Author: Ron Outland

The Israelites were hungry, but they cried out to Jesus as soon as they left Elim (the coastal town where they stopped for fresh water; see Exodus 15:27). But here’s something I didn’t see coming: God Himself said the Israelites were complaining against Him (verses 28-29) — this can’t be the cry of someone narcissistic, right? Fair warning, for those who’ve never read Exodus before, you might think God’s like this. Indeed, I definitely find it difficult to believe He’s not easily offended here 😓😓😓😓😓 I’m glad Jesus was eventually born in Bethlehem to display God’s love to everyone from the country. Too bad the people hated Him there and nailed Him to a cross. And Jesus said, “He who hates Me hates My Father” (John 15:23). This chapter is found in page 41 of my NKJV Bible, pages 52-53 of my NASB Bible, pages 90-92 of my VOICE copy (with its notes), and pages 87-88 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

Also, didn’t God rescue His people from Egypt just weeks prior to this? I’ll need some time to process what just happened… also, I’m writing more than one post today because the previous passage wasn’t very long, and there wasn’t much to say, so I wasn’t done writing for the day yet. But the bread and meat the Israelites ate here was great, they didn’t have any strange cravings yet even though eating the food is nonetheless good in any season, for the most part (but see Numbers 11) — it definitely got weird there. I don’t think I can read this part of the book very well… I need some New Testament verses. I don’t know how else to interpret this in the light of Jesus…

One thing I just remembered is Jesus’ words in John 6:22-59 about bread and wine from Heaven, and how He’s the bread and wine, now. Unfortunately, though, many have used that passage as a pretext for heresies like T.U.L.I.P. and false ideas about predestination and stuff. How evil is that?! I’m like, 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬🤬 — this turns away too many people from Jesus, and I want His love to be no longer said to be selective, for Jesus loves everyone. Too bad an atheist can erase everything the Lord Jesus has done for anyone once they decide to make a point. No one can really be safe once they decide to strike.

The Bible definitely does have a lot of difficult passages, and it’s hard for me to read most of it nowadays, since God’s goodness isn’t preached much. I wish I could rest in Him more often; I have work in less than three and a half hours, and I think miracles are still under attack. I love Bible preaching, but there needs to be tactfulness in the messages. Otherwise, it’s not anointed stuff.

First off, why did they go three days without water, the Israelites? Hmmm… I guess they didn’t know where to find any… but this passage is found in page 41 of my NKJV Bible, page 52 of my NASB Bible, page 90 of my VOICE copy, and pages 86-87 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. But even so, this happened many years ago… I don’t know what they were thinking. I say this is in Arabia because Mt. Sinai is there (Galatians 4:25), and the Israelites come there just a few chapters later. But despite the terrifying sounds that happened on the mountain (chapter 19), we have a better estimate now (Hebrews 12:18-24), so it’s best we listen to God’s voice who speaks to us, for is they turned away from what happened here and they were annihilated, how much worse will it be in Heaven for those who turn away today (see Hebrews 10:28-29, 12:25)! For with great power comes great responsibility (this is akin to Luke 12:48).

In Numbers 14, we see that the Israelites tested God about ten times… I think this began here, since the Lord God spoke the words in verse 26 here. I think they could’ve just bought some good stuff with their wealth — I forget the verses that say they had a lot. But what I don’t understand is why the Israelites would do this when they could trust God and everything would be ok… they must’ve had Egypt in them to a huge extent, and, spoiler alert, this won’t be the last time I speak of this in this section of the Bible. They must’ve known the words that would later become Scripture (see everything from Leviticus onwards, even though they don’t have all the verses yet). But I don’t want to overanalyze anything… I can’t imagine what it must’ve been like to go through the desert with long periods of having nothing to eat or drink. But thankfully, their clothes didn’t get worn out, as it says somewhere in Deuteronomy, I think. I’ll have to double-check…

Any prayer requests? You can leave one in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in the next post where we’re at chapter 16!

