Ron And His Stories

I love the Scriptures, and I want to keep learning from each of them. And so, I think it’s fitting that I say that God only allowed Jacob to sleep with multiple women to start his own nation, as He had promised to Abraham (Genesis 15:5). Too bad this came with fornication and deceit, but hey, at least God is using people for His good purposes despite that we shouldn’t sleep with more than one person at the same time. But there weren’t a lot of people at that time, as a reminder… when was this? In the 19th century B.C.? I don’t really know… but my guess is as good as anyone else’s (unless they’re some professional historian and a Biblical scholar, in which case, he’s got it right more than anyone). As a reminder, there were a lot of strange scenarios throughout history, and the Bible records some of it. Thank God we don’t need to sleep with more than one person at the same time, even though they’ve legalized it in Utah because there’s so many Mormons there — they believe in polygamy, and I don’t think that’s right. I forgive them, though 😇😇😇😇😇 I do wish there was no retribution to those who don’t know any better, however. But this passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, page 22 of my NASB Bible, page 38 of my VOICE copy, and pages 37-38 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I want to know why Jacob did what he did throughout his life. I don’t think he rejected Jesus, but he did get angry with Rachel, one of his wives (Genesis 30:2), so I think that’s thoroughly un-Christian. I remember 1 Peter 3:7 saying that we should always be cooperating with our spouses, and I think this applies to any romantic relationship we might have a part in. I’ve been angry before at others, but I NEVER wanted to abuse them. Maybe Jacob just got caught up in the heat of the moment, but who hasn’t among all of us before? But we should learn from this and recognize that anger is not the way to go (James 1:19-20). There’s nothing wrong with godly anger, but we shouldn’t use that as fuel for revenge, either (Ephesians 4:26), seeing that it gives a foothold to Satan (Ephesians 4:27 (NLT)). And I hate evil spirits like that thing! I really wish that sin didn’t corrupt thing so badly that accommodations were at a really high point, both in Deuteronomy (see Matthew 19:1-9 for Jesus’ interpretation of the Mosaic Law), and in the world today. If you see something blatantly offensive, and you know you don’t have it in you to stop it, and especially if Jesus doesn’t plan on provoking others to more offences, chances are you should avoid getting involved entirely. I know I saw something on Google Maps that stirred my memory from when I was at the Phoenix Zoo once — an Arizona governor had requested that he be buried in a pyramid like an Egyptian pharaoh, and since they had accepted the people worshipping them in the past, the same is happening with that governor now. Is that weird, or what?! 😨😱😰 I don’t know when he lived, but I should put this out there for anyone unfamiliar with the abomination with self-deification. I’ve seen that happen before; I’ve even met two false messiahs in person! These I met about three years apart, but I’m not willing to go anywhere in which I would cross paths with someone like this. Of course, I’ll probably meet another false messiah at some other place, but I forgive them ahead of time. Still, I think that it’s insidious when someone deifies themselves… and it’s actually fairly common, though I still think that’s super-weird… 😳😩

Anyway, eight sons were born to Jacob by three different women so far, and from his fourth son, Judah (see chapter 38 for the sleazy events that continue his lineage), eventually came Jesus, with David living about a thousand years before Him (but several hundred years were still to come before David’s birth at that time). At least Jacob had enough sons to make a baseball team with him at the first batter in the beginning of the game, though (but baseball probably originated here in the U.S. many, many years later, I don’t know). A lot of ridiculous things happen between them, but (spoiler alert) Joseph forgives his brothers of their sin of selling him to slavery and reporting him dead, seeing that Egypt and the whole area around them was delivered from famine! Details in the next 20 chapters or so, of which I’ll get to eventually, God-willing, but not now.

If you have any prayer requests, you can submit them in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down on paper, and tape them to my bedroom walls! I just realized I have no tape, though… but I can get some at the store once I get paid, for I want to save my money lest I get any penalties with account transfers. I’ll see you later in this chapter!

EDIT: I realized I had quoted the wrong chapter from one of the Gospels in this note, and I’m really sorry 😅😂🤣 I also forgot to write this down, so I’m editing this twice 😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣 Forgive me though 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I wish I did things better, pray I remember Scripture better than just going off my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). See ya!

I think it’s even stranger than Laban had deceived Jacob into sleeping with Leah thinking it was Rachel; indeed, Laban’s country believed it was best to give the oldest daughter to the groom first, and he used it to trick Jacob. I think it’s ridiculous when someone uses a national belief to deceive or devalue someone. Still, all this took place over 14 years, so Jacob was middle-aged by that time, in today’s lifespan standards (for by the time anyone turns 40, they usually lose a lot of zest — I’ll comment on that later). This passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, pages 21-22 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 37-38 of my VOICE copy, and page 37 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. (I just realized I had goofed a bit on how I referenced the previous 14 verses on the previous post today, sorry!)

