Author: Ron Outland

The VOICE version put it like how I have Jacob and Laban’s separation worded in this post’s title. Honestly, I’m not sure what to say here, but before I go into detail on how I’ve paralleled more of my life in Christ so far akin to Jacob’s (though he hadn’t been saved until after all his children were born; see Genesis 37 for his favoritism), I’ll say that this passage is found in pages 18-19 of my NKJV Bible, pages 23-24 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 41-42 of my VOICE copy (with its notes) and pages 40-41 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

First, I’ll note that I saw I’m Not Ashamed in my room a few nights ago (the Columbine High story) and I have to say, it really rocked my world. If you know what happened that day in 1999, you’ll understand what I’m talking about. I wish that never took place, though! I’m pretty sure the shooters knew the girl was Christian, so they insulted God by saying to her, “Want to meet Him?” Then they shot her point-blank, after they had wounded her badly. Something like this should never happen. Yet I’m inspired by her bravery to confess the Name of Jesus when all hope seems lost, but at the same time, I’m surprised nothing insane has unfolded still, but I am in the process of delaying my student loan payments for the next year. Still, it’s no longer one of the deadlier shootings anymore, since so many more happened that are even worse in more recent times. What sucks most of all is that they were probably hired by the godless people who run the U.S., more and more each year. Enduring it is one big roller-coaster ride that will not leave you feeling any better than before. I can’t ever have the heart to pray against more unfolding in the future because the violence has deepened itself into the fabric of this nation so badly by now, and so I often don’t expect to make it through the current season I’m in or even the shift I’m clocked in for. I can probably keep a low profile about everything (generally speaking) while I grow in Jesus and bless the people around me… to the point where I might be able to prevent a shooting from happening anywhere someday, but the massive amount of courage I imagine it’ll take just to learn about let alone actually obtain (for unfortunately, sometimes keeping a low profile can backfire on you) feels too far away, and while I don’t want to retreat into cowardice, I don’t think I can make it through the next trial that comes my way when I stand up for Jesus publicly next time. I pray the Holy Spirit would guide me through everything (I’d rather not analyze something), for silence is worse than suffering, as Jeremiah 20:7-9 demonstrates. I don’t know what to do 😭😭😭😭😭 I don’t want anyone to die because of my witness to Jesus! Not even if he or she is one of His enemies!

I know this rant is unexpected for some of you, but I’ve been wondering for so long about differentiating between bravery and being obnoxious and also dodging malicious compliance and actually being able to invite people to learn about God that I’m just ready to say that soon, I’ll have to find that this answer probably won’t come to me in this life, and I don’t like that idea, for I want to mirror Heaven’s reality here on Earth instead, just as Jesus had said (Matthew 6:10). My pastor was right in having said last spring that Americans have 20/10 vision when it comes to fault-finding, in contrast to pretty much everywhere else. And both of us were born here in the U.S.! I wish I could change that for another person (for I’ve had three people saved so far) 😭😭😭

I think I’m saying all of this because Jacob was at least allowed to leave his in-laws’ land in peace, and surprisingly, I still haven’t had any attacks from any of my posts in recent months, especially the last one about the attack on Iran — I’m still praying there’s no war, but I can thank God for what He’s done so far 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘 (yes, I’m blowing Him a kiss; don’t judge me 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 it’s not a gay thing to do, people; I still love women) — and I still have a lot of things I wish I could ask my mom, such as why she would be so hostile despite the fact that my brother and I grew up in the case of her supposedly discouraging it… I’m like, “WHAT HAVE WE DONE TO DESERVE THIS?! Is anyone less than half your age so much of a mistake to you that you wish to indoctrinate them into oblivion?” I’ll probably get a fake peace reply again from my mom if she sees this… she’s really good at hiding her injustice. She’s always been a divisive jerk to everyone… I’m probably wrong about this, too, but I know she’s divisive, for my brother has also learned of this and can agree with me about the fact that she’s loved to sow discord among family members for ages. God hates it when someone does this (Proverbs 6:16-19), and she knows it; she’s just been blaming everyone for too damn long, and soon, her days of causing crimes like this will be numbered! I wish nothing would happen, though… but the judgment is up to God, but when does He intervene? He’s done it before, but often it seems like I get any help too late. Am I not meant to live in this world? For I still have my past haunting me (I speak of the debts I’ve accumulated over the years), but that wouldn’t have happened if only she had believed in Jesus as she said she did in the first place!

