Christian. Any accidents are forgivable, though, so thank God for that. But the truth is, I’ll probably mention the same stuff in this post that I’ve done over the last several years as I’ve been learning of the U.S.A.’s warmongering tendencies… except, I find it interesting that no one under 20 could join! Here in the U.S., if conscription was enforced again (this hasn’t happened since 1973), all males at least 17 or 18 (unless he’s at least 27, but they could change it because, you know, fear and paranoia) will be required to join the military… for what I don’t know. Knowing Trump, he’d assign us all (I’m 34, and they’d make us serve until we’re 35 or 36) for all sorts of things that don’t even have any congruency with the Gospel, and when I refuse (although I thank God a man with autism like myself isn’t forced to join the military under any circumstance, but that can change, too), I’ll be put in prison because I had followed Jesus’ Word of peace, just like one Christian in the days of the early church had done — he wanted to be a man of peace, since Gospel-preaching is far better than combat of any kind (I do pray repentance from that for many soldiers in places like Russia and Myanmar, though) — he was executed for it. But the Lord hugely rewarded him for this, just as He had rewarded Paul for his service to Him, seeing that he had been executed by Nero because of his love for Jesus (2 Timothy 4:6-8 says he had done his best and is now in Heaven awaiting the heavenly city (see Revelation 21)). I put parentheses in my sentences too many times, I’m realizing. I apologize, people.

I also thank God that as of Friday, they’ll bar all military activity invading cities here, for the Lord has willed that love should be the norm. Yet I remember someone in my church whom I’ve known for a long time… the man mentioned that the judges were ruling against Trump one morning in April during ManPrayer at my church when one of my best friends was in town, and the man wanted us all to pray for Trump, but I feel like Jesus says, “No, no, no, dear friend. I’M ruling against him!” Such words the man spoke will not be forgiven. His wife also believes that abuse is completely criminalized, and she hates the lawmakers for it. So they’re not safe people to associate with, yet they’re prominent in my church. I hate it. I don’t know what I should say to anyone who’s visiting for the first time. I hope Evans, the man from Haiti, can feel at home in the town of Gilbert, where it’s actually safe… for now.

But here’s one thing that doesn’t seem fitting… why did God command the death penalty for any foreigner for getting involved in verse 51? Oh, wait… the Israelites didn’t want to be inclusive, and Jesus had to be 100% Israeli. Yet He knows that nothing should be built with blood (see Habakkuk 2:12). And speaking of prayer in the mornings, I never have it in me to visit when it’s sunrise, and now I know why: some people are required to be awake when many people are asleep by design — this comes from an ancient tribal pattern from thousands of years ago in which some people were awake at night to watch for predators (like being a watchman for a city, see Psalm 127:1). I don’t know which video I saw that contains this truth, but Doug Sharpe has many interesting fun facts on YouTube (that’s the channel I got that from, but you don’t need to agree with him in everything). So, if you feel frustrated because someone’s sleeping for a long time after you get up, you may actually be in good company, for he may be trying to keep you safe 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I mean, many of us in developed nations don’t usually watch for predators when we have keys and Ring doorbell systems, but for those who can’t afford the latter and don’t feel safe, that may be annoying. But thank God it’s not required by law right now! If it were (and Trump’s bill from July 4 will probably mandate worthlessness with it, and if that’s not the case, Project 2025 may step in to shred our dignity), the Lord’s commandment of Proverbs 17:19 about not taking on any needless defences will be abolished. They’ve already violated this with the national security content, believing Mexico and other nations south of it combined were more dangerous than the U.S. is, but I know the government here has fueled all these nations’ cartels, and I don’t know how long they’ve been doing this for. So the U.S. has no safety, for a lot more than half the country thinks they need to have purity of race. And they were warned against putting a dictator in power, too. So, God will erase the U.S. from the map.

I hope chapter 2 goes well… this is going to be either interesting or unfamiliar… I don’t know what it says. Later, guys!