Why would Jacob sleep with multiple women while being married to at least one? (As a reminder, they did this because there weren’t a lot of people in any nation or tribe yet, and tribes always fought with one another, so God allowed that to happen to bide some time until Paul would write his monogamous philosophy in 1 Corinthians 7:2 many years later, for that philosophy was inspired by the Holy Spirit.) But it wasn’t Jacob’s idea to sleep with more than one female while interchanging relationships like this with them… also, I read some commentary about this several years ago; it said he shouldn’t have deceived anyone in the first place… whoever wrote that was (and still is) anti-grace, anti-Christian, and anti-freedom, not to mention an unforgiving atheist (I wrote something pretty unfriendly to describe this, but edited it a few minutes later) — that commentator deserves to be consumed by hell for all eternity, as all atheists will, given Psalms 14 and 53. Didn’t God later forgive Jacob for his misdeeds? And wasn’t He behind Jacob in eventually having a Saviour being descended from him? This should be plainly obvious, given the words of Jesus in Matthew 8:11-12 (NASB). I think it’s very clear that the Bible says Jacob is now in Heaven, though I only did find out a few years ago. Esau should NEVER have been worshiped by those godless men. Whomever becomes unforgiving is an Esau, so to speak. No wonder God promised the Edomites (his descendants) no future (see Obadiah)! Some note writers for this section of Genesis, when describing Jacob, had the same prideful attitude toward him. They, too, are going to Hell… and I’m not looking forward to any of it, like I had said about most of the U.S. people in an earlier note.

I should mention I’m currently at 1 Peter 3:7 in my progression of reading the NASB translation, and I’m at Matthew 23 in the Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) version. But I’m only up to here in the VOICE, and I remember finishing the NKJV before. Still, I pray for better understanding as I read through all these, and by the Holy Spirit, too. I know I don’t want to act against Him or His Word, yet I feel like I can’t avoid it sometimes, and in a noticeable way, too. Maybe it’s because I know of both how many other churchgoers in other communities will respond if I tell them that… that I’m keeping a low profile about my faith unless the Spirit tells me to do something and fills me with the boldness… lest I get put on trial again and learn something outrageous this time to keep me from getting sent to a mental hospital a third time, if I even have the chance to leave. As it is, I think Satan can use the low profile thing against me and rationalize it so I don’t know what happens until it’s too late. All this (and especially the reality of too little cash and needing to work for a very long time so that I don’t go anywhere until I’m 60, if I even get to live that long, since my mom had been lacking in funds herself to pay rent, yet I was able to move out a year later (this was in 2015-2016), but I didn’t find another place to live for 8 months, and I was homeless most of the time — I finally paid my first payment of rent to Jonathan in Cinco de Mayo 2017, and I’ve been living in the house since) — all this has scared me to death that I might do something (even something good) that might tick off someone and send a chain reaction of a more powerful wave of hostility so I don’t make it out by the time the first deliverance comes. I even fear there’s really nothing left from God for me, and that I’m completely delusional in thinking I can ever go further in solving even the slightest unresolved problem, for I still have debts to pay, I still don’t have a second job to match my Fry’s position in meeting student loan payments, and nothing has happened in terms of getting another interview (though I did have one for a cashiering position in a taco stand set up some time ago, but I couldn’t make it there) — I was just too busy. “I guess I’ll have to wait too long for an interview again… and the hiring managers can just keep worrying about themselves. That’s what they’re best at, right?” That’s what I said to my friend, Josh, as I was writing this down.

But pray that I find something; even if I’m getting several hundred dollars in cash again from someone, I need another part-time job to match my Fry’s shifts. I think that’s something you can pray about… and if you have any other prayer requests, you can submit them to my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down (if they’re good), then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in the final portion of this chapter (and possibly the next in the same note)!