I guess you can say that at this point, I’m not expecting God to get me through this in one piece this time… I always get too much opposition when something like this happens, for it was first the college career thing being ravaged by my jealous mom, and now I’m being burdened with several debt payments to make each month because of an impatient and unforgiving culture? But even if God doesn’t put an end to another branch of debt soon, I’ll still praise Him, yet I might be turned off to bravery forever if I don’t go through this in one piece and still live to tell the tale. I want to preach the gospel to many people across the world, but instead, it seems like I’m called to struggle with my demons and nothing more. I can’t take any of this… I’d rather have God take me out of this world, especially in a no-death method 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 if you want to pray for any blessing despite this, that’d be great, but don’t expect me to not be scarred for life by spiritual death again, first 😰 I’ll see you either tomorrow or Tuesday, if nothing happens, for I still intend to live in peace with others and not cause damage to even myself. And God-willing, I’ll get my tax returns soon.

First off, I hope your 2020 is going good so far, but I have some frightening news to let you know about. The first one is the the president launched a rocket against Iran (I won’t mention names, though, but you probably know who he is), and that war could soon happen, and many of us in both here in the U.S. and Iran could perish unjustly. He’s everything but peaceful, though he claims to be Christian. If anyone still thinks he should be worshiped (or some other candidate), they’re only lying to themselves, and God won’t forgive anyone who lies to themselves like this. The second one is that my mom could catch wind of me knowing the eviction I mentioned in a previous note (the eviction itself was back in 2016), and she’d realize I had thanked God for it, and she’d destroy every last man, woman, and child she’s more or less related to, and start over with her boyfriend from scratch, and that she’d make it so no one would ever be able to remember what she did or have the freedom to fight back. She’d be like Thanos in Avengers: Endgame! THAT’S how divisive she is, and my brother and I (including our families and some of our friends) know this! This I say because Jacob and Laban start to have escalating conflicts here, and what sucks most of all is that the VOICE editors actually side with that godless jerk who tricked Jacob multiple times! For God had told Jacob to screw up Laban with the livestock, and this passage says this explicitly. It is found in page 18 of my NKJV Bible, page 23 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 40-41 of my VOICE copy, and pages 39-40 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I’m sorry if I’m freaking you out with this, but Jesus commanded all of us to make peace, just as Matthew 5:9 has said (Jesus Himself spoke this): “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God” (NASB). And I’m not putting this on Facebook, for that would be like putting raw meat all over my skin and walking into a forest filled with bears while wearing it. I’m going to buy the I’m Not Ashamed DVD online once I post this, for I need to prepare myself for what I imagine will be a most trying season in the future. It could start tonight, it could be next week, it could be a year from now… it could happen anytime, my unfortunate execution for me believing in Jesus and suffering for Him again. I told Jonathan the bad news of the airstrike, and thankfully, I mentioned 1 Timothy 6:11 about seeking peace like there’s no tomorrow. (Edit on January 4, 2020: I looked up the Greek for this; peace and gentleness are two different Greek words, but both are fruits of the Spirit. Sorry 😂😂😂😂😂 I just didn’t think of Galatians 5…) I pray he and Dean and EVERYONE I know would react positively to this, for if anyone doesn’t receive my message with peace, they’re not believers and will probably go to Hell for their reaction. By the way, the DVD could take several business days to ship out to my house, but at least I have the money for it this time. I pray I gladly get bold in my walk with Christ, because I’m pretty sure time’s running out for me to live in a season in which I don’t have violence attacking me. Hopefully I’m wrong, but I’m not expecting any hateful attacks to be averted this time. I’m probably going to be persecuted again! I told this to my current and former Awaken pastors, and they could agree that I need a miracle (for I mentioned the second job thing to them and my history of enduring major bullcrap as if Jesus wasn’t worth anything). Too bad I didn’t know about the airstrike incident at the time, though. Maybe I did; I just wasn’t expecting the president to realize that the people are able to stop him from being divisive. If he has done this, he’ll erupt in anger and fear like Voldemort did when he discovered that Harry Potter had known about the Horcruxes he had made. I swear, though, I can’t always help but speak like this! Maybe I can, I don’t know for sure… I’m scared we won’t make it through the next week or two as well 😓😰😭😭😭 Tell everyone you know what I’ve written tonight, if you can. The Holy Spirit is threatened because of the president, and also the divisive people we were reared by! They’ve threatened Him, too! Please, tell your family and friends you love them, for it could all end tonight! For just as the two shooters who killed 13 people in the Columbine shooting back in 1999 didn’t receive Jesus, so those warmongers won’t be saved, either. Pray you might make it out of this alive, and feel free to pray that I would get through this trying time in one “peace,” if you know what I mean 🙏🏼🙌🏼✝☮💯💯💯