Is God Apathetic To Those Who Are Disabled? An Analysis Of Leviticus 21 (08/18/2025)

Posted on by Ron Outland

These verses, I think, are what the devil uses often to convince people that the disabled humans (the blind, deaf, crippled, neuro divergent, those born addicted to drugs, etc.) that they don’t matter, and that’s not God’s heart. For verses 17-24 were what the Israelites wanted, and the note the VOICE copy writes only excuses the worthlessness they worshiped. Don’t you remember that God didn’t want Aaron to be Moses’ mouthpiece? (Refer to my note of Exodus 4.) I wrote about this nearly five years ago. Sorry it’s taken so long to be nearly 3/4ths of the way through the very next book 😅😅 but this chapter is found in pages 70-71 of the NKJV Bible I have for this project (mentioned in the previous note), page 91 of the NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 148-149 of my VOICE copy, and pages 147-148 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I wrote the previous note in my room, several miles from the library, and I’m writing this note right after that one in my room, too. I still don’t have a working laptop 💻 or computer 🖥️⌨️ but that’s OK, for I can still use my phone 📱📲📶🛜📳 to write texts and other things, as long as it holds out. If it breaks and I can’t fix it, I’ll have to get it replaced, often for a higher price for probably less quality than this one. I don’t think it’s right that productivity is worshiped, though. When they try to mandate this, I’ll refuse, for I love God and will obey Him by not even doing anything work-related, regardless of what context it is. I’m surprised they don’t enforce it in Utah or even North Korea… but I know Mormonism is the most ridiculous popular cult there is, next to the Calvinism-Arminianism dichotomy, which they’ve made into a spectrum, which I knew to be a lie. I learned this in mid-2013. I found out by God’s Word that the political spectrum in this country is a lie almost five years ago, too, around the time I wrote the post I had referenced earlier this evening.

I do think it’s good they have decided to give all disables humans some level of service in many parts of the world, but I knew that when my mom tried to force me to take social security, it wouldn’t be enough to pay my debts, and even to this day, despite earning nearly 15 bucks an hour every time I work, it’s still not enough, partly due to the inflation and partly due to housing often becoming inaccessible when I need it. I mean, I thank God I have a roommate and friend I have a lot in common with, but I’d love to find a wife someday. I don’t expect that to happen, though. Indeed, I’m scared some of the single women I know, ten of whom I find interesting, will die on me because they’re too good for this world 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 they’re all too young to die, just like me… I still remember how painful 2022 had been when I lost five friends, an 86-year-old coworker, and my grandmother (she was 81) —- I hope my dad’s stepfather, who’s 96 or 97 years old, is still alive (I just saw him in Prescott five months ago) —- the five friends were between 25 and 32 years old 💔💔💔💔💔 Regan, the 25-year-old, was the youngest, and she was done in by her abusive husband 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 I still love that she prayed for people nonstop until like 2 am on many nights she had been alive, and she also gave multiple Bibles to others. And I had given two to some of the people on my block (along with 60 bucks to one of them, who had gotten his rent money stolen from him by his roommate) before I had learned of any of that. I have two Bibles for someone to receive, and they’ll total 15 since I started doing that in early 2022. I do wish I could find someone in my church to distribute them to, though, if they’ve never been to one before. And I don’t want this to become about my own glory by doing the Lord’s work, so I pray for the right human beings to give these to.

If we need help for believing God loves the disabled, we can simply take a look at what Jesus did throughout His ministry (such as Matthew 8-9, John 9, Luke 7, etc.) —- I love how He gave His life for our healing, just as Isaiah wrote in Isaiah 53:5 that by Jesus’ stripes (being whipped repeatedly) we are healed 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💘💓💞💕💟❣️💌❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷🤍🩶🖤🤎 Peter later references this in 1 Peter 2:24.

I don’t want to leave out that there were certain things priests should do… they probably had a stricter regimine than the civilians did. James 3:1 says also that most of us shouldn’t become teachers, since we all make many mistakes (James 3:2 (NASB)). I know I don’t want to run back to the same sins I’ve once found fascinating… I don’t even know how we become infatuated them them… I know I often think I’m getting better at fighting it, but when we think like this, we’re not controlling sin, but sin is actually in control instead. And the phrase “God is in control” isn’t found anywhere in the Scriptures, so I know they’ve come up with this saying to try and make everyone believe everything works according to His plan every time, so declaring God being first in rank to deny anything is an atheist move which He will never forgive. It reminds me of Jeremiah 6:14.