I love how Jacob and his uncle (his mom’s brother; see verse 10) met and were super-happy to see each other! I wish this would happen with other relatives — I’m always up for seeing my niece even when I don’t have enough for travelling to her house 👨‍👧👩🏽‍🤝‍🧑🏼 (my brother and his fianceé always should be included) — I’d like to get her to accept Jesus, as well as her parents doing the same. I don’t think it matters which order it’s in, but I pray my niece does it first so she may have more fun in her childhood than I did. I think some of my best days were when I was in college… but this era is nice, too (but I don’t think a lot of stuff behind the scenes is very good). Still, it’s been six years since I’ve been to class, and I accepted Christ in July 2009, so I’m probably not going to do well if I were in class again. I don’t think I have it in me to focus this good… anyway, I’m getting off-topic… Jacob and Rachel had never met, given the content of verse 12. This passage is found in pages 16-17 of my NKJV Bible, page 21 of my NASB Bible, pages 36-37 of my VOICE copy, and page 36 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I find it good that Jacob stayed with his uncle for a month to help with his livestock! I don’t know how old he was; he was probably in his 30s, but I do remember his vow he had just made to God (Genesis 28:20-22). I can’t promise anything, though, not even to God, for I not only need His help if I say anything to be faithful to it, but I also don’t expect Him to back me up in anything, either. Do you think I’m committing a sin by saying this? Comment below! (If you don’t want to comment here, that’s ok, I can send it to a friend, and I can copy and paste that last question in a Facebook message.) I heard my mom say something I shouldn’t have heard last Friday night in a belated Thanksgiving dinner, but I don’t want to mention it here. I don’t even want to believe her words, for they’ve never brought me peace, so why should I believe her ever again? My niece wasn’t there, either (for she and her mom were at the Philippines to visit an ancestor there, seeing that he wasn’t doing so well), but my brother stayed home; I don’t think he has a passport. Besides, we both know how ungodly our mom can be. I’ll call him if he’s not working after I finish writing this, but I don’t know if this is relevant… I don’t know if he’s even interested in hearing from me 😓 but I’m probably going to have the gift to my niece be the main focus in that phone convo. I pray for the right words to say here… I always feel like I’m upsetting the laws of creation with my mom around, as if God needed her to do what she does and say what she says. But He doesn’t need anyone, thankfully, He instead is interested in receiving people as anyone receives Jesus. I can’t help but think I’m only able to remember fear-based obedience if someone like my mom comes into the picture, though. But that’s not the case with the Holy Spirit 😌😌😌😌😌😌😌

Do you have a prayer request? Write one in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’m going to call my brother (his name is Chris) and see if he has an appropriate device to play the Frozen movies for my niece when she sees them, for I plan on getting a DVD or Blu-ray disc for it. I don’t know if I’ll write anything later today or even if I’ll bring up to Chris what I wrote on here besides my niece’s Christmas present, though.

See you later in the chapter!

Wow, this is amazing! I’ve had some pretty cool dreams before, one being that I was at a Hillsong worship night in Prescott in 2011, beating out Lil Wayne in approval (then I found myself in something like abstract art in a Sonic video game, and eventually in a tech store with a friend from New Zealand, though not being someone I know from Two Rivers), but Jacob certainly was blessed because of this revelation in the dream God gave him! This passage is found in page 16 of my NKJV Bible, page 21 of my NASB Bible, page 36 of my VOICE copy, and pages 35-36 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I just reread the last parts of chapter 3 of Brian Houston’s There Is More book, and remembered that it was the comfort of the Holy Spirit that gives me the power to live faithfully in Christ when things go sideways. It’s a shame that I discovered recently that freedom is going to be hated more and more often as if it were license to sin, though. For if the U.S. government really is working with Russia so they can enslave the world eventually, is this not a sign that the end of human history is almost upon us? But I don’t think you should surrender any godly dreams you have. Some dreams we have are our own, to be sure, but everyone is able to get a vision from God about how they can bless others and be the light of the world as Jesus said (Matthew 5:14). It’s really hard to concentrate on that when you see a lot of haters and/or delays that happen unnecessarily, though. I know I don’t have much of any clue how to move past that; I think I can only walk away. If I’m not allowed to do that, then I’m screwed. I’ve seen enough delays before I moved to Gilbert happen before, and most of them were endangering my very soul! (For I have been homeless twice prior to moving in with Jonathan.) If something happens because I’m writing this, I just might conclude that there’s no way for me to avoid these annoyances under any circumstance, for I don’t know if God will prevent another needless delay even just one more time. At least I can say something good and interesting, but I don’t want to embarrass Jesus as if He isn’t supposed to be outside of the churches He’s named in. If this nation restricts freedom of religion in any fashion like Russia did, I literally have no shot to go to any unreached people groups and have people accept Jesus there as I have hoped to do for so long. Even God has told me that I shouldn’t expect anything promising in the days ahead due to this. I don’t know what to think about the future; I’m afraid to find I won’t be able to be myself again. This really shouldn’t happen. I know Jacob accepted Jesus after his children were born, but I don’t know when this happened. I know he hadn’t begun to follow Him yet because he later played favourites in chapter 37 here. Maybe we should believe that even the worst-case scenario doesn’t mean the good words or deeds are wasted.

Any prayer requests? I know I want to pray that anyone reading this would be safe, especially since the hostility against the Holy Spirit is only growing, since most of it is coming from within the churches that are supposed to change the world. But if you have one, leave it in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com — I’ll read each one (I’ve got to get better at checking my e-mail each day), write any good ones down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! Oh, I should’ve mentioned this (I think the Holy Spirit just told me): that someone’s going to read this and believe my words are heretical and useless, as if Christ Jesus died for nothing. Those will come most likely from the “Christian” heretics who believe Jesus didn’t die for you… those guys are really the ones who hate God. Think about that next time you walk into a church and find yourself pissed off at someone who values obedience over love. You’ll quickly agree with me. Indeed, Jesus is saying the same thing now, too. (I have to say, though, this was kind of a postscript, but I just had some interesting words from Jesus to write down in this website.)

