Ron And His Stories

I thought this day would never come, but I’m able to celebrate my niece’s 2nd birthday soon!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🎆🎆🎆🎇🎇🎇🎇🎇🧨🧨🧨🧨🧨✨✨✨🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊🎊 (Sidenote: I want to blow an actual party whistle, like in the emoji in this paragraph.) Too bad my brother probably can’t have me over in the afternoon, though 😭😭😭 I just pray I see my niece this week… but I did finish reading the NASB just a few minutes ago 😁😁😁😁😁 — thank God I’m able to see her soon! 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇

I can’t help but be hyped for my niece’s birthday party this weekend! It’s happening this Saturday, but I don’t know the location, yet I think I should go live on Instagram that day 🎞🎥📹🎬📽 and also, this passage is found in page 21 of my NKJV Bible, page 27 of my NASB Bible, pages 46-47 of my VOICE copy, and page 46 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

Like Isaac, I want to be full of days when I’m dead, but I think Jacob and Esau were 120 when they buried him, seeing that they were born as he turned 60. I don’t know which months they were born in, but I find it pretty awesome that Jacob fathered 13 children — remember, Dinah had been raped in chapter 34 and we never hear from her again, but I’m just hoping to find she had found redemption in Jesus before the ugliness grew with the Israelites in Egypt. Sorry that I don’t have much to say today, by the way, guys; I’m just seriously wishing I could be at my niece’s birthday celebration! And I’ll NEVER get apologetic about that 😂😂😂😂😂 I can’t help but be thrilled to see her again 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇 — the only thing I wish was different was that I could show up at her house Thursday afternoon. I texted my brother about that, but no answer showed up. I sure do wish I could introduce her to Jesus, though. I pray no one stands in the way of me doing this, especially concerning Bee’s potential salvation in Him! But I don’t know how old Jacob and his sex partners were when they had a baker’s dozen of children. Yeah, I said “partners” — it’s plural. Weird, huh? Like I’ve said before, you’re going to see this a lot in the Scriptures, but thank God Paul said for each man to have his own wife and each woman her own husband (1 Corinthians 7:2).

Any prayer requests? Leave them in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll be sure to read each one, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I hope the next few days turn out well for you, and I’ll be back later this month with chapter 36.

Ciao!

Did Dinah make it? I don’t think she died, but she never got any restoration, as far as we know. Too often this happens when someone gets raped or abused in some other way… but I’m not speaking on this, now, for Jacob soon returns to Bethel where he had that dream about a ladder to Heaven (Genesis 28:10-22). There, he builds an altar to God and names it “Bethel” — there’s actually a church called Bethel Church in northern California, Redding, to be exact. I thought there were some issues with a prayer group called Sozo ministries in 2012, but three years later, I found it to be helpful, for the Holy Spirit had intended to deliver many traumatized people from demonic haunts in their head or on their hearts. I’ve had about four or five, now… I find that super-good, the Sozo thing 😇😇😇😇😇 sorry for my misunderstanding when I was 21. Two Rivers does it, and so should other churches, if they would listen to Jesus. But many still won’t, so soon, He’ll put them out of business. Thank God for many new house churches that are trying to honour Him; I pray they are sincere about it. I think that’s the future of the Christian Church as a whole — denominationalism is total bullcrap. Sorry for my words (haha) but I’m being frank here. Oh, this passage is found in page 21 of my NKJV Bible, page 27 of my NASB Bible, page 46 of my VOICE copy, and pages 45-46 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I noticed in verse 11 that multiple nations will come out of Jacob, but I only know of one so far, Israel (north and south; see Ezekiel 37:15-28). I don’t understand why God said a lot of nations would be descended from Jacob, but… hang on… I looked it up on Google, and couldn’t find anything genuine of consequence to Jacob’s descendants creating more nations. Not even the U.S. and U.K. commentary I found on an article online (I don’t want to mention the source) is that reliable, for both nations are more or less Christianized but not converted. Indeed, if anyone were to ask me, “Have either of them fallen yet?” I’d like to say (and I don’t want to say this about Britain)… the two nations have already fallen… to conservative nonsense so that too many would lovelessly follow them into Hell. The newly elected leader, Boris Johnson, is likely at work both with rejecting immigrants and refugees and also trying to be as thoroughly conservative as, unfortunately, the U.S. will become, and we, the nonpartisan Christians, are perceived as threats… and so are all non-Republicans who don’t follow things like this. Indeed, even the other parties are all beyond redemption, for you know what happened in the previous election, do I need to remind you? I sure hope not! That’s the reason we can’t really have nice things anymore, you know. But I believe revival will come to both the U.S. and the U.K. still; it’s just not going to be easy. Besides, the unbelief aggravates my spirit so that I am muzzled like a dog, figuratively speaking. Yet the natives will be fruitful and multiply once again; I just wish the evil one didn’t succeed in his plans to get more than one nation hopelessly and permanently conservative. It’s endangering God’s very throne, for if His throne is by righteousness and justice (Psalm 97:2), injustice and unrighteousness spell the end of His reign if He doesn’t do something about it sooner or later. God did NOT found any nation that gives hypocrisy a platform, for He didn’t do that with Israel with this motive. Yet Israel is still a people, and I think it’s pretty cool; I just wish they honoured Him correctly.