Long story short, this starts with a few episodes of complaints from Israel because of what they’re seeing and it ends with Moses getting on Mount Sinai having fellowship with Jesus. To be honest, I really don’t know how else to summarize it, since God never liked the Mosaic Law (read from Exodus 20:20) — and I actually need to let you know some very important information, so listen up! I believe the Lord Jesus told me just now that even though the Ten Commandments are useful for life (the idolatry part I want to avoid, since I’d only worship Jesus), the movie Ten Commandments may have only been made to promote unforgiveness, as if Jesus’ words on the Sermon On The Mount (Matthew 5-7) didn’t matter. Loving your enemies is definitely useful, too, and probably more effective! Also, you know how the Church has fawned over right-wing stuff for a long time? They’ve twisted the Scriptures for many years, especially here in the U.S., so that one day, nationalism would arise and takes us all out, not just here, but across the world. The U.S. is now the leading force behind the world’s cult-like mentality while promoting all sorts of good things, after rejecting it for so long. I don’t like how China runs things, but here, receptivity to the Holy Spirit is just too low 😭😭😭😭😭 I get the feeling this is happening across the world, actually… it didn’t start out this way. Maybe when the U.S. broke apart from Britain in the late 18th century, someone thought it’d be a smart idea to follow the same pattern the Israelites did here, eventually banning themselves from Canaan for 40 years! Thankfully, the generation after them wasn’t so bad, but spoilers, they didn’t teach their children the nature of Jesus, either (see Joshua 23:15-16). This eventually got them kicked out, after having been divided into two separate nations (read 1 Kings 12 and 2 Kings 17/25). And sadly, Moses had prophesied this would happen (Deuteronomy 31:16-21). I don’t want to meditate on bad news, but it doesn’t look like they wanted to have Jesus forgive others. Weird, huh? But this section of Exodus is found in pages 41-46 of my NKJV Bible, pages 52-59 of my NASB Bible, pages 90-103 of my VOICE copy, and pages 86-97 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I don’t think Moses or Joshua enjoyed delivering bad news to the Israelites, since God wanted them to enjoy freedom in Him, especially in Jesus’ new life He offers everyone today. I’m not looking forward to seeing the many episodes of unfaithfulness from the Israelites, actually… I think they had adopted a lot of Egypt mechanics before they left, and weren’t sure what to do with the new life they now had. And I’m actually thinking that sometimes, we don’t know what to do with the new life Jesus gives us. I do want to spend a month at Bora Bora 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🛫🛬🏖🌅😌😌😌😌😌 but I don’t think Jesus wants me to do that right now, so I think that’s great; I do know He wants me to enjoy His creation, though. There’s more stuff to do than a month-long getaway, and vacations might soon be gone anyway, so I’m looking forward to Jesus most of all. And boy, do I need to get another copy of All Things New, for I gave my other copy to my roommate’s cousin even though he’s crazy. Thankfully, though, I’m sharing the Gospel with him, and Jonathan told me God will honor that 😇😇😇😇😇😇 I do pray increased receptivity to the Holy Spirit across the earth, though, for nationalism and communism are trying to tear it down for good. The book’s by John Eldridge; it’s a must-read. Literally.

I pray love for the Polynesians, too, since I don’t know much about them… but if I see fire-dancing somewhere, I’ll be blown away 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥➡💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯 I hope you don’t get the impression I’m too ditzy to actually be professional, though… maybe I’ll be a college kid at heart forever 😂😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣 but even so, you don’t see very many promising things in most Bible books, do you? Maybe I’m just uneducated still, but I feel like I can’t find many promises right now that I can take heart for, since I can’t find my Bible Promises book; it’s buried underneath my letters, and I want to believe God for better things ahead, but I want to do the same for my nieces, too! I hope they find Him one day… I miss them terribly 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭👯‍♀️👩‍❤️‍👩👩🏽‍🤝‍👩🏽 it’s great I’ve had some amazing things happen to me in the recent past, but I want absolutely no one to reject miracles. I love college more than high school by a longshot anyway.