I don’t know what I’ll be able to do when it comes to releasing later chapters and verses in future Bible notes, for I know they want to make me believe hope doesn’t exist despite the fact they run many of the country’s churches, so I hope I can keep a low profile about all of it. I don’t know how I’ll be able to do that if I can detect someone hiding secrets from me, though. Indeed, if they are, I’ll soon believe all the more that too many people have something to hide, and will even be caught up in believing it’s not good to be private when needed, whether I can be safe to write something godly or not. I feel I’ve seen too much, actually… I don’t know who I should give a chance to when it comes to even a simple thing like friendship next. I can’t bring up what I’ve discovered about others on here, either. Maybe I should write about it in my spare time? I can’t say… but I hope to see you in chapter 22! (haha that rhymed)

I’ve Been Meaning To Do This For Quite Some Time…

Posted on by Ron Outland

So, back in early June, someone emailed me about her sister’s wedding, and I gave her some good ideas for it (I’ll be alternating between writing this and double-checking her post she wrote about it) —- I’ll be looking at each paragraph today, for I’ve been busy with work and I’m not good with checking my emails, like, at all 😅😅

So firstly, the post starts with showing up for the kids the Church forgot. And last night, I was posting on my Instagram story about some girls in Kenya that are in danger of child marriage (I can’t believe this still occurs today) and when I chose a song for it I started crying BAD. But thank God we don’t need to leave our homes to try and provide hope to the little humans somewhere else, thanks to Internet giving. Indeed, I often forget about the dangers the U.S. children face unless I’m at work, but I’m glad she let me know about asking teachers, social workers, and youth pastors to provide safety for those facing abuse at home… but I don’t think there’s enough abusive content that’s criminalized. I could go on and on about this all day, though.

I’m also glad she wrote about kids not needing grand gestures but that we shoe consistency instead. I pray God helps me to do this… I often feel trapped in a precarious place while I notice ANY family because I know there’s a very high chance a little human or two is being bullied at home, and often I can’t do anything about it, for they messed with the laws akin to Isaiah 10:1-2. A bit off-topic: why should ANYONE claim this passage is weaponized much more than Romans 13:1-7 is?! I know they love unjust power, for I did some research with ChatGPT last week about this, the answer of which I’ll post in a week or two, God-willing.

The author of that post also wrote that writing a check does indeed help, but if we have children in our lives, we need to show up A LOT. I wish I could be present with my nieces and their half-sister every day… they just live in Phoenix and I’m like 50 miles to the southeast, plus, I don’t have a car, and I need to save BIG for my student loan repayments. Thank God I still probably don’t need to pay for anything (I had signed up for a zero-payment plan several years ago, before COVID-19 had happened).

She’s also right about trust healing hearts. It’s too bad the U.S. has a lot of violence, either here or causing it overseas, but for those who don’t want any of that, good. A low-crime area like Gilbert is likely a high-trust area, and I’m privileged to have lived there for several years not they long ago (I often dream about going back). So starting a nonprofit can be based on a high-trust community, and we need that trust to raise money for that, seeing there’s sometimes a fraudulent organization that serves only themselves (Scripture repeatedly warns against this) 😓😓😓😓😓 but if we give to a good organization and see where the money actually goes to, that’s God’s call to keep giving whenever possible 💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💗💗💗💗💗💘💓💞💕❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

The author of the post also noted not everyone is called to foster or adopt, too, for if everyone were, I don’t think we’d actually have a safer world, for there’s indeed a lot of destructive people that pose as friendly humans (I know what it’s like to have lived with some of them) —- if anyone within their means wants to adopt any orphans, such as a couple who loves Jesus and doesn’t disobey 1 Peter 3:7 in even the slightest fashion, I think they should do it. And if silence feels safer, there’s actually something very very very wrong with this picture. For Proverbs 31:8-9 calls all Christians to speak for those who can’t speak for themselves, just as the author also noted.

It’s also an easy temptation to try and “fix what is broken”. (The author notes that, too.) I know there’s all these parents in our world that, by doing this, they play God. And that’s just not right. If we rescue someone instead of walking alongside them (maybe the temptation comes from watching movies like the Spider-Man trilogy that came out roughly 20 years ago) —- indeed, often a victim doesn’t know if they’ve been rescued —- we do them a disservice, for they may not know they’re in danger. I know I don’t think danger’s easy to notice here… but I found out several years back that the U.S. often threatens others’ safety, even in a good area. I also feel I’ve mentioned that a lot in my posts… I apologize, people 😅😅 but thank God the author also said that lectures don’t work; love and time does more than these.