Also, I talked with a guy at work whose name is Justin (today was his last day at the store) and was able to introduce him to my church; he wants to go, and I think that’s awesome! I recommend him going to Awaken at 7 p.m. on Thursdays (such as three days from now). Hey, Justin, if you’re reading this, you’re invited, dude. (I showed him the URL to this website by writing it down.) You can also come to any church service on the weekends, such as Saturdays at 6 p.m., and Sundays at either 9 or 11 a.m. Beyond that, though, I won’t share what else we’ve talked about, but I do know he was inspired by this blog site 😁😁😁😁😁

The family tree of Israel is still incomplete, though, for Jacob still has only 11 sons (he fathers 12 tribes, two of which coming from one son, and his third son having allotments among the brethren). We’ll see that next time here on ablog-of-bible-notes-and-things.com! But I’ll mostly talk about Joseph’s humble beginnings and Jacob’s dedication to him from his birth. In the meantime, if you want to make any prayer requests, you can leave some in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each request, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I hope you found this encouraging, and like I said, I’ll see you in the other half of this chapter 😎😎😎

Edit: I realize I spoke almost nothing of identity in Jesus, I’m sorry 😅 I think believers are just prone to follow liberating things that, thank God, don’t screw people up, for every Jesus-lover is about freedom and truth like I am. Sorry for the lack of identity-speaking here 😂😂😂😂😂

Here, we see that Jacob’s daughter, Dinah, was brutally raped by a royal neighbor in Succoth. He even tried to get her to marry him, and Shechem’s family approved of it (they probably didn’t know the reason the soul tie had happened, but whatever). I think it’s great that the following words occur in this chapter, though, “Something like this should never happen” (VOICE). This chapter is found in pages 20-21 of my NKJV copy, pages 26-27 of my NASB copy, pages 44-45 of both my VOICE and Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copies.

I don’t know what to tell you other than this right now: if you or someone you know has been raped before, do you part to ensure this never happens again! For God will NEVER forgive those who have raped others, for in this chapter (and in 1 Peter 3:7) we see that this is a leanness-of-soul sin (similar to the words of Psalm 106:15 of both King James versions, 1611 and 1982), and God opposes those proud people, as 1 Peter 3:7 and 5:5 shows. Why couldn’t that have been me getting raped?! (And I’m a dude, so this is like, “What, man?”) Actually, I can’t accept that rape or sexual violence of any other sort should happen. I pray I resist this godless influence by the Holy Spirit… it’s bad enough that children are hurting in homes that should’ve loved them, whether or not they’ve faced hardship already, but if anyone gets raped? All I can really do is ignore it… that is, if it’s even possible, but oh, my God! People are trying to legalize it? Nah, I’m out. Don’t want me in this country? Don’t worry, I’m never setting foot here in the U.S. again if I can manage it! For real, though, women are great, and I hope no one else gets hurt because of me.

This is also something I don’t enjoy thinking about; in fact, I wonder why this even happens in the first place. I also noticed that Jacob’s sons had answered the evil rapist deceitfully (something I wouldn’t do even in this case), but they must’ve walked in it as good as Jacob had done in the past, for he still wasn’t a follower of Jesus even then. I don’t think Jacob was deceitful after the dream in chapter 28, but people can oppose me no matter what I do or say. I want to do more against the evils of sexual violence wholeheartedly, for I recognize I’m not doing much good right now, and at this point, I’m too afraid to ask anyone what to do that I haven’t done yet. I do think it was bad that in I’m Not Ashamed, Rachel’s classmate was touching her butt when I knew she didn’t want that. I know I’m not a fan of that… it’s weird that this happened in a Christian movie. Of course, it’s PG-13 rated, but that still doesn’t make it right. You’re bound to see plenty of not-ok stuff in houses where most people are not Christians. I’m praying I can do better against both sexual violence and the hypocrisy many people carry. Also, you’ve noticed that there’s no emojis on this post… I guess I just don’t think to use any whenever I see something like this happening anywhere. Indeed, three of my friends have been raped before, and I wish this never happened. I wonder, what could I have done to prevent this? Of course, each of them happened either really far away or I didn’t know about it until a year or two after the incidents took place, but still, I want to prevent another godless event like this.

The chapter ends with two of Jacob’s sons, Simeon and Levi, after the 11 sons had deceived the men of Succoth, killing every male when all of them were still sore from the circumcision demand. Though I don’t encourage hate of any kind, the city of Shechem, I think, deserves to be no more, for they all plundered the entire place and took every survivor captive. Jacob then said they brought trouble on him and his reputation would suffer (Genesis 34:30). But Simeon and Levi said, “Would you rather have Dinah treated like a prostitute?” (Genesis 34:31). The chapter ends there. There is no mention of Dinah ever again in the Scriptures, there is no restoration, there is no further accomplishment she makes. It’s just entirely unfair that she was degraded so badly here. I wish I could ask her what happened… if she is even remotely willing to trust me with any question I would ask, for I don’t want this to happen again 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I could dress in women’s clothing for humor, but not only do I have little in my bank account once again, I’d probably cause too many misunderstandings once again, and I’d probably cause division in my church community if I did this (though I did take some Instagram pictures (with some filters) of myself from the shoulders up — those I never released online), so despite the fact that sexual violence is gaining ground in this world, it doesn’t seem worth it to make people laugh with what I might be wearing like this. If my niece gets attacked like this, especially if a family member does it, I’d never be happy with life again, even if she does become Christian before or after that crap happens — pray that my niece would be forever free of godless abuse like this, and that no sexual violence ever happens to her 😭😭😭😭😭 we should be affectionate, yes, but NEVER come on to others. That’s ridiculous.