One last thing: Moses says that everything that follows Exodus 20:20 is so that the Israelites can see which is better: Law or Gospel? I think it’s the latter. And boy, am I going to have a hard time with the next 100+ chapters… I don’t want to read those parts of the Bible only. I think the only thing we can learn from this is that the letter kills (2 Corinthians 3:6), and I’d rather look forward to what the Lord Jesus is going to do in the future. Thankfully, He’s always been good, and He never changes (Hebrews 13:8). That’s what I’ll leave you with, since I never get e-mails about what anyone needs prayer for directly into my inbox if it’s not with some charity… but I’ll see you in the latter end of Exodus 15! Ciao!

I love that Moses and everyone in Israel (I mean the descendants of Jacob a.k.a. Israel, a la Genesis 32) sang a glorious song of victory when they made it into the Arabian Peninsula after the Lord Jesus flooded Egypt’s army and drowned everyone (keep in mind He didn’t delight in overthrowing Egypt, since He loves His enemies, too — you know He died for them as well, right?) — no one of Jacob died, thank God 😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇 I should also let you know I actually don’t have much to say concerning this, but I’m grateful miracles exist still, even to this day. This passage is found in page 40 of my NKJV Bible, page 52 of my NASB Bible, pages 89-90 of my VOICE copy, and page 86 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I say it’s great that miracles still exist today because… well, Sarah took me and Marcela (one of her girlfriends) to Six Flags Hurricane Harbor for her birthday coming up 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 (oh, pardon the interruption, Jonathan came in and asked if we could get some coffee for his Keurig machine, so I’ll be back shortly) — we didn’t need to leave, and the coffee tastes great. Indeed, I knew miracles would be in danger of being forgotten if not for the Six Flags trip this afternoon, so that’s why I say this is good. I pray for this to continue… I don’t know what I’m going to do next and the lack of information is scaring me. But I believe God for things to go well in the future, just like they did today 🌊💧🌥 so if you have any prayer requests, you can let me know what you need prayer for in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in the next large section of Exodus where the beginning of the journey to Canaan is recorded! Later, guys 😊😊😊😊😊

Here we have the famous story of God leading the Israelites out of Egypt, for He was happy to pull it off through Jesus (see also certain translations of Jude 5). He wanted the people to honor Him through this, and was looking forward to having His people love Him knowingly, just as many of us in the Church do now… I hope… I don’t expect others to know Him if they’ve become entrenched in “churchianity” but for those who’ve never heard of Jesus, and have some Bible access, this is a great example of what He did for His chosen people to bless the earth with. That’s why God led them out of Egypt. This chapter is found in pages 39-40 of my NKJV Bible, page 51 of my NASB Bible, pages 88-89 of my VOICE copy, and pages 86-87 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I can’t wait for more miracles like this one here, and I think we need them, for although the Bible’s still the best-selling book EVER, people all across the world are getting more and more hostile against Jesus, and more and more governments are trying to help them wipe Jesus off the face of the earth. It seems to be the weirdest case here, though, since nationalism is gaining ground. But hopefully, people look at miracles like this one and acknowledge that Jesus exists. Once they do, they should leave iniquity behind forever, just as 2 Timothy 2:19 commands us. Why is nationalism even a thing, anyway? Does it have something to do with the fact that greed is central to U.S. customs? I don’t think they’re addressing any specific sins, anyway. That’s what I’ve noticed. But I can’t thrive with idolatry around… 😖😖😖 Thank God sin’s not required to stay in the U.S.; in fact, birthright citizenship is still a thing here, thankfully 😇😇😇😇😇 I wish it were the case with every nation, though. Regardless, I was telling one of my friends at work that things aren’t looking so good in Gilbert because of high housing prices. I was like, “And Gilbert’s supposed to be the second safest place in the whole country? I guess that’s why they call it America.” Think about that next time you see a good-looking neighbourhood and still find death in the hearts of so many people in it. You’ll quickly agree with me.