The final two paragraphs mention that Jesus didn’t wave from afar but He stepped into time and did His thing on Earth 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 for He welcomed the strangers and touched the untouchable so we may want to love Him and do the same, just as she noted. I hope we can encourage our own little humans to follow the dreams God gave them, for they, too, are made in His image, just as Genesis 1:27 says they are 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗 I don’t believe in contacting one without their parents’ permission, though, mostly for myself. I don’t trust myself with children, really… I often fear I’m making them uncomfortable, seeing that it’s easy to sin against them even by accident, and I don’t know if God will forgive me while I take utmost caution. If He does, that’s great 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼

Bottom line: the post is really good, and I hope to follow all the precautions it gives me if God entrusts me with the task of sponsoring an orphan or someone in a conflict zone… also, I find it thrilling the author, whose name is Michelle, gave me a shout out at the end of her post! Thank God for her 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 I pray love and mercy for Michelle and that she’s able to follow the right stuff still 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 I hope she finds this and appreciates it, maybe I’ll send her this in my email? I think I’ll do that once I publish this post. Anyways, I hope to see you soon in Leviticus 20!

I Think God Can Use Any Business Opportunity For His Gospel Work… If It’s Good: Being Cautiously Optomistic About Any Country In Light Of Leviticus 19:35-36 (07/23/2025)

Posted on by Ron Outland

Well, what do you know? Last night, I had a conversation with a friend of mine, and he told me people come to the U.S. from all over the world in business dealings, mostly… so I think that’s actually good, for it can be an opportunity for me to preach the Gospel to anyone arriving if he/she is receptive about it, including those who speak a different language (don’t worry, every language has meaning, as 1 Corinthians 14:10 says). But I just realized that Babylon (a.k.a. Rome, read Revelation 17-18) will do the same thing during the Great Tribulation, and that’ll be doomed to fall as previous empires did. And I think the people will only be angry at me in most cases if I preach the Gospel to a foreigner and they receive Jesus as a result… but I believe in fair business dealings, as this passage says, which is found in page 70 of my NKJV Bible, page 90 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), page 147 of my VOICE copy (along with its note appearing soon after), and page 145 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’m not sure where that friend stands on the issue or if he even realizes the Babylon thing explained above (for I actually told him that the Maldives only allows Islam, and he didn’t know that previously, plus he’s over ten years older than me and a pastor of a ministry at my church), but I’m not really sure what to believe concerning most people I know 😓😓😓😓😓 yet I did find out this morning I can still write my Bible notes from my phone, which I’m doing right now at home instead of going to the library… sorry I didn’t write any notes earlier this month; I should’ve known I could just tilt my phone horizontally and press “new post” 😅😅😂🤣🤣🤣🤣 silly me 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 now I know what to do for future notes if I run into any technological complications… unless I need to get a new phone 📱📲🔋🪫💻🖥️⌨️🖱️🖲️💾 (the floppy disk was for me potentially saving my documents) 😅😅 but anyway, I think it’s good that business in any country is an opportunity to preach the Gospel there, for it says in Ecclesiastes 11:1-2, “Cast your bread on the waters, for you will find it after many days. Give a portion to seven, yes, even [divide it] to eight, for you know not what evil may come upon the earth” (Amplified Bible, Classic Edition) 🍞🥐🥖🫓🥨😋 yea, it even confirms Luke 16’s investment teachings (verses 1-12).