We need to be more aware of sexual abuse of any kind, and also to be more prayerful against it, for I want to live in a world free of such things. Maybe this’ll happen (for nothing in the New Testament ever mentions any rape incidents, even during the Tribulation), but I don’t know, for I heard that pedophilia is on the rise in some circles — I’m like, 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮 and “eeeeewwwwwwwww!!! Disgusting!!” I think Jesus wants to vomit on those who do this, too. But the good news is, as the kingdom of darkness deepens into this world, so does God’s kingdom, for both Jesus and Satan are working tirelessly against each other, and only Jesus will win. Indeed, I believe we can live in a world free of sexual violence of any kind. Indeed, why did I wait so long to write a post on this chapter? I want to share it with some friends (and hopefully have other people I don’t know that well read this, too), perhaps even printing this out. I think I should do that, don’t you think?

Any prayer requests you might want to make? Leave them in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in chapter 35!

My friends, I deeply regret to inform you (you’ve probably heard of this already) that Kobe Bryant and his 13-year-old daughter, Gianna, died in a helicopter crash today 💔💔💔 I wish this didn’t happen 😭😭😭😭😭 it’s not likely either of them or the other victims of this tragic incident accepted Jesus, either, but at least one of them might have done that before the crash… I don’t know 😢 I wish they had known Him! I can’t do anything about it now (though I can probably pray anyone would come back to life by Jesus’ resurrection power) — I wish this didn’t happen; sorry I said the same thing twice in one paragraph 😅 I’m just really heartbroken for everyone who knew the NBA legend… I never was a fan of the Lakers, being from Phoenix and rooting for the Suns for as long as I can remember (they’ve been in business since ’68; I pray for an anointing from the Holy Spirit in each game, by the way), but I think it really sucks that someone THIS well-known and famous, despite having a lot of fans, never knew Jesus. Of course, I do remember hearing that he had done sexual violence at one point in the ’90s (I found this out long after that had happened), but I don’t know what happened. Regardless, I don’t think that should be taken lightly. I feel even worse for the 13-year-old girl whom I imagine never heard the Gospel even once… it just goes to show you that Christianity in this world seems to be dying because of so many being hypocritical about it.

One thing I do know that Jacob and Esau at least made up for their feud several chapters earlier, but I’m thinking he never really forgave Jacob, since they were so antagonistic to Israel over the next 1,300+ years after this. The Life Application Study Bible is lying about Esau being forgiving to anyone, for I read its profile in that version, but soon realized that he and his descendants had nursed a grudge from the incident in chapter 27. Actually, I see no reason to trust any commentary from that one, no matter what translation the writing is on. But the Word of God can be trusted to show us how to live 😇😇😇😇😇 speaking of which, the next chapter is one that’s often ignored everywhere, yes, in places with or without a church. It’s just not fair these incidents took place, and I want to keep my niece safe from any sexual violence that might try and advance against her. I don’t understand why females are targeted more for this, shouldn’t those guys leave them alone? I know I would every single time, and even around female co-workers and friends, I exercise caution in every turn. It’s not worth it for misunderstandings to arise, especially when around children. By the way, this chapter is found in page 20 in my NKJV Bible, pages 25-26 in my NASB Bible, page 44 of my VOICE copy (with its short note I mentioned in my previous post) and pages 43-44 in my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

If there’s one thing you can pray about, I kindly ask that you pray for the families of all the victims of today’s tragic helicopter crash, that anyone would become Christian tonight… any anything else you want to pray about, you can leave an e-mail in my inbox at ron.outland4727@gmail.com. I’ll read each one (I still have none 😂😂😂 please send me prayer requests), write them down, and tape them to my bedroom walls! In the meantime, be safe out there, for my next post will be about chapter 34 where the brutal rape of Jacob’s daughter and the subsequent violence take place. I’m like, “Ouch!” This’ll be quite a ride…

The note is found in page 43, and before I write about this chapter, I’ve got some statements to make about it.

First off, why is he saying Jacob was demanding anything from Jesus here? Didn’t he know that Jesus loved him and was willing to propel him forward? I know I did. That was why I was willing to repent and follow Him in the first place, for I knew I couldn’t save myself or get my ancestors (particularly my mom) to ever want me as a son. In fact, my mom knows I said this all these years ago back in 2009 when I was in the therapist’s office with her and my brother (this was during some family drama we were going through). I wanted to get some help (that’s why I write this), and I’m pretty sure my niece might one day end up in the same boat because of divisive influences like this. For who has been divisive and repentant in the same life? I know I should be over this, but I’m seeing so many hateful things at work (many parents are like this, too, though probably not to the scale my mom had been, yet they will one day) — I wish I could put an end to it.

And second, the part of the note about changing as if God needed Jacob to earn His love for him… that never happened in the Bible. This never happened, period! This world just gets so religious that entire translations diss the Holy Spirit! Even certain languages with Scripture having been translated already — none of them have any Christians yet, I bet. I wish I could fix things with the note I’m writing about that’s in my VOICE copy…

And third, stop me if you’ve heard this one, Jacob NEVER deceived Laban when he was staying with him for 20 years. Check the previous chapter on God’s instruction to Jacob about sabotaging the livestock, and line that up with the fact that God never lies, as several Bible verses say, especially Hebrews 6:18. The note the commentator wrote on this chapter when the VOICE translation first came out eight years ago is just plain wrong.