We then shared our beliefs about religion, and I feel bad someone’s tried to turn her away from Jesus, so I pray for love to hear her broken heart of the atheism that nearly made her an agnostic… yep, I called the churches’ practices atheism, since they don’t believe in God; otherwise they would’ve practiced Jesus’ teachings. I’ve been finding it more difficult to identify with Jesus at times, actually… but hopefully some people become Christian in my area soon, and that power is defeated here. For just because it says in 1 Corinthians 4:20 that the kingdom of God isn’t about work or talk but in power doesn’t mean anyone gets to use political prowess to seize the earth so that there’d be a giant gap in income. I actually believe the U.S. doesn’t care about any of us, but thank God Jesus does 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 We need to spread the word! Josh was convinced of this when I told him that… I’m actually surprised anyone would believe me concerning this 😄😅😆 Jon Foreman even sang in his Looking For America song, “America, where are you? Am I asking for too much?” Unfortunately, we ALL might be. So I think we should reject the systems altogether, and that we should believe that this is a kind of biblical Babylon. Hopefully, though, Jesus leads the way for more people away from our sins and into His glory…

It’s too bad there doesn’t tend to be a lot of miracles here, and whenever we pray for any miracles to come from Jesus, they’re usually hated by almost everyone because of deep unbelief. Why is it even a thing, anyway? Huh… I guess it’s because of too much money, and that many people here think they’re Christian because of some access to the Gospel even though they know half the world’s still unevangelized. But safety is what we need, yet isn’t not much of a thing here, sadly… the U.S. has been at similar rankings in this to South Africa and Saudi Arabia for quite some time. Weird, but when you’re at a similar spot to an Islamic nation where nothing but Islam is allowed, you know we’re in deep trouble. But I pray for miracles across the Middle East and in places like China and Indonesia, where Christianity is more or less frowned upon by the government. I don’t think we’re safe in very many places of the world, but even though I love Gilbert, I can’t accept the idea that people should go to Hell because I’m not there to preach the Word to them. But because I don’t have the money or even the freedom to get there, I pray for Jesus Himself to speak to them and that their hearts are illuminated by His Spirit to love Him, knowing we can’t save ourselves… but still, I have managed to ascertain how much longer I’ll be paying my debts back for in BOTH my college expenses, yet I still don’t know how much I owe on my credit card thing. Regardless, because I have a good credit score again, I think it’s a lot better than what it used to be.

If there’s anything to learn from this story here, in Exodus 14, is that even though things can look hopeless again, at least God is faithful to provide a way out to those who ask for it. I think there’s more to look forward to beyond this, and I can believe there’s better days ahead for those who love Jesus. Too bad there aren’t that many people who even have any interest in the Scriptures. But I don’t want to rush anything here; in fact, I’d understand if no one wants to hear anything I’m saying; I can sound very awkward at best, and a total nightmare at worst. I’d rather not be the only gospel preacher anyway; it’s not even a job title I have; I’m just hoping people hear the good news because of me. Still, there’s something I should’ve known long ago: the Lord Jesus is faithful to provide a way out to those who deserve it 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💗💘💓 indeed, we see that ✝ = 💖 — and I’m not making a religious statement here. I think we might have to be careful with whom we share this with, in case anyone weirdly believes Hillsong to be a cult, and I don’t agree with them. I do pray for the church leaders who love Jesus to be faithful, though. I wonder what you might need a miracle for, if you let me know, I can pray for this. I’m sorry that people have tried to turn you away from Jesus, especially on the Church’s behalf, but there’s going to be revival across the world, at least. Yet nationalism dressed up as Christianity is on the rise (remember, it got the paper’s attention, which is weird), and it’s getting in the way. Sadly, I can’t do anything about it, but pray for freedom to no longer be used as a means to offend… I’m hoping it’s still legal for me to say that 😂😂😂😂😂😂 but I’ll see you in the first half of chapter 15!