See you in chapter 29!

In these eight chapters, I notice that Jacob isn’t trying to deceive people anymore, but someone tricks Jacob at least once. Unfortunately, what Esau had said about him in Genesis 27:36 seems to be the theme for who he is… at least according to him. But I don’t think he had wanted to cause him any harm, yet Esau never forgave him anyway. I think Satan was doing a play on words against Jacob throughout these chapters… as if he deserved to be led into sin or something. I think God had plans for both Esau and Jacob… good ones, in terms of Jeremiah 29:11, in fact. It’s too bad that Isaac didn’t become Christian until after Jacob had convinced Esau to sell him his birthright… for what I don’t know. For I remember in Genesis 26:25 that he was convinced Jesus was God, yet his parents never saw Isaac worshipping Him… until he finally died at 180 (Genesis 35:28-29). At least he saw Jacob one more time before then… but I don’t think Jacob was converted until long after Joseph was born. When this happened, I don’t know. Still, these chapters are found in pages 16-21 of my NKJV Bible (yes, the text is small there), pages 20-27 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 35-47 of my VOICE copy (with the notes sandwiched between some of them), and pages 35-46 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. Did Rebekah ever become convinced of Jesus, though? I can’t tell… indeed, how much more unsure am I about the rest of Jacob’s family except Joseph on this!

Have any prayer requests you want to talk to me about? Do that in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, and tape them to my bedroom walls! I do need to check my e-mail if anything has been submitted, though 😅 but over time, I can do notes all across this. Have a fun day, and I’ll see you in the next one!

As I was wondering what to write on Jacob’s story in this part of Genesis, I felt the Holy Spirit tell me I should update you on my progress on the translations I’m using for this. Well, so far, I’ve still got the NKJV finished (I can’t unfinish it, after all), but I’m not done with the other three versions yet, the NASB, VOICE, and Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) versions. Nevertheless, I’m up to Hebrews 4 in the NASB, Matthew 17:21 in the Amplified Bible (Classic Edition), which is actually now called the AMPC for abbreviation purposes, and I’m only up to Genesis 28:19 (I just read a lot of chapter 28 to give myself a preview to Jacob’s story in chapters 28-35 here) in the VOICE, but I’m thoroughly thankful for these. I do feel it’s difficult to fight against Scriptural manipulation, but I was reading a note explaining the Hebrews 12:15 phrase “root of bitterness” — it goes as follows: “We all know the truth that ‘suffering produces perseverance’ and other Christian virtues (Rom 5:3), but at the same time we know people who have experienced suffering or sickness (which are treated as quite different categories in Scripture) and have become bitter rather than better due to the experience. Bitterness, to be sure, is no Christian virtue, even if it is at times overlooked in people of faith (see Ruth 1:20-21 for the example of Naomi). It is not addressed directly in Scripture, except possibly in this one verse, Hebrews 12:15. Yet this text still raises a number of issues. What is a ‘bitter root’? Does it have anything to do with the vice of bitterness? Why is it connected to missing ‘the grace of God’? And how dies it ‘defile many’? ¶ A frequent interpretation of this verse is that it simply warns against bitterness or ‘bitter root judgments.’ Since the term ‘bitter’ appears in the verse and all of us know individuals who have for one reason or another become bitter, such an interpretation sounds reasonable. The verse, then, would rightly point out that such attitudes (and the judgments of others that flow from them, like poison seeping our of a festering wound) can injure those who hold them, blocking these people from the many good things God has for them. In addition, it can injure the whole Christian community, infecting it with a fractious negativity and smearing the character of its leaders. Such observations have been made by most pastoral leaders. The question is whether the author has these observations in mind. ¶ The answer to that question must be no. The context of the passage in Hebrews 12 is that of holding on to the faith despite difficulties. Where commitment has grown weak, it is to be strengthened; the ‘lame’ in the community are to be healed; ‘level paths’ are to be make for their feet (Heb 12:12-13). The ‘level paths’ (from Prov 4:26) are the ways of holiness without which no one will see God (Heb 12:14). Having called for a firm commitment, the author continues with a series of warnings. Esau, an irreligious man, had an inheritance and lost it, being unable afterward to regain what he had so lightly sold. Israel was disciplined severely at Mount Sinai for their disobedience, but the Christians to whom Hebrews is addressed have come to an even more glorious place and therefore will be so much more severely disciplined if they reject God What might they be in danger of rejecting? They might reject the message of the author, who is calling for them to hold fast to Christ and not abandon Him in apostasy. ¶ The phrase ‘bitter root’ is an Old Testament allusion, for it is very similar to a phrase in the Greek version of the Old Testament, the version normally quoted by the author of Hebrews. In Deuteronomy 29:18 we read, ‘Make sure there is no [person] among you today whose heart turns away from the LORD our God to go and worship the gods of those nations; make sure there is no root among you that produces such bitter poison.’ By comparing the two contexts, we see the point the author is making. To miss or fall short of the ‘grace of God’ is the equivalent if turning away from the Lord in the Old Testament. Simply put, it means apostasy, a failure to commit oneself to God’s grace. Such an apostate is a ‘bitter root’ or, to use the Old Testament phrase, a ‘root that produces bitter poison.’ Just as one apostate in Israel could influence many neighbors to serve gods other than Yahweh, so one apostate among these Christian could lead others to forsake the faith. This, then, is the meaning of the text within its context. ¶ Bitterness is not good. It is, in fact, a form of anger (that is, a nursed anger that has been allowed to smolder within), s topic about which the New Testament has much to say (see Gal 5:20; Jas 1:19). It can also be a characteristic of jealousy, which is condemned in James 3:14. Thus, if bitterness is broken down into its root vices, one will discover that Scripture has a lot to say about it. But this passage is not about bitterness; it is about apostasy. If bitterness is not good, apostasy is devastating. It means missing the grace of God and coming into judgment before the God who is ‘a consuming fire’ (Heb 12:29).” (This was taken from Hard Sayings Of The Bible, pages 691-692, written by four different men in the 90s, so I didn’t write any of that.) As I was reading this, I heard the Holy Spirit say (not to make new Scripture, of course), “I think you live in a bitter culture, Ron.” And He’s right. I’ve noticed the bitterness get really high, having been attacked by cynicism too many times in this life — and I can’t take it anymore. The generations have been getting very bitter throughout history, and I think we as Millenials (and our children) need help, too. People of every age group might be bitter through and through, in fact. Most people don’t know Jesus, and too many churches claim they do when they really don’t. If cynicism spreads further and further, at this rate, no one’s going to be saved. I want to enjoy God and His goodness instead of seeing power take over as if He had recruited policemen to murder and rape everyone in sight… you know? But I heard Him say He’ll end the bitterness one day. I don’t know how long that will last, but I can’t expect the grace of God to be left undisturbed or undisrupted for very long. Still, Jesus can remove all the bitterness in an instant, and I thank God for that 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇

I realize most of this post was about the root of bitterness, but I think Jesus wanted me to read that and post it here for this reason. I believe it’s the heart of the problem, for they don’t believe Jesus wants them to dream big. I’m actually having difficulty believing Him for big dreams like this myself. But I thank God that since I had already accepted that, it won’t be removed (Romans 11:29). So I’ll be back in the future to give you a rather short narrative of Jacob’s story! Hopefully I have the day off for that…

I really don’t like what the hairy man does here (see Genesis 25:25 for whom I’m speaking of) — Hebrews 12:16 speaks of him not just as squandering something sacred, but also as pretty sexual, and I don’t want to fall into this, for we’ve all messed up sexually, I think. Esau plans to kill his own brother Jacob as soon as he realizes what he had done to him, and as a result, a family feud is born. The Amplified Bible leaves a footnote on verse 41 that says this: “Here began a feud that was to cost countless lives throughout succeeding centuries. Esau’s descendants, the Amalekites, were the first enemies to obstruct the flight of Jacob’s descendants from Egypt (Exod. 17:8); and the Edomites even refused to let their uncle Jacob’s children pass through their land (Num. 20:17-20). Doeg, an Edomite, all but caused the death of Christ’s chosen ancestor David (I Sam. 21, 22). Bloody battles were fought between the two nations in the centuries that followed. It was Herod, of Esau’s race (Josephus, Antiquities of the Jews 14:1, Section 3), who had the male infants of Bethlehem slain in an effort to destroy the Christ Child (Matt. 2:16). Satan needs no better medium for his evil plans than a family feud, a “mere quarrel” between two brothers. ” And the commentator was right. My mom had tried to divide my brother and I along with many of our other relatives over the years, but between me and my brother himself, it didn’t work. And we almost killed each other at one point because neither of us knew what she had planned. I’m really hoping for no drama when I get to the Thanksgiving dinner in three and a half weeks (it’s on the 29th), but I want to see my niece there, otherwise, it won’t be worth it should any reprobate fury unfold. Indeed, my mom knows division is awful; I saw her get fired up about it once last summer or something like that. Yet she keeps attacking people for no good reason… I don’t know what she’s been up to aside from her job, but I don’t want to find out; I’m just certain she’s toxic, as a doctor has said before. Indeed, this passage is found in page 16 of my NKJV Bible, pages 20-21 of my NASB Bible, pages 35-36 of my VOICE copy, and pages 34-35 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’m praying I don’t repeat Esau’s sins, either, for he actually frustrated his own parents — God hates it when someone sows discord among family members (Proverbs 6:19). And unfortunately, my mom has done this before, yet blames everyone for everything (see Jude 16 for speaking against the bellyaching of fault-finding), so I’m just hoping I can still be alive. I never know when she strikes someone with hateful words next, so I’m afraid to find that Bee might be mortally wounded by this. I don’t get it, why would anyone want to divide their own relatives? I just don’t understand… indeed, once Edom took credit for pulverizing Judah in 586 B.C., God spoke strongly against them in the context that they’d have no future (see the book of Obadiah, located right before the book of Jonah in the Prophets near the end of the Old Testament). It’s great to pray for any nation to gain disciples of Jesus, but we don’t know how many are left that are descended from Esau here. I mean, who knows? I’m already feeling like I stand alone in my convictions half the time; I don’t want my family divided into oblivion, either! 😭😭😭😭😭