I don’t wish to offend you or anyone on here, but let’s face it, it’s clear that this commentator and at least a few more, perhaps, are on Esau’s side. In fact, when I read a short note on the next chapter, I noticed they said Esau wanted nothing from Jacob. I think Esau rejected Jacob’s cry for forgiveness, as all divisive jerks love to denounce repentant men like Jacob about. But not even this is convincing evidence of Jacob’s new life, for he still plays favourites in chapter 37, as Isaac had done up until chapter 26 on this book. Oh, well, I’m sure Jacob became a follower of Jesus before he died, for He speaks of him in the kingdom of heaven in Matthew 8:11. I should mention that this chapter is found in pages 19-20 of my NKJV Bible, pages 24-25 of my NASB Bible, pages 42-44 of my VOICE copy, and pages 42-43 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I should mention that Jacob may or may not have known he was wrestling with Jesus (for He is God; see the footnotes of chapter 32 in this version — scroll to the bottom of that webpage), but there are so many interpretations that can be made from this, so I’m not really sure… I don’t think God saw Jacob as some schemer or anything, though. Too bad Esau’s words in Genesis 27:36 reverberated throughout his family line so that there’s almost no one left in his family tree today.

My story is similar to this to some degree… I grew up with a divisive mom, she represses my faith to the point that God sends her out of the house we live in back then… permanently… and even with a girl who’s nearly two years old as of now, my mom still gets inappropriate with others, even being unafraid to offend her. My mom wants nothing more than to eliminate the world of faith… permanently. And my niece’s second birthday is in less than a month. What I can tell her, though, is that God had something amazing in mind when He noticed the producers work on the first Frozen movie in 2013. I believe He’s responsible for both this and the second Frozen movie that came out last fall. I think I’ll preach the love of Jesus and His salvation gift to my niece when her second birthday party takes place, for it’s Frozen-themed. I believe Jesus wants me to do this so that she can be saved, and if she still doesn’t understand, I don’t think that’s very bad; I just pray she could understand Him one way or another. I just know getting through this punitive climate that’s being fostered by most of the parents who shop at my store (this includes parents of children who are now adults) is a total pain in the butt because apparently, the law enforces control instead of forbearance. I’d rather do a delivery job than see something like this take place so much, for at least then, I can do my work without a care in the world. The reason so many of us make bad decisions like partying and self-harm is almost always because the ones who should’ve introduced the Gospel and biblical truth to all of us never did that… and sadly, this isn’t likely to change in any nation. The worst part is that they actually praise the shooters who mercilessly kill so many students and civilians in the most random places, and it’s occurred so much in the last several years that the Columbine shooting that happened in 1999 is no longer one of the deadlier incidents of gun violence that happened.

I can’t ever get the right amount of confidence or heart to pray against any of it, like, ever, nor can I practice fostering a good environment for any customer long enough to give them an unforgettable experience most of the time… and in both cases, it’s because I see such hateful content of abuse and illicit “peacemaking” so often in and out of work. A customer named Anita mentioned to me that it’s so unfair that many under 35 (as I put it) are ravaged by the jerks who promote such violence, and that so many of us are taken out too soon, and I would completely agree. She knows my front end manager (and is 74 years old), and both women are from Germany. I wish I could learn from them… but I pray they become Christian, too! Oh, right, maybe Anita already is Christian, but in today’s world, you never really know… but in her case, I just want to know her more and not dismiss anything right away. In the meantime, I don’t expect to live long enough to make it to my niece’s second birthday party next month because of the unfair persecution of the U.S. population’s younger half. I don’t even expect to make it through the end of my shift tomorrow night because of it. I believe I can come close enough to victory where I think I might be able to prevent an evil incident from happening someday, but the massive amount of time I imagine it’ll take just to learn, except in my niece’s case, doesn’t seem worth it to me. If I ever manage to get enough money, I’d pay off all my debts, get some friends and family to move to a more peaceful place with me, and begin a ministry in which salvation would happen by the hundreds daily. If that happens, I don’t plan on ever returning to the U.S. again. The culture is just too violent, not to mention highly toxic, but it could be like this all over the world at a ridiculously high scale by the time I pay off my next debt in just three and a half years — God-willing, I make that happen! — I don’t know what this life is even worth if we’re just enduring so much crap that we can’t find any blessings even from God, like they’re eclipsed or something… I don’t know what to look for. Pray that things might turn better for me… maybe I just need to watch I’m Not Ashamed again, but I pray for God to tell me something I need to know quickly!

In the meantime, I hope to stick around long enough to write my next note on here, preferably on the first part of chapter 33. Sorry if I waited so long to write this down 😂😂😂 God-willing, I’ll write another note soon.