The Lord God sets up regulations for the Israelites’ new way of life here, from Passover instructions to redemption of the firstborn, but nowadays, Jesus says everyone gets to find redemption in Him, and this was merely a shadow of things to come (see Hebrews 9:8-9 — wow, I just noticed this was here 😅 I should’ve noticed when I did my first round of this nearly nine years ago 🤷🏼‍♂️ oh, well) — this passage is found in page 39 of my NKJV Bible, pages 50-51 of my NASB Bible, pages 86-88 of my VOICE copy, and pages 83-84 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I won’t go into much about the actual laws of the Old Testament here, but one thing I found out in early 2014 was that cursed objects are real. I’m serious. There’s all sorts of media outlets that have demonic content, and we should NEVER bring those into our houses, lest we ruin ourselves or even endure eternal punishment for it. The worst of it has to be heretical books like Wayne Grudem’s works of literally any kind, not to mention A.W. Pink’s content and Paul Washer’s, and also political books like what I’ve seen my roommate drag home before. I also think John Hagee’s works are satanic and demonic, since I see a hateful undertone in everything he writes. That’s just a few. The Eminem CDs also have unforgiving content, likewise anything else with a parental advisory sticker (we don’t need to make such content haha). I love the Jumanji movies that came out late 2010s, but I don’t think the instructors needed to be puppets of the satanic U.S. department of education system (this can be true of any country, actually) — beware of demonic stuff in our media. Careful what you indulge in, guys, for all this I speak of comes from different religions, and that’s not good, since they ALL lead us away from Jesus. It can take a while to get back, too, and drugs are evil as well; I think they’re cursed objects. I just found out some 16-year-old apparently took a pill that killed him (I don’t know how he got it or if he even wanted one, but you never know, stories like this might be fabricated, and besides, I believe in forgiveness anyway). Oregon had legalized them last November, and so I pray for healing there… I think the drug users need some counseling, and some help with not bouncing off the walls over the wrong stuff… I stay away from all content like this as best as I can to ensure I don’t hurt myself, and even though I got two movies earlier this year from Wal-Mart, neither of them are R-rated or above, and I want to find godly moments in them, but it’s unlikely, since both involve some intense events, I think. I don’t have an exhaustive list of what is or isn’t safe to entertain yourself with, but I think it’s best we learn as we go along. Still, use what you know to your advantage. I do like the Black Panther movie, though; cool stuff! 💪🏿💪🏿💪🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿✊🏿 #wakandaforever — yep, I have a T-shirt that says that haha 😂😂😂😂😂 I love it!

I didn’t notice the passage of the latter portion of chapter 13 until about early 2017, when I was still applying for jobs and trying to get off the streets (it’s a long story, but this exodus/wilderness story I paralleled to it) — I guess that’s why life’s been hard 😅🤷🏼‍♂️ but I’m grateful to be in Gilbert now, since I was invited to live with Jonathan and I’ve stayed with him since 😇😇😇😇😇 I think that happens a lot in our lives, actually, for even though the easy way I’d love to take, I unfortunately feel like difficulty might be preferred in God’s sight, even when there’s less hostility in the easier route… I dunno. Europe’s pretty cool, but many nations across the earth are still in lockdown… for what I don’t know. But I pray healing for EVERYONE in Africa 🌍 the situation’s very serious, for I think Satan’s led many to believe the prosperity gospel there, and that’s not a good promise, huh?

I still don’t have much blessing after getting paid, though, for I need to pay too many bills each month and my job, even with a lot of hours, doesn’t pay much despite the high wages and average prices. I found out three weeks ago they increased the minimum wage a fifth time since 2016 (this was back on New Year’s Day), but there’s nothing I can do to make extra cash, since a car loan is very unwise and I can’t do deliveries on my bike so I can earn some wages… I need some help. I hate living on vague survival measures, and when I get a miracle, I seem to lose all of it like immediately; I’m starting to think I can’t keep any miracles, and that people who are wealthy might just be born into it, and all of us are screwed who aren’t born into wealth, and perpetually, too. I know what you’re thinking, “You can work hard enough to succeed!” But it’s obvious this only seems to be possible for the elite, and when we’re generous, it seems like everything goes to waste. I want to listen to more preachers of Christ from across the world, but I have no chance on finding an authentic message most of the time. I want to preach the good news to the nations in the Asia/Pacific area, but it’s obvious that the heresy of “Christian” Nationalism seems to have won preemptively. For it’s gained the paper’s attention, and they’re trying to help them gain absolution. I don’t know what to do, since I can’t leave the house tonight or next week if there needs to be a Game 7 of the NBA Finals (GO SUNS!!!) I even have difficulty playing recent messages from 2RC and Hillsong Australia, so I might be boxed in… pray for a release, please?