I don’t know how the rest of my posts are going to go; I just pray I speak God’s blessing in them. For I feel so bad about my own mom trying to divide and control that other people that I’m not even related to can feel it, not counting the doctors I’ve talked to when I stayed in a mental hospital for nearly a month (that wasn’t my mom’s fault; someone else tried to shut me up because of my faith in Jesus). And when I discover something I hadn’t noticed before in the Bible, I’m afraid to tell anyone because they don’t seem to share the same heart of Christ as I do, even my roommates. I’m actually wondering why I’m still trying to be carefree when I know someone or something will put a damper on my spirits as soon as I get hopeful or confident about anything… I can’t seem to be fighting against the tide of the evil Jesus spoke of in Matthew 24:12. I hope a friend reads this…

Do you want to pray about anything? If you want to leave me a prayer request, write to me at my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down (if they’re good, I guess), and tape them to my bedroom walls! It’s about 10:40 a.m. at the time I’m finishing this post, so you can take care that I didn’t back out of what I said in the last two posts during the weekend. See ya!

Hey, friends, I wanted to clarify that I don’t want to speak what I wrote in the last post because I know that talking only about severity (that’s what people have called messages like this in the past) is a total waste of time, and I don’t enjoy hearing any message about this. Usually, they’re preached in an unforgiving spirit, and it’s actually kind of why I avoid most of the churches in this world. Forgiveness is supposed to be more popular! Yet for some reason it isn’t, but the Church didn’t start out this way. The early church was amazing, preaching repentance and forgiveness, miracles, many deeds of love everywhere there were disciples! So I’m really sorry if I offended you with what I said, yet I don’t really regret what I wrote, for I’m hoping Jesus’ love is more accepted in more places. For He loves you and wants to see you living out His fullness without even breaking a sweat ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍💗💗💗💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 — I don’t think even a million emojis could do justice how I feel about the fact Jesus loves everyone; I wish this happened more often! It just sucks that retribution is more popular, so that’s what those lovers of unforgiveness will get and nothing more; that’s all I’m trying to say. I thank God it’s not too late to honour Him, too, just like I said on the last post about 15 minutes ago. Also, I’m going to give you another spoiler alert: Moses almost exclusively talks about severity; indeed, that’s what most of his accounts in the Pentateuch (Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy, the first five books of the Bible) mention. But God’s goodness has always been infinite! It’s why He wanted to rescue the Israelites from slavery in Egypt. Too bad He wasn’t honoured much through out the centuries, though. But He was willing to give them another chance, even after He defeated them in 586 B.C., and again in A.D. 70, when Titus and the Romans destroyed Israel again because they crucified Jesus (but Israel hadn’t been re-established as a nation yet), but they did return to their homeland in 1948, and they won’t be uprooted anymore. It’s too bad they still love to dishonour God (though there’s a growing number of exceptions), but once the antichrist is revealed right after the Rapture happens, after the seven years of tribulation, the third temple Donald Trump and his associates are building for the son of Satan knowingly will be gone, and in New Jerusalem, Ezekiel’s Fourth Temple will be Jesus, and nothing bad will happen to either the Jews or Gentiles who accept Jesus anymore. We won’t sin again, either, so it’ll be non-stop fun, waterparks, rollercoasters, jungle expeditions, dinner with friends, just to name a few. And all of it will be dedicated to Jesus forever, so look forward to that! It won’t be a worship service that God didn’t intend to happen. So I’ll resume on Genesis 27 tomorrow night or Tuesday morning. Ciao!