The VOICE version put it like how I have Jacob and Laban’s separation worded in this post’s title. Honestly, I’m not sure what to say here, but before I go into detail on how I’ve paralleled more of my life in Christ so far akin to Jacob’s (though he hadn’t been saved until after all his children were born; see Genesis 37 for his favoritism), I’ll say that this passage is found in pages 18-19 of my NKJV Bible, pages 23-24 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 41-42 of my VOICE copy (with its notes) and pages 40-41 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

First, I’ll note that I saw I’m Not Ashamed in my room a few nights ago (the Columbine High story) and I have to say, it really rocked my world. If you know what happened that day in 1999, you’ll understand what I’m talking about. I wish that never took place, though! I’m pretty sure the shooters knew the girl was Christian, so they insulted God by saying to her, “Want to meet Him?” Then they shot her point-blank, after they had wounded her badly. Something like this should never happen. Yet I’m inspired by her bravery to confess the Name of Jesus when all hope seems lost, but at the same time, I’m surprised nothing insane has unfolded still, but I am in the process of delaying my student loan payments for the next year. Still, it’s no longer one of the deadlier shootings anymore, since so many more happened that are even worse in more recent times. What sucks most of all is that they were probably hired by the godless people who run the U.S., more and more each year. Enduring it is one big roller-coaster ride that will not leave you feeling any better than before. I can’t ever have the heart to pray against more unfolding in the future because the violence has deepened itself into the fabric of this nation so badly by now, and so I often don’t expect to make it through the current season I’m in or even the shift I’m clocked in for. I can probably keep a low profile about everything (generally speaking) while I grow in Jesus and bless the people around me… to the point where I might be able to prevent a shooting from happening anywhere someday, but the massive amount of courage I imagine it’ll take just to learn about let alone actually obtain (for unfortunately, sometimes keeping a low profile can backfire on you) feels too far away, and while I don’t want to retreat into cowardice, I don’t think I can make it through the next trial that comes my way when I stand up for Jesus publicly next time. I pray the Holy Spirit would guide me through everything (I’d rather not analyze something), for silence is worse than suffering, as Jeremiah 20:7-9 demonstrates. I don’t know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 I don’t want anyone to die because of my witness to Jesus! Not even if he or she is one of His enemies!

I know this rant is unexpected for some of you, but I’ve been wondering for so long about differentiating between bravery and being obnoxious and also dodging malicious compliance and actually being able to invite people to learn about God that I’m just ready to say that soon, I’ll have to find that this answer probably won’t come to me in this life, and I don’t like that idea, for I want to mirror Heaven’s reality here on Earth instead, just as Jesus had said (Matthew 6:10). My pastor was right in having said last spring that Americans have 20/10 vision when it comes to fault-finding, in contrast to pretty much everywhere else. And both of us were born here in the U.S.! I wish I could change that for another person (for I’ve had three people saved so far) 😭😭😭

I think I’m saying all of this because Jacob was at least allowed to leave his in-laws’ land in peace, and surprisingly, I still haven’t had any attacks from any of my posts in recent months, especially the last one about the attack on Iran — I’m still praying there’s no war, but I can thank God for what He’s done so far 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘 (yes, I’m blowing Him a kiss; don’t judge me 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 it’s not a gay thing to do, people; I still love women) — and I still have a lot of things I wish I could ask my mom, such as why she would be so hostile despite the fact that my brother and I grew up in the case of her supposedly discouraging it… I’m like, “WHAT HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE THIS?! Is anyone less than half your age so much of a mistake to you that you wish to indoctrinate them into oblivion?” I’ll probably get a fake peace reply again from my mom if she sees this… she’s really good at hiding her injustice. She’s always been a divisive jerk to everyone… I’m probably wrong about this, too, but I know she’s divisive, for my brother has also learned of this and can agree with me about the fact that she’s loved to sow discord among family members for ages. God hates it when someone does this (Proverbs 6:16-19), and she knows it; she’s just been blaming everyone for too damn long, and soon, her days of causing crimes like this will be numbered! I wish nothing would happen, though… but the judgment is up to God, but when does He intervene? He’s done it before, but often it seems like I get any help too late. Am I not meant to live in this world? For I still have my past haunting me (I speak of the debts I’ve accumulated over the years), but that wouldn’t have happened if only she had believed in Jesus as she said she did in the first place!

I guess you can say that at this point, I’m not expecting God to get me through this in one piece this time… I always get too much opposition when something like this happens, for it was first the college career thing being ravaged by my jealous mom, and now I’m being burdened with several debt payments to make each month because of an impatient and unforgiving culture? But even if God doesn’t put an end to another branch of debt soon, I’ll still praise Him, yet I might be turned off to bravery forever if I don’t go through this in one piece and still live to tell the tale. I want to preach the gospel to many people across the world, but instead, it seems like I’m called to struggle with my demons and nothing more. I can’t take any of this… I’d rather have God take me out of this world, especially in a no-death method 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 if you want to pray for any blessing despite this, that’d be great, but don’t expect me to not be scarred for life by spiritual death again, first 😰 I’ll see you either tomorrow or Tuesday, if nothing happens, for I still intend to live in peace with others and not cause damage to even myself. And God-willing, I’ll get my tax returns soon.