Here we find the beginning of the Jewish calendar, since God said in verse 2 that this is the beginning of months for His people (NASB). But this was to point towards Jesus to come many years later. Still, this passage is found in pages 38-39 of my NKJV Bible, pages 48-50 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 84-86 of my VOICE copy (I’ll go read it really quick), and pages 81-83 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

There was also the Passover, still celebrated by Jews today, which I think is pretty good, but they need to realize it’s Christ that should be worshipped instead, since this observance pointed to Him when it first came out.

Anyway, the whole land of Egypt had dead firstborn men everywhere, and so Pharaoh finally admitted Jesus defeated him, so he urged everyone of Israel to leave in haste, so they did, and all of Egypt thought they’d all be dead if the Israelites never left. Too bad Pharaoh changes his mind later on once again… I don’t know why he did that. I guess the power got to his head… I don’t know for sure; I guess it’s something I can never really understand, since people like him are authoritarian and such. Indeed, the man had rejected Jesus at least once in his life prior to that point. What I did enjoy hearing, though, was that recently, California opened up again, as its next-door neighbour, Arizona (where I’m from) had done over a year ago. Heck, I’d actually buy a house there if I had five million bucks, but I don’t think there’s a single place in the West that’s any safer than Gilbert is. I do love Arizona, though.

I should also mention that — I really hate to say this — I feel this isn’t remembered much in the churches of Christ nowadays, since the heresy of “Christian” nationalism still hasn’t even been bruised even once, well, except for Trump having to leave his job, I guess. Still, the people actually worship something like this, and they even came up with a Lee Greenwood Bible (complete with U.S. history mixed with Bible passages) — thank God they couldn’t find a publisher yet; I mean, Zondervan didn’t do it, so I feel they’ve done a good thing here. This is getting very strange. I just found out this week that someone had predicted back in 1936 this would be popular. We don’t know who said it and where he was from. But even so, with what’s happened in the last several years, I feel the U.S. has sealed his fate. I’m serious. People have said for years, “If God doesn’t judge the U.S., He’d have to apologize to Sodom and Gomorrah!” But the guilt here is even worse, for they’ve actually used God’s Name for political power to obscene degrees! I feel they’re going to criminalize everything but “Christian” nationalism soon, and that abuse will be required by law for every citizen per day. When we resist, they’ll give us a fate more bitter than death, since they know there are worse things than death that exist, like trafficking. It’s like when Snape killed Dumbledore then became headmaster of Hogwarts, and when he did that, he sealed off all seven secret passages between it and Hogsmeade. I’d rather die, to be completely honest. I pray my nieces receive Jesus soon… they don’t deserve to be violated like this!

If you want to pray about anything else, too, you can leave me an e-mail at ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! Hopefully your Juneteenth went good this year, and I’ll see you in the next one!

So, God announces that every firstborn species in Egypt will perish, but if you look into James 1:13, you find that God cannot be tempted by evil, and He Himself doesn’t tempt anyone. Indeed, this is the final plague in Egypt that God announces… and nothing like this happens again there 😇😇😇😇😇 I remember I was pretty thankful I was able to head to another part of the Phoenix area to live there, and after many nights at the homeless shelter, I was able to live with Jonathan starting four years ago this month. However, he’s making changes that I won’t announce right now, but this passage is found in pages 37-38 of my NKJV Bible, page 48 of my NASB Bible, page 84 of my VOICE copy, and page 81 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I did find a friend I can move in with, but he’s not buying the place until November, and I’m depending on him to put himself somewhere here in northern Gilbert so I can live safely close to work and the church where we go to. I’m also depending on God and beseeching Him daily that I don’t have to leave Gilbert or move out too soon before October, for the first day is the cutoff date that I had let the federal loan guys know that I’d be living here through that time frame. If anything happens, even if it wasn’t my choosing, I think I can get in such big trouble I’m no longer wanting to live! This has been very hard on me and I’m beginning to feel like no one seems to realize or care this can happen to me, despite the fact I’ve been going to Two Rivers for years, now. Why should anyone turn against God now, since we’re so close to the cutoff date? I can’t breathe 😨😨😨😨😨😨😨😨 it’s like the exodus from my mom’s place is being reversed, and I’ve never wanted to dishonor God even once!