I pray you, the reader, would recognize how much God loves you, though, for in the midst of incredible chaos and danger, He still is able to make love and happiness take place, so I want to say, “Hi, I love you a lot, thanks for existing” 💝💝💝💝💝💝💝💘💘💘💘💘💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💗💓💞❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤎🖤🤍❣ I’ll see you again on here, God-willing, after I watch the I’m Not Ashamed movie. Pray that it will come in the mail, too. But I have another round of interviews at a furniture store next week, and I can make it on Monday morning. I’d love for you to pray I make it there, for I have that day off work.

See ya!

It’s the last day of the 2010s, and I figure (the Holy Spirit wanted me to do this, I think; I haven’t written on any Bible verses in weeks) I write on Jacob’s strange and hilarious practical joke on Laban, his father-in-law 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 this passage is found in page 18 of my NKJV Bible, pages 22-23 of my NASB Bible, pages 39-40 of my VOICE copy (including the notes with it) and pages 38-39 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I find it interesting that in verse 33, Jacob wanted to be honest with Laban. Too bad he didn’t receive Jacob, though, but he hacked into the system and made it so that he’d be the wealthy one, and while I find that funny, too often the systems are rigged against us commoners who simply want to enjoy life and Jesus and others, however few of us there are. Indeed, the entire Millenial generation (along with the college-age kids) are being screwed over relentlessly, and I think that’s just unfair. I’ve actually thought of installing Cop-Cams in every house so I’d publicly expose every last man, woman, and trustee that abuses children so they’d all be humiliated. Too bad I don’t have much money left, so I can’t order any. (I saw the Cop-Cam thing in an infomercial once. It’s basically a secret surveillance camera (or two, or however many there are) that catches people in wrongdoing.) While I would NEVER use it on my own relatives that are in my generation or the ones after us (nor do I want to diss my own mom just so I could be recognized), I’ve been feeling that everyone in entire age groups is really unsafe because of those who manipulate them into trusting them; indeed, they actually cast shame on those who trust the ones who deserve them! I didn’t deserve it growing up — I should mention it’s only ten minutes after midnight before the new decade — and neither do they! Regardless, I think someone will eventually notice my door-to-door installment of those if I decide to put those Cop-Cam surveillance cameras everywhere where no one would notice, so unfortunately, I can’t do it, but a rich Youtuber probably would be able to if he/she was willing, and I’m not good at sneaking in anywhere, so I shouldn’t do it 😅😄😆 but I really want to end the problem of abuse against children and women everywhere! I hope others read this blog post, for I want to see the Holy Spirit move, and if I can’t place Cop-Cams anywhere, I pray at least one person anywhere in the world would get one to catch their abusers by surprise! (I’ve just grown sick of the anti-lovingness most parents always love exercising on their sons/daughters/other relatives.)