First off, I hope your 2020 is going good so far, but I have some frightening news to let you know about. The first one is the the president launched a rocket against Iran (I won’t mention names, though, but you probably know who he is), and that war could soon happen, and many of us in both here in the U.S. and Iran could perish unjustly. He’s everything but peaceful, though he claims to be Christian. If anyone still thinks he should be worshiped (or some other candidate), they’re only lying to themselves, and God won’t forgive anyone who lies to themselves like this. The second one is that my mom could catch wind of me knowing the eviction I mentioned in a previous note (the eviction itself was back in 2016), and she’d realize I had thanked God for it, and she’d destroy every last man, woman, and child she’s more or less related to, and start over with her boyfriend from scratch, and that she’d make it so no one would ever be able to remember what she did or have the freedom to fight back. She’d be like Thanos in Avengers: Endgame! THAT’S how divisive she is, and my brother and I (including our families and some of our friends) know this! This I say because Jacob and Laban start to have escalating conflicts here, and what sucks most of all is that the VOICE editors actually side with that godless jerk who tricked Jacob multiple times! For God had told Jacob to screw up Laban with the livestock, and this passage says this explicitly. It is found in page 18 of my NKJV Bible, page 23 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 40-41 of my VOICE copy, and pages 39-40 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’m sorry if I’m freaking you out with this, but Jesus commanded all of us to make peace, just as Matthew 5:9 has said (Jesus Himself spoke this): “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God” (NASB). And I’m not putting this on Facebook, for that would be like putting raw meat all over my skin and walking into a forest filled with bears while wearing it. I’m going to buy the I’m Not Ashamed DVD online once I post this, for I need to prepare myself for what I imagine will be a most trying season in the future. It could start tonight, it could be next week, it could be a year from now… it could happen anytime, my unfortunate execution for me believing in Jesus and suffering for Him again. I told Jonathan the bad news of the airstrike, and thankfully, I mentioned 1 Timothy 6:11 about seeking peace like there’s no tomorrow. (Edit on January 4, 2020: I looked up the Greek for this; peace and gentleness are two different Greek words, but both are fruits of the Spirit. Sorry 😂😂😂😂😂 I just didn’t think of Galatians 5…) I pray he and Dean and EVERYONE I know would react positively to this, for if anyone doesn’t receive my message with peace, they’re not believers and will probably go to Hell for their reaction. By the way, the DVD could take several business days to ship out to my house, but at least I have the money for it this time. I pray I gladly get bold in my walk with Christ, because I’m pretty sure time’s running out for me to live in a season in which I don’t have violence attacking me. Hopefully I’m wrong, but I’m not expecting any hateful attacks to be averted this time. I’m probably going to be persecuted again! I told this to my current and former Awaken pastors, and they could agree that I need a miracle (for I mentioned the second job thing to them and my history of enduring major bullcrap as if Jesus wasn’t worth anything). Too bad I didn’t know about the airstrike incident at the time, though. Maybe I did; I just wasn’t expecting the president to realize that the people are able to stop him from being divisive. If he has done this, he’ll erupt in anger and fear like Voldemort did when he discovered that Harry Potter had known about the Horcruxes he had made. I swear, though, I can’t always help but speak like this! Maybe I can, I don’t know for sure… I’m scared we won’t make it through the next week or two as well 😓😰😭😭😭 Tell everyone you know what I’ve written tonight, if you can. The Holy Spirit is threatened because of the president, and also the divisive people we were reared by! They’ve threatened Him, too! Please, tell your family and friends you love them, for it could all end tonight! For just as the two shooters who killed 13 people in the Columbine shooting back in 1999 didn’t receive Jesus, so those warmongers won’t be saved, either. Pray you might make it out of this alive, and feel free to pray that I would get through this trying time in one “peace,” if you know what I mean 🙏🏼🙌🏼✝☮💯💯💯

I pray you, the reader, would recognize how much God loves you, though, for in the midst of incredible chaos and danger, He still is able to make love and happiness take place, so I want to say, “Hi, I love you a lot, thanks for existing” 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘💘💘💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💗💓💞❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍❣ I’ll see you again on here, God-willing, after I watch the I’m Not Ashamed movie. Pray that it will come in the mail, too. But I have another round of interviews at a furniture store next week, and I can make it on Monday morning. I’d love for you to pray I make it there, for I have that day off work.

See ya!

It’s the last day of the 2010s, and I figure (the Holy Spirit wanted me to do this, I think; I haven’t written on any Bible verses in weeks) I write on Jacob’s strange and hilarious practical joke on Laban, his father-in-law 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 this passage is found in page 18 of my NKJV Bible, pages 22-23 of my NASB Bible, pages 39-40 of my VOICE copy (including the notes with it) and pages 38-39 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I find it interesting that in verse 33, Jacob wanted to be honest with Laban. Too bad he didn’t receive Jacob, though, but he hacked into the system and made it so that he’d be the wealthy one, and while I find that funny, too often the systems are rigged against us commoners who simply want to enjoy life and Jesus and others, however few of us there are. Indeed, the entire Millenial generation (along with the college-age kids) are being screwed over relentlessly, and I think that’s just unfair. I’ve actually thought of installing Cop-Cams in every house so I’d publicly expose every last man, woman, and trustee that abuses children so they’d all be humiliated. Too bad I don’t have much money left, so I can’t order any. (I saw the Cop-Cam thing in an infomercial once. It’s basically a secret surveillance camera (or two, or however many there are) that catches people in wrongdoing.) While I would NEVER use it on my own relatives that are in my generation or the ones after us (nor do I want to diss my own mom just so I could be recognized), I’ve been feeling that everyone in entire age groups is really unsafe because of those who manipulate them into trusting them; indeed, they actually cast shame on those who trust the ones who deserve them! I didn’t deserve it growing up — I should mention it’s only ten minutes after midnight before the new decade — and neither do they! Regardless, I think someone will eventually notice my door-to-door installment of those if I decide to put those Cop-Cam surveillance cameras everywhere where no one would notice, so unfortunately, I can’t do it, but a rich Youtuber probably would be able to if he/she was willing, and I’m not good at sneaking in anywhere, so I shouldn’t do it 😅😄😆 but I really want to end the problem of abuse against children and women everywhere! I hope others read this blog post, for I want to see the Holy Spirit move, and if I can’t place Cop-Cams anywhere, I pray at least one person anywhere in the world would get one to catch their abusers by surprise! (I’ve just grown sick of the anti-lovingness most parents always love exercising on their sons/daughters/other relatives.)