Darkness covered the whole land of Egypt for three days, and no one left their houses, but the Israelites had light where they lived, so I love it. I pray I find the right answer to someone who might want to try and disprove God’s love and provision to everyone when they recite to me this passage, thinking I’m not aware of this. But this passage is found in page 37 of my NKJV Bible, page 48 of my NASB Bible, pages 83-84 of my VOICE copy, and pages 80-81 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

It’s indeed one thing for someone to tell a human to leave their country because they don’t like them, but telling a servant of God or their own native men this?! Whaaaaaat??? Seriously, if I could, I’d make it so that everyone on earth had birthright citizenship. But even with these nine plagues, the Pharaoh was still unwilling to let the Israelites leave and serve God freely with everything they have. Weird, huh? Well, that kind of thing can happen anywhere… I don’t know what it looks like for you, but I had difficulty finding a place to live after I moved out of my mom’s house again… but that was due to an eviction she had faced. But she couldn’t help, so I was super-thankful I could live near the church soon, and live near the church I did, and still am. It was a difficult process, though, which I’ll explain as we go further and further into the story of the exodus from Egypt to settlement in Canaan. But my mom seems to have decided — well, I don’t know what she’s up to; I just know I find it difficult to spend time with most of my family members still. But I have good news: even though I got into a car crash a few weeks ago, I’m getting a check like three times the amount I originally paid for the car because the other guy was at fault for crashing into me! 🚗💥🚗🔜💰💵📈 I’m not telling you how much on here, though, or on ANY online platform… but it’s a shame I can’t do DoorDash anymore, since accidents like this are common in Arizona, even where it’s safer. And Arizona is a pretty big state, plus, the accident occurred in Mesa, near where I live, and it’s one of the safer parts of the country (Gilbert is better still in such terms), so I’ll need to pay off a lot of my debts with this. I do want to go on a five-day trip to Heber or something, but I need to hypothesize with my roommate and some friends with this, for I don’t think I can do it, even with a simple and easy-to-use app to get me somewhere nice for cheap. Nevertheless, I pray for any counsel concerning what I should do when my vacation starts next month (I have a week of paid vacation from Fry’s).

Any prayer requests? Sorry, I haven’t said this in a while 😅 Drop them in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down (if they’re any good haha) then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in chapter 11!

I ordered some pizza and wings with breadsticks and marinara sauce from Little Caesar’s just now, and it turned out that DoorDash took my order and gave it to one of my friends from church, which I love. His name is Jesse, and he asked me about if I’ve been going to church lately. I replied, “Sometimes,” for I don’t know how much I can tell him without information overload. But I haven’t felt safe to go to church much during the COVID-19 pandemic, and I don’t want to say it, but I think I haven’t been getting that much out of Awaken lately, since I turned 30 last December, but Hillsong is great, yet I don’t think I can trek the nearly ten-mile journey to and from the Mesa location on University Drive, each direction. I think I want to keep seeking Jesus with the Two Rivers guys, but I’m not feeling that good about a handful of messages the pastor is saying. But Jonathan and I don’t often go to church because of the virus, so I think I should view some Hillsong messages online, for I just got a heartwarming message from the Sydney locations that we are not forgotten by God 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💝💝💝💝💝💘💕💞💓💗😘😘😘🥰💋 (yep, I’m just doing this as if Jesus was physically in the room with me; I regret nothing, and it’s not a gay thing to do it haha but I can definitely make people laugh with this; I pray love for those who are into others of the same gender, though; they’re definitely worth it 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I don’t want to judge them EVER, for I find it weird people get offended at them, but Jesus isn’t, thank God). I also started watching a Hillsong video they released this Sunday, but I was only about six minutes in when I found out I have a difficult time believing any promise someone announces even when their character is proven good in front of everyone. I wouldn’t judge anyone in Hillsong, though; I actually hope the good churches aren’t attacked by offensive men who want to shove Trump down our throats. Seriously.

So, there’s my two cents on what I feel led to do by the Holy Spirit in terms of community, even though there’s always the option of joining Awaken leadership, which I’d love to do. But if Tim, the pastor, knows I was born with autism, I don’t know what he’d contemplate for me. Still, I pray for God’s wisdom here…