The title of this post is taken from the NKJV title of this passage, which is found in pages 15-16 of that Bible I’m using — this passage is also in page 20 of my NASB Bible, pages 34-35 of my VOICE copy, and page 34 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. Anyway, as I read this, I’m remembering that I can’t find every good opportunity in this life to do the good I want to do (you’ll see this unfold on this blog over time), and I’m actually pretty sure that someone in my life has wanted to say to me for a long time, “You deserve to lose the great opportunities despite others’ actions, for you turned 18 before this started, and you should just kill yourself right now!” Well, I don’t think that’s biblical. I still can’t put my finger on what lie is driving this, though, seeing that I can’t seem to find the right Bible verse to address the problem despite having nearly ten and a half years pass since I became Christian, and at this point, I’m a little afraid to ask anyone no matter what church I step into, even Two Rivers. For I heard a message last night that was partially about waiting (I won’t go into details), but I at least still can believe the pastor doesn’t hate the younger people. If he did, I wouldn’t go there anymore. He knew I was homeless three years ago, and he knew I was struggling with work on and off for three months after I got my first job, so if he knew what led to these things, I’m pretty sure he might not even want to be in the church he’s in anymore, for I’m getting a hateful vibe out of most of the older adults there. I still haven’t addressed what led to my two stints of homelessness during my mid-20s, though, but my mom texted me last night about meeting at her boyfriend’s place or something for the day after Thanksgiving, and I’m not really looking forward to seeing this unless my niece is around. I think her mom’s cousins (at least some of them) are pretty chill compared to the other family members we have. The generations that came before us are full of monsters!

Sorry, I haven’t mentioned the actual content of this 11-verse passage… Isaac had just finished mistakenly blessing Jacob thinking he was Esau, and then, the actual Esau comes in from his hunting, then he finds out Jacob had tricked him again, so he goes nuts and tries again to get a blessing from Isaac… all he could do was meditate on what Isaac had spoken over him in verses 39-40 (according to the VOICE version — there, it says Isaac could only speak over Esau the blessing that’s in those two verses), and… I don’t know what you would do, but I’d feel like an accursed man if my mom again outsmarts someone I trust with a single word of what she believes, even to the point of feeling God doesn’t want me to live a radical life for Him. She’s done it twice already, outsmarted staff members that trusted both of us — they took her side! I think she’s trying to enslave me still, for I know that she hates everyone who disagrees with her in anything, especially if it’s a good belief we hold to. And she knows I can preach the message that sets people free (John 8:32), so she’s trying to hinder it as long as possible, filling up the measure of her sins as the Jews did (1 Thessalonians 2:16). That’s the mission of all the children of Satan. I don’t want to do any of this! I’ve really enjoyed the peace God has given and the security I deserve to have over the last two and a half years I’ve lived in Gilbert — it’s against the law to force someone to live somewhere they don’t want to live! It was illegal in the late 2000s… it’s still illegal now.

Also, I don’t know how to translate the passage into a way someone who’s had opportunities stolen from them can understand. My only guess is that people use this to enslave those who can’t get free from the demonic and unjust system other people have created. Indeed, only 1% of all slaves have ever been freed, because they’ve been repeatedly told they’re mindless and worthless soil-shoving losers! That completely enrages me, and I honestly wish people did more against it, whether it seemed convenient to them or not. I guess people can manipulate one’s free-will long enough to steal, if it were possible, a chance for them to know Christ Jesus. That’s utterly satanic, and I think God should act against them before it’s too late. But of course, we never get any timely opportunities often enough… people still die of injustice, even if they’re saved from themselves (see Acts 4:12). And with the dumb crap that too many who claim to profess Jesus have done over the centuries, especially in this day and age (remember that immigrants are still enslaved at the Mexican border for no good reason), the Church could soon be shut down by God Himself. The Church is supposed to change the world, not join the evil one!😡😡😡😡😡 I think if the evil one had his way, revival will be hindered forever! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 We can’t let that happen! Also, I’ve thought of privatizing this, but I guess I can’t really do that, for while I wouldn’t share this on Facebook right now, I’ll at least put this website on my bio there. For I’m sure violence will only increase with or without news like this. I’m honestly scared to death that none of us will survive, and the Kingdom of God, as we know it, will lose the grace God’s poured out on all mankind.

Pray that the invisible Church might continue to exist, for I’m not feeling good about attending any church after what I heard and discovered last night — I thought Danny Silk’s teaching against punishment would be well-received… it was pretty unpopular in even my own church. I’m not impressed. But the abusive dirtbags won’t last forever, so I’m pretty happy that my generation gets to be a voice for the next one. Yet the people of the previous generations, if their righteous ones in this nation have all died off by now, will be remembered as the people who have been enemies of Jesus as if they predated Him or something. So I have no interest of following them, even on TV. God will never forgive them, but will forever hate their characters (as opposed to hating their person, in which it would contradict His nature) — He will forget every last one of them forever. So pray that He doesn’t do the same to you, for they have violated forgiveness too much, and Matthew 18:21-35 says they’re the unforgiving butt-holes who only delighted in themselves. God might even enjoy defeating them (as Deuteronomy 28:63 says about the Israelites of Jeremiah’s day)… but solely on the basis that their influences will be gone forever. It’s not too late for you if you wish to honour Him, though, so pray anything you want — to make a request for me to pray for you, you can leave an e-mail in my inbox at ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, and tape them to my bedroom walls! I’m not expecting anything to be rich in theology, though, so you don’t have to worry about sounding foolish to anyone, for Jesus loves child-like prayers, such as getting a puppy for Christmas 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍🐶🐾 I wish I could carry one everywhere! I want to adopt some instead of buying them, though; it only feeds the ridiculous breeding industry that screws up their genetics and even kills them. And yes, my words have been pretty strong once again, but I don’t mean to make you live in fear or anything. I wish I didn’t have to say anything about this! I want all of us to be carefree, though… so I’ll see you in the next post!