Speaking of a new decade, it’s almost 2020, and I want to ask, what might God be calling you to start to propel for life starting in the following decade that begins tomorrow? Leave me a comment and share, and as for prayers, you can e-mail me at ron.outland4727@gmail.com! (Sorry, I’m not at the end of the post yet.) I understand not many read my stuff on here, though 😂😂😂😂😂 I just feel I make myself too conspicuous most of the time, probably due to my height. I’m not even kidding; I’ve always been tall for my age growing up, and now I’m one of the men who’s taller than most people 18 or older around the world. I’m sure I can be seen as a scary man because of that, which honestly, really sucks. But I’m 29, now, yet I have a lot of grey hair on my head, so if you have any, welcome to the club. I’ve had some for nearly ten years, now, and I’ll get more and more grey hair in the future, but that’s a good thing, for it is written that it’s a crown of glory (Proverbs 16:31). At least I won’t be middle-aged until I’m 40… I keep thinking I’ll be executed for something funny I say or do, but thank God Sarah doesn’t want that for me; she’d be #devastated. But I’m not likely to cause any controversy… that is, if I am in line with other people’s selfish expectations, and I don’t want that. I’d rather be transformed by Jesus (Romans 12:2). But as it is, I changed my light bulb from green to pink in my room, and I plan on wearing a pink shirt covering only my upper torso with my bedsheet as a gown (it’ll cover everything between my chest and feet) and drinking sparkling rosé from my 2020 glass cup while taking photos using Instagram filters… THAT will be very funny; I kinda plan on being more entertaining than anything 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 don’t worry; I didn’t buy alcohol; I don’t want to get drunk though many others would each New Year’s Eve… not worth it. Also, I’m not trying to be someone else; I thought I’d be hilarious and poke fun at the violation of Deuteronomy 22:5 about reversing sexual roles. That’s it. And I’m not a very popular social media user (I only got 11 birthday wishes last week, but I had a lot of fun with Sarah and my roommates at On The Border near my house), yet it would be something if this blew up on my Instagram account.

Also, I mentioned on my Facebook that I had noticed a RFID sticker being advertised in a key-making machine at my Fry’s store… this is not good, guys, for they also make the RFID chip that people will put on others in the future to worship the antichrist with, and God says they will never be saved; just look at Revelation 14:9-11. Too bad that anyone who resists is killed, but it’s worth dying against (see Revelation 13:15, 14:12-13: “Blessed are those who from now on die in the Lord” — blog post writer’s translation). I told one of my managers about it, and he charged me not to let this happen to me. I’ll resist it until my dying day, but I don’t think he’s Christian, yet I can testify that respect is valued in Fry’s Food stores. Thank God no one’s judged me for my words yet, although I have said some out-of-turn statements before; I hope to never do that again…

But even so, I’m glad this Christmas has panned out well, and now, we’re coming into a new decade with a lot of good ahead of us, if politics doesn’t achieve a permanent victory, first. How’d your Christmas go? I’d love to hear it. Merry Christmas and a happy new year! #2020

Hey, everybody! I have some great news to share in that I was reaffirmed today of Two Rivers Church’s love and devotion to Jesus, and I want to keep going there more often. I did see my mom today, but Bee wasn’t there, and neither were her parents, so I couldn’t give the gifts to her today, but I’ll be able to do that tomorrow 🎄✨🎉🎊 also, Jonathan called me to the living room as I began writing this, so I’m happy to hang out with him 😎😎😎

I was able to receive the new bike today, and now I can go to work and back without spending any money for bus rides! Thank God!! (My mom had one waiting for me.) I’m actually pretty thrilled this happened, for this is a game-changer, what happened today. I also received some other presents, but I won’t go into detail about this now. Besides, I think it’s great that Jesus is celebrated to such a huge extent this time of year. Funny how we have the Santa Claus and Frosty the Snowman stories, but at least they’re fun fairy tales for children 👧🏼👦🏼🧒🏼❄☃ I know I would’ve loved to see Santa when I was a kid. But even so, what I encountered today was a Christmas miracle! I thank God for both that and that my friend, Sarah, sent me a birthday cake today; I did NOT see that coming 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🎂🎈🎆🎆🎆🎇🎇🎇🎇🎇🧨🧨🧨✨🎉🎊

Anyway, stay tuned for what I might post next, for I’m not done with chapter 30 of Genesis yet. See ya!