I ddo feel business may be the only thing the U.S. is good for nowadays, though (besides the good-looking nature areas, but even then, they’re not too safe whether there’s a huge crowd or not). I’m surprised forgiveness may still be legal, actually… they passed the giant bill on July 4th to ruin many more things, including possibly making it impossible for my student loans to be eliminated, even if I get a five-figure check for any reason. I really hope to leave the U.S. and never come back so I’d actually have a chance of being more effective in God’s work of forgiveness and restoration, if He will do this. As it stands, though, I feel all the Lord’s messages only fall on deaf ears even when a friend of mine may be willing to hear the truth in a town like Gilbert. I don’t want to face only unreceptive people… and I think it’ll only get worse where I work, even if a coworker is at least a decade younger than me, not just in my Fry’s store, but any store I work in this country. I also remember another friend of mine came here from Australia to be a pastor at my church under the senior pastor’s leadership, and when that didn’t work, he decided to do something else (but thank God he’s still here, living within five miles east of me, and if he has to leave, I’d like to join him). Indeed, I feel my time in the U.S. may come to an end soon, even though I was born here and hadn’t visited anything outside of it… but that’s OK if I am able to get to a country that actually gives this generation the respect they deserve, such as my nieces and their half-sister. Yet I don’t have the money or even the connections to do this, and I think Trump knows I need my loans erased, so he’s decided to make it even more painful for me and other borrowers who couldn’t finish their education due to family drama and persecution for what they believe in, especially if it’s good, even making it impossible for me to feel safe again, if he could. But God can prevail against him 🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥💗💗💗💗💗💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 for His love and faithfulness still endures for those who suffer for His Name’s sake like how 2 Timothy 2:13 says.

If I can, I’ll be back with chapter 20 of Leviticus soon, so I’ll see you then! In the meantime, I need to check back on a lady who emailed me something and wants me to post it on my website… I hope to get to that soon, too. I’m just ridiculously bad at checking my emails 😅😅 OK, enough rambling on my part. Later, guys!

It’s Not Worth It To Disregard The Foreigners — Other Ways To Love Others As Detailed In Leviticus 19:33-34 (06/21/2025)

Posted on by Ron Outland

This is huge, and I’m grieved in my spirit because lots of people in the U.S., though they had promised to be the hands and feet of Jesus to those who are disadvantaged, are now actually saying hatred is a virtue, and the proof is in the reality that there aren’t very many refugees here, maybe like 20,000 or less. I shared on my Instagram stories some time earlier this week that, believe it or not, Iran hosts more refugees than anywhere else on Earth. And they enforce Islam, so it’s kind of ironic they’re doing this, for Jesus had said that if we treat refugees badly, we purposely sin against Him 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔 and He added that these will go into eternal fire (Matthew 25:46). Indeed, I remember that Peter Furler, former Newsboys frontman (he stepped down about 15 years ago), had mentioned in his 2008 live album, Houston We Are Go, at the end, that there’s a greater separation coming, far greater than the first one that had occurred in Genesis 3. And his character still holds up all these years later. This passage is found in page 70 of the NKJV Bible I have for this four-translation project, page 90 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), page 147 of my VOICE copy, and page 145 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’ll be the first to admit I don’t really know much about hosting refugees myself, though, and I want that to improve, mainly in hiding a family in a safe neighbourhood if I’m married, but I can’t do it here, for even getting a girlfriend in this country means I have too high of a chance of being in poverty for the rest of my life, at least according to Arizona standards. I thank God the wages are more than double than that of places like Utah, Texas, Louisiana, etc., but it’s not enough, for I can’t save enough money every day, even when learning how to cook better foods. For as soon as I save ANYTHING, I have to use it almost immediately, usually if my tax return from early each year isn’t a part of it. I need to ask about what health insurance my job has, if there still is one 😬😬😬😬 if it’s not returning, and I can’t get affordable dental insurance, either, it’ll depend on luck or chance if I ever get out of debt, just as Ecclesiastes 9:11 says that the race isn’t to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, nor bread to the wise, nor riches to men or women of understanding and intelligence, nor favour to people with a lot of skills, but time and chance happen to them all (author’s translation). The Lord Jesus is alive and His eyes are upon those who fear Him (who revere and worship Him with awe), who wait for Him and hope in His mercies (which are new every morning; see Lamentations 3:22-23) and lovingkindnesses to deliver them from anything deadly and keep them alive in famine (see also Psalm 33:18-19), but it’s because Satan has stolen Jesus’ authority (see 2 Corinthians 4:4) and has infiltrated the Christian church after Scripture was completed in greater levels than previously imagined, especially in weaponizing the truth of God being first in rank and inserting phrases in the Bible such as “He is in control” that too many want nothing to do with Him, just as Romans 2:24 says of Satan’s children that the Name of God is blasphemed everywhere because of them. Thankfully, Jude thought of this, too (see Jude 3-19), and no one was supposed to insert or remove anything in or from God’s Word, respectively (Revelation 22:18-19). Yet the wicked people have weaponized this, too, and they have the upper hand most of the time, just as Proverbs 28:28 says.