Here we see that Isaac thinks Jacob is Esau based on Jacob wearing Esau’s clothes and tricking Isaac into thinking he was his twin. Weird, isn’t it? Yet the end of this echoes what God had said to Abraham many years earlier in Genesis 12:2-3. It’s actually kind of why we sing “O God let us be a generation that seeks, that seeks Your face, O God of Jacob” in the Give Us Clean Hands song. I thank God for this modern hymn, yet there’s a lot of new and excellent Christian media content coming out every month. I still think Switchfoot’s got some of the best music on earth, though. This passage is found in page 15 of my NKJV Bible, pages 19-20 of my NASB Bible, and page 34 of my VOICE and Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copies.

I don’t think deception is any good, though. In fact, I wish no one felt the need to lie to keep any good or deserving thing or human safe. But there is such a thing as keeping a low profile about something, and thank God you don’t need to trick anyone in order to pull that off. I talked with my friend and co-worker, Spencer (whom I sometimes call the Spencinator), about this after I told him more of my testimony about how I went to college only to encounter one divisive thing after another after moving close to the campus — this was after three years of living far away and non-stop frustration with the commute (I had this as a run-on sentence at first; I didn’t realize it 😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣 sorry!) — and thank God, he told me he learned the low profile thing about Jesus at an early age. I think it’s a thing we should all know by now, at least if you’re 21 or older, I guess. But it’s no big deal if you learn it after that, for at least if you learn something you believe can benefit people, it’ll pay off handsomely. Too bad people can do evil agendas while we conceal the truth from those who don’t deserve to hear it — Jesus’ saying in Matthew 7:6 shouldn’t be used to silence people. Ironically, this can drive even the most prolific leaders away from going anywhere, no matter how authentic they are. Amos 5:13 says that the wise men can keep silent in evil times because everything’s so grotesque. There’s an article on Relevant that is titled, “America Needs To Stop The Fearmongering.” I don’t think I linked it right 😂😂😂🤣😆😅😄 but it’s in between the quotation marks.

In the article I posted above, by the way, you’ll find information on how divisive the last election was compared to most of the others in U.S. history. I frankly don’t blame the writer on anything she said! Even a speaker I believe still to be deceptive spoke the truth on how a conservative church is one to spread shame and condemnation. I don’t believe there are many good churches left; I think a 5-year-old can count them all, even if their IQ isn’t so high. I honestly think that soon, the evil right-wing views of many people could be so popular that there’s no real redemption this world can look forward to. As it is, it’s so deeply entrenched in our culture and in several other parts of the world today that in order to remove that, you’ll need to remove the nations those right-wing things are in. And I honestly wish it didn’t have to be this way. Indeed, the rest of the world is also following in its footsteps, and as a result, it’s hard for the believers in those places to follow Jesus there, too. It’s like when northern Israel was conquered by Assyria and then Judah followed suit in its corrupt theology, and then Babylon took the land. 2 Kings 17 explains everything. I was actually wondering if division was inevitable, but my friend, Mark Lease, told me that I can at least be on the right side of it, but to put a play on words here, the right views are never from the right-wing guys, for they usually deceive people in a hateful way by using something truthful or biblical to kill them. Something like this should never happen.

Despite this, though, I’m still contending for a billion-soul harvest that, thank God, Heidi Baker still believes. I don’t want to get stuck in trivial pursuits, though. I’m just trying to pay back debts and hopefully give my niece the good childhood she deserves to have. She lives with her parents, though, so they’re obviously doing more work because they can afford it, at least, but I’m lucky if I can even buy a can of tuna for $1.25. And I have a job at Fry’s — pray that I get a second job or even a full-time position at Starbucks or something. For honestly, I feel stuck dealing with trivial bullcrap and nothing more at my current job, knowing I won’t get 40 hours at all there. Maybe I can do more surveys online…

If you want to pray about one thing, it can be what I mentioned above. It can be anything else, too; just write an e-mail to ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read them and hopefully not lose my sanity. I just wish I could get my needs met…