I still think it’s weird that people had sex with multiple women during those days (this still happens a lot), but at least we now have the Scripture in 1 Corinthians 7:2 that each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband, if they want 😊😊😊💑💏👩🏾‍🤝‍🧑🏾💜💙💗💖💝 but in those days (this is yet another reminder), there weren’t a lot of people on this earth at that time compared to now (there’s about eight billion people today, in late 2019), and tribes fought with one another, so God willed for guys like Jacob to do it with multiple women he was more or less married to, even though He didn’t like polygamy or fornication — and still doesn’t — but He is willing to forgive those who do this today. This passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, page 22 of my NASB Bible, pages 38-39 of my VOICE copy, and page 38 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

It’s not good that Jacob didn’t love the people he was with in this part of his life — I don’t think he had ever enjoyed others’ company very much, especially with his brother, Esau (read chapter 27) sowing discord among his immediate family. I still feel the sting of when this happened in my own life, but at least my brother and I weren’t starting anything, for who would want to divide before age 12? But anyway, I think it’s pretty cool that Jacob, by this time, now had 12 children. One was still yet to be born (read chapter 35 for details), but when that happened, the patriarchs of the tribes were established, and their population grew in Egypt as tensions arose between their peoples. But more of that later. However, I’m going to warn you now, they got their idolatry roots during their stay in Egypt after the events of Genesis, so don’t expect anything promising if you’ve never read the Bible before, but I can testify that some good things happened, yet Jesus was the best one! And He lives again today, so I pray we believe this better. Not to say He’d assault anyone if we didn’t, but He knows how hard it is, and is willing to help, just as Hebrews 4:14-16 says. Another spoiler alert: if you’re reading this in a crucial time of need, you’ll probably think God is leading you to something comforting only to condemn you later, but this doesn’t come from the Holy Spirit, the condemnation thing. Those who use Hebrews 5:11-6:8 to put your sold to death in calling you immature or something are promoting many unforgivable acts of callousness that can only come from Satan himself. It is NOT that author’s intention to adulterate the word of God like this. That’s what Paul spoke against in 2 Corinthians 2:17. It is an act of incredible conceit and God will reject those who do this. I really hate saying it, though… I wish people hadn’t worshiped the Scriptures as if they gave permission to be a total jerk to others! Not that the Bible’s no good; it’s just used super-wrongly by a lot of people! But I don’t think God is disappointed in anyone 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 and He never will be!

Dinah’s birth is actually an enigma to me, though. I think it’s great; in fact, if she embraced Jesus and started to follow Him as Abraham had done nearly 150 years earlier (John 8:56, also Genesis 15:6, Galatians 3:6, Romans 4:22), she’s in Heaven now! If that’s the case, I’d love to meet her and hopefully say I’m sorry to hear what had happened (read chapter 34 for the outrageous crap that had happened). But I MUST be careful not to perpetuate anything that would lead to sexual violence myself, even by accident, for God forbid that I do this! I don’t like it! We really need to combat sexual violence a lot more, for if rape culture becomes legal, it’ll probably be the end of freedom and the Church might be scarred too much. I pray this doesn’t happen! We already have some sexually violent people that the president has put in power, it could only be moments from now that this happens! But no Christian will EVER be sexually violent in even the slightest extent, so don’t worry, I’ve never done it, and I never will! 😁😁😁😁😁 By the way, as I was still writing this, Jonathan asked if I wanted to watch a movie, and we settled on the first Avengers movie, released in 2012. We haven’t seen much of it, but I had pre-recorded it, so I’m not lost on where I am — I’m on the 36-minute mark, with commercials, and it’s a few hours long with them, so I’ll probably be fine. I was watching the scene where the Black Widow was being interrogated by Russian men, and I hated the sexual harassment that had happened. I pray Sarah’s not targeted for this again! It’s bad enough it happened once; if this happened again anytime soon, or at all, it’ll ruin the fun for everyone! And my other friend, Leah, had been raped about three years ago by someone she had trusted, so when she posted her story on Instagram (it was not a disappearing post), I wanted to go to some pretty ridiculous lengths to try to end sexual violence even further. Also, to give you a spoiler alert, Deuteronomy 22:5 doesn’t talk about clothing styles, but about reversing gender roles; I don’t think we need to do that. But I think it’s fun to dress like someone else as long as you’re either being hilarious for the right reasons or doing something godly, or even on Halloween. I don’t want to degrade myself, though. I’ve saved some Reddit videos that loosely talk about this on my laptop, but I’m not watching them now.