Speaking of a new decade, it’s almost 2020, and I want to ask, what might God be calling you to start to propel for life starting in the following decade that begins tomorrow? Leave me a comment and share, and as for prayers, you can e-mail me at ron.outland4727@gmail.com! (Sorry, I’m not at the end of the post yet.) I understand not many read my stuff on here, though 😂😂😂😂😂 I just feel I make myself too conspicuous most of the time, probably due to my height. I’m not even kidding; I’ve always been tall for my age growing up, and now I’m one of the men who’s taller than most people 18 or older around the world. I’m sure I can be seen as a scary man because of that, which honestly, really sucks. But I’m 29, now, yet I have a lot of grey hair on my head, so if you have any, welcome to the club. I’ve had some for nearly ten years, now, and I’ll get more and more grey hair in the future, but that’s a good thing, for it is written that it’s a crown of glory (Proverbs 16:31). At least I won’t be middle-aged until I’m 40… I keep thinking I’ll be executed for something funny I say or do, but thank God Sarah doesn’t want that for me; she’d be #devastated. But I’m not likely to cause any controversy… that is, if I am in line with other people’s selfish expectations, and I don’t want that. I’d rather be transformed by Jesus (Romans 12:2). But as it is, I changed my light bulb from green to pink in my room, and I plan on wearing a pink shirt covering only my upper torso with my bedsheet as a gown (it’ll cover everything between my chest and feet) and drinking sparkling rosé from my 2020 glass cup while taking photos using Instagram filters… THAT will be very funny; I kinda plan on being more entertaining than anything 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 don’t worry; I didn’t buy alcohol; I don’t want to get drunk though many others would each New Year’s Eve… not worth it. Also, I’m not trying to be someone else; I thought I’d be hilarious and poke fun at the violation of Deuteronomy 22:5 about reversing sexual roles. That’s it. And I’m not a very popular social media user (I only got 11 birthday wishes last week, but I had a lot of fun with Sarah and my roommates at On The Border near my house), yet it would be something if this blew up on my Instagram account.

Also, I mentioned on my Facebook that I had noticed a RFID sticker being advertised in a key-making machine at my Fry’s store… this is not good, guys, for they also make the RFID chip that people will put on others in the future to worship the antichrist with, and God says they will never be saved; just look at Revelation 14:9-11. Too bad that anyone who resists is killed, but it’s worth dying against (see Revelation 13:15, 14:12-13: “Blessed are those who from now on die in the Lord” — blog post writer’s translation). I told one of my managers about it, and he charged me not to let this happen to me. I’ll resist it until my dying day, but I don’t think he’s Christian, yet I can testify that respect is valued in Fry’s Food stores. Thank God no one’s judged me for my words yet, although I have said some out-of-turn statements before; I hope to never do that again…

But even so, I’m glad this Christmas has panned out well, and now, we’re coming into a new decade with a lot of good ahead of us, if politics doesn’t achieve a permanent victory, first. How’d your Christmas go? I’d love to hear it. Merry Christmas and a happy new year! #2020

Hey, everybody! I have some great news to share in that I was reaffirmed today of Two Rivers Church’s love and devotion to Jesus, and I want to keep going there more often. I did see my mom today, but Bee wasn’t there, and neither were her parents, so I couldn’t give the gifts to her today, but I’ll be able to do that tomorrow 🎄✨🎉🎊 also, Jonathan called me to the living room as I began writing this, so I’m happy to hang out with him 😎😎😎

I was able to receive the new bike today, and now I can go to work and back without spending any money for bus rides! Thank God!! (My mom had one waiting for me.) I’m actually pretty thrilled this happened, for this is a game-changer, what happened today. I also received some other presents, but I won’t go into detail about this now. Besides, I think it’s great that Jesus is celebrated to such a huge extent this time of year. Funny how we have the Santa Claus and Frosty the Snowman stories, but at least they’re fun fairy tales for children 👧🏼👦🏼🧒🏼❄☃ I know I would’ve loved to see Santa when I was a kid. But even so, what I encountered today was a Christmas miracle! I thank God for both that and that my friend, Sarah, sent me a birthday cake today; I did NOT see that coming 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🎂🎈🎆🎆🎆🎇🎇🎇🎇🎇🧨🧨🧨✨🎉🎊

Anyway, stay tuned for what I might post next, for I’m not done with chapter 30 of Genesis yet. See ya!