So the question is: is safety still possible? If so, great, but even a town like Gilbert where I’m writing this now in a library can have some deeply disturbing moments, like that one guy I heard about who relentlessly beat up a kid from Queen Creek with some help from his friends, and when he died, the guy actually emoted over his dead body! And if that wasn’t bad enough, their families are psychopaths, much like O.J. had been when he had murdered his ex-wife and her friend back in 1994. I actually found out one day that this interrupted the NBA Finals on June 17th that year. I mean, God can still make safety happen, but this might not be possible because over 75 million people chose Trump instead of Jesus, as though He needed a convicted rapist to do His work. Other people like this have taken office, too, but it’s too unsafe to be in the U.S. at this point… which is why I got a book titled Extreme Devotion by Voice Of The Martyrs over a week and a half ago. I just finished day 5 on my way to the library at a bookstore where I sometimes get godly content from. One of the first stories featured the Rachel Scott story from Colorado where two godless men exalted Hitler by terrorizing their high school on April 20th, 1999. I’ve written about this before, but just in case someone brings this up to me, it was partly why I’m now Christian, though I only heard about it in February 2008. Better safe than sorry…

The craziest part is, I’m in Arizona, where racism isn’t too high and there’s sometimes some hilarious content people make on the roads; I wonder how those in closed countries like Vietnam, Laos, Libya, Egypt, North Korea, China, Cuba, etc. are handling this right now. Indeed, yesterday was World Refugee Day, and I wanted to show some support, but all I could do was share some content on my Instagram stories about this (most of them have since disappeared, for they’re only available for 24 hours each). And I’ve been through too many dangerous things already, so if forgiveness is criminalized here, I’d much rather get blown up because I believe Jesus forgives others than locked away in the mental hospital again, or worse, be put in prison where I can be butt-raped because someone’s bored! Indeed, a nation can fall apart at anytime, including the U.S., so that’s why we must practice kindness to others, including the refugees and those seeking safety, especially… I pray God helps me dodge bad laws here, for I can’t afford a place anywhere even in a foreign country where it’s actually safe. Plus, I have a lot of debts, so I don’t expect them to not drag me back if I leave, temporarily or otherwise. Besides, I have a family here, and I want to meet my three nieces’ new half-sister, who was born on June 3rd at 4:15 a.m. Her name is Monika Lee Snyder (their mom had gotten a new boyfriend), and I’ve seen the nickname Mocha, and I think that’s adorable 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍💗💗💗💗💗💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘💕💞❣️❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹 if her mom allows my brother and I to meet her, I’ll be forever grateful 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💓💓💓💓🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Oh, I should mention that I mentioned to someone on Threads last week I’d write on the Leviticus 19 passage, so I hope they see this. But those who die for their faith in Jesus are too good for this world (Hebrews 11:38), and I want more of God’s goodness both here and thereafter. I hope I can focus on an eternal reward even with the losses I’ve faced in multiple forms, but I don’t know how I can stand with others suffering for their devotions to Jesus if there aren’t enough people willing to stand with me in my opportunity to get a college degree and be financially stable that’s been stolen from me, and who can find joy if someone’s being told to be a masochist (one who takes pleasure in pain)? Maybe I need to read the Extreme Devotion book some more, which may take me years. And my 35th birthday is in just six months from Thursday next week, and I don’t know how much time I have left in this world if they want to clamp down on me for wanting kindness to be practiced 😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 I don’t even know how I’m going to share this note… follow the words of Ecclesiastes 11:1-2, perhaps? That’s my only lead, and if I don’t get encouragement from the right people, I’m toast. The worst part about all this is that many people deny what’s happening, repeating the pattern of Jeremiah 5:12-13. I don’t know what to do here… if God’s faithfulness remains true like it says in 2 Timothy 2:13, that’s great. I want to rely on that. I hope we all can…

The final note I’ll be doing on this chapter will be on verses 35-36. I’m not sure when I’ll do that, but I hope to see you then!