The 12th kid, Joseph, is the last one until Benjamin’s birth five chapters later (also from Rachel), and he actually has the coolest godly testimony among his siblings. It’ll be quite some time before I get there, though, I want to apply for some cashiering positions and score a job at one of them to match my Fry’s schedule, so that I can pay back my debts a whole lot easier. So if there’s anything you can pray for, it’s that this happens. I also want you to pray for one of the customers I saw today (I also asked for a manager to pray for him), for he has some stomach problems, and he got so many stitches on his belly that it’s like 10 inches long down his torso! He’s also carrying a container of stomach fluid with a tube connecting that and his belly, which is really weird and gross, but that’s the medical field for you. If there’s some other third or fourth thing you want to pray about, you can do that, too! If you wish, you can also leave me some prayer requests on ron.outland4727@gmail.com, my e-mail address! I’ll read each one, write them down on paper, then tape them to my bedroom walls! I also pray I get some Christmas gifts for my niece soon, because it’s not long before the year ends. I’ll see you in the next post, and be safe out there, everyone; I don’t want anyone to get hurt because of something we’re saying or doing.

I love the Scriptures, and I want to keep learning from each of them. And so, I think it’s fitting that I say that God only allowed Jacob to sleep with multiple women to start his own nation, as He had promised to Abraham (Genesis 15:5). Too bad this came with fornication and deceit, but hey, at least God is using people for His good purposes despite that we shouldn’t sleep with more than one person at the same time. But there weren’t a lot of people at that time, as a reminder… when was this? In the 19th century B.C.? I don’t really know… but my guess is as good as anyone else’s (unless they’re some professional historian and a Biblical scholar, in which case, he’s got it right more than anyone). As a reminder, there were a lot of strange scenarios throughout history, and the Bible records some of it. Thank God we don’t need to sleep with more than one person at the same time, even though they’ve legalized it in Utah because there’s so many Mormons there — they believe in polygamy, and I don’t think that’s right. I forgive them, though 😇😇😇😇😇 I do wish there was no retribution to those who don’t know any better, however. But this passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, page 22 of my NASB Bible, page 38 of my VOICE copy, and pages 37-38 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I want to know why Jacob did what he did throughout his life. I don’t think he rejected Jesus, but he did get angry with Rachel, one of his wives (Genesis 30:2), so I think that’s thoroughly un-Christian. I remember 1 Peter 3:7 saying that we should always be cooperating with our spouses, and I think this applies to any romantic relationship we might have a part in. I’ve been angry before at others, but I NEVER wanted to abuse them. Maybe Jacob just got caught up in the heat of the moment, but who hasn’t among all of us before? But we should learn from this and recognize that anger is not the way to go (James 1:19-20). There’s nothing wrong with godly anger, but we shouldn’t use that as fuel for revenge, either (Ephesians 4:26), seeing that it gives a foothold to Satan (Ephesians 4:27 (NLT)). And I hate evil spirits like that thing! I really wish that sin didn’t corrupt thing so badly that accommodations were at a really high point, both in Deuteronomy (see Matthew 19:1-9 for Jesus’ interpretation of the Mosaic Law), and in the world today. If you see something blatantly offensive, and you know you don’t have it in you to stop it, and especially if Jesus doesn’t plan on provoking others to more offences, chances are you should avoid getting involved entirely. I know I saw something on Google Maps that stirred my memory from when I was at the Phoenix Zoo once — an Arizona governor had requested that he be buried in a pyramid like an Egyptian pharaoh, and since they had accepted the people worshipping them in the past, the same is happening with that governor now. Is that weird, or what?! 😨😱😰 I don’t know when he lived, but I should put this out there for anyone unfamiliar with the abomination with self-deification. I’ve seen that happen before; I’ve even met two false messiahs in person! These I met about three years apart, but I’m not willing to go anywhere in which I would cross paths with someone like this. Of course, I’ll probably meet another false messiah at some other place, but I forgive them ahead of time. Still, I think that it’s insidious when someone deifies themselves… and it’s actually fairly common, though I still think that’s super-weird… 😳😩

Anyway, eight sons were born to Jacob by three different women so far, and from his fourth son, Judah (see chapter 38 for the sleazy events that continue his lineage), eventually came Jesus, with David living about a thousand years before Him (but several hundred years were still to come before David’s birth at that time). At least Jacob had enough sons to make a baseball team with him at the first batter in the beginning of the game, though (but baseball probably originated here in the U.S. many, many years later, I don’t know). A lot of ridiculous things happen between them, but (spoiler alert) Joseph forgives his brothers of their sin of selling him to slavery and reporting him dead, seeing that Egypt and the whole area around them was delivered from famine! Details in the next 20 chapters or so, of which I’ll get to eventually, God-willing, but not now.

If you have any prayer requests, you can submit them in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down on paper, and tape them to my bedroom walls! I just realized I have no tape, though… but I can get some at the store once I get paid, for I want to save my money lest I get any penalties with account transfers. I’ll see you later in this chapter!

EDIT: I realized I had quoted the wrong chapter from one of the Gospels in this note, and I’m really sorry 😅😂🤣 I also forgot to write this down, so I’m editing this twice 😂😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣 Forgive me though 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I wish I did things better, pray I remember Scripture better than just going off my own understanding (Proverbs 3:5). See ya!

I think it’s even stranger than Laban had deceived Jacob into sleeping with Leah thinking it was Rachel; indeed, Laban’s country believed it was best to give the oldest daughter to the groom first, and he used it to trick Jacob. I think it’s ridiculous when someone uses a national belief to deceive or devalue someone. Still, all this took place over 14 years, so Jacob was middle-aged by that time, in today’s lifespan standards (for by the time anyone turns 40, they usually lose a lot of zest — I’ll comment on that later). This passage is found in page 17 of my NKJV Bible, pages 21-22 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 37-38 of my VOICE copy, and page 37 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. (I just realized I had goofed a bit on how I referenced the previous 14 verses on the previous post today, sorry!)

Why would Jacob sleep with multiple women while being married to at least one? (As a reminder, they did this because there weren’t a lot of people in any nation or tribe yet, and tribes always fought with one another, so God allowed that to happen to bide some time until Paul would write his monogamous philosophy in 1 Corinthians 7:2 many years later, for that philosophy was inspired by the Holy Spirit.) But it wasn’t Jacob’s idea to sleep with more than one female while interchanging relationships like this with them… also, I read some commentary about this several years ago; it said he shouldn’t have deceived anyone in the first place… whoever wrote that was (and still is) anti-grace, anti-Christian, and anti-freedom, not to mention an unforgiving atheist (I wrote something pretty unfriendly to describe this, but edited it a few minutes later) — that commentator deserves to be consumed by hell for all eternity, as all atheists will, given Psalms 14 and 53. Didn’t God later forgive Jacob for his misdeeds? And wasn’t He behind Jacob in eventually having a Saviour being descended from him? This should be plainly obvious, given the words of Jesus in Matthew 8:11-12 (NASB). I think it’s very clear that the Bible says Jacob is now in Heaven, though I only did find out a few years ago. Esau should NEVER have been worshiped by those godless men. Whomever becomes unforgiving is an Esau, so to speak. No wonder God promised the Edomites (his descendants) no future (see Obadiah)! Some note writers for this section of Genesis, when describing Jacob, had the same prideful attitude toward him. They, too, are going to Hell… and I’m not looking forward to any of it, like I had said about most of the U.S. people in an earlier note.

I should mention I’m currently at 1 Peter 3:7 in my progression of reading the NASB translation, and I’m at Matthew 23 in the Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) version. But I’m only up to here in the VOICE, and I remember finishing the NKJV before. Still, I pray for better understanding as I read through all these, and by the Holy Spirit, too. I know I don’t want to act against Him or His Word, yet I feel like I can’t avoid it sometimes, and in a noticeable way, too. Maybe it’s because I know of both how many other churchgoers in other communities will respond if I tell them that… that I’m keeping a low profile about my faith unless the Spirit tells me to do something and fills me with the boldness… lest I get put on trial again and learn something outrageous this time to keep me from getting sent to a mental hospital a third time