I still think it’s weird that people had sex with multiple women during those days (this still happens a lot), but at least we now have the Scripture in 1 Corinthians 7:2 that each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband, if they want 😊😊😊💑💏👩🏾‍🤝‍🧑🏾💜💙💗💖💝 but in those days (this is yet another reminder), there weren’t a lot of people on this earth at that time compared to now (there’s about eight billion people today, in late 2019), and tribes fought with one another, so God willed for guys like Jacob to do it with multiple women he was more or less married to, even though He didn’t like polygamy or fornication — and still doesn’t — but He is willing to forgive those who do this today. This passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, page 22 of my NASB Bible, pages 38-39 of my VOICE copy, and page 38 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

It’s not good that Jacob didn’t love the people he was with in this part of his life — I don’t think he had ever enjoyed others’ company very much, especially with his brother, Esau (read chapter 27) sowing discord among his immediate family. I still feel the sting of when this happened in my own life, but at least my brother and I weren’t starting anything, for who would want to divide before age 12? But anyway, I think it’s pretty cool that Jacob, by this time, now had 12 children. One was still yet to be born (read chapter 35 for details), but when that happened, the patriarchs of the tribes were established, and their population grew in Egypt as tensions arose between their peoples. But more of that later. However, I’m going to warn you now, they got their idolatry roots during their stay in Egypt after the events of Genesis, so don’t expect anything promising if you’ve never read the Bible before, but I can testify that some good things happened, yet Jesus was the best one! And He lives again today, so I pray we believe this better. Not to say He’d assault anyone if we didn’t, but He knows how hard it is, and is willing to help, just as Hebrews 4:14-16 says. Another spoiler alert: if you’re reading this in a crucial time of need, you’ll probably think God is leading you to something comforting only to condemn you later, but this doesn’t come from the Holy Spirit, the condemnation thing. Those who use Hebrews 5:11-6:8 to put your sold to death in calling you immature or something are promoting many unforgivable acts of callousness that can only come from Satan himself. It is NOT that author’s intention to adulterate the word of God like this. That’s what Paul spoke against in 2 Corinthians 2:17. It is an act of incredible conceit and God will reject those who do this. I really hate saying it, though… I wish people hadn’t worshiped the Scriptures as if they gave permission to be a total jerk to others! Not that the Bible’s no good; it’s just used super-wrongly by a lot of people! But I don’t think God is disappointed in anyone 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 and He never will be!

Dinah’s birth is actually an enigma to me, though. I think it’s great; in fact, if she embraced Jesus and started to follow Him as Abraham had done nearly 150 years earlier (John 8:56, also Genesis 15:6, Galatians 3:6, Romans 4:22), she’s in Heaven now! If that’s the case, I’d love to meet her and hopefully say I’m sorry to hear what had happened (read chapter 34 for the outrageous crap that had happened). But I MUST be careful not to perpetuate anything that would lead to sexual violence myself, even by accident, for God forbid that I do this! I don’t like it! We really need to combat sexual violence a lot more, for if rape culture becomes legal, it’ll probably be the end of freedom and the Church might be scarred too much. I pray this doesn’t happen! We already have some sexually violent people that the president has put in power, it could only be moments from now that this happens! But no Christian will EVER be sexually violent in even the slightest extent, so don’t worry, I’ve never done it, and I never will! 😁😁😁😁😁 By the way, as I was still writing this, Jonathan asked if I wanted to watch a movie, and we settled on the first Avengers movie, released in 2012. We haven’t seen much of it, but I had pre-recorded it, so I’m not lost on where I am — I’m on the 36-minute mark, with commercials, and it’s a few hours long with them, so I’ll probably be fine. I was watching the scene where the Black Widow was being interrogated by Russian men, and I hated the sexual harassment that had happened. I pray Sarah’s not targeted for this again! It’s bad enough it happened once; if this happened again anytime soon, or at all, it’ll ruin the fun for everyone! And my other friend, Leah, had been raped about three years ago by someone she had trusted, so when she posted her story on Instagram (it was not a disappearing post), I wanted to go to some pretty ridiculous lengths to try to end sexual violence even further. Also, to give you a spoiler alert, Deuteronomy 22:5 doesn’t talk about clothing styles, but about reversing gender roles; I don’t think we need to do that. But I think it’s fun to dress like someone else as long as you’re either being hilarious for the right reasons or doing something godly, or even on Halloween. I don’t want to degrade myself, though. I’ve saved some Reddit videos that loosely talk about this on my laptop, but I’m not watching them now.

The 12th kid, Joseph, is the last one until Benjamin’s birth five chapters later (also from Rachel), and he actually has the coolest godly testimony among his siblings. It’ll be quite some time before I get there, though, I want to apply for some cashiering positions and score a job at one of them to match my Fry’s schedule, so that I can pay back my debts a whole lot easier. So if there’s anything you can pray for, it’s that this happens. I also want you to pray for one of the customers I saw today (I also asked for a manager to pray for him), for he has some stomach problems, and he got so many stitches on his belly that it’s like 10 inches long down his torso! He’s also carrying a container of stomach fluid with a tube connecting that and his belly, which is really weird and gross, but that’s the medical field for you. If there’s some other third or fourth thing you want to pray about, you can do that, too! If you wish, you can also leave me some prayer requests on ron.outland4727@gmail.com, my e-mail address! I’ll read each one, write them down on paper, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I also pray I get some Christmas gifts for my niece soon, because it’s not long before the year ends. I’ll see you in the next post, and be safe out there, everyone; I don’t want anyone to get hurt because of something we’re saying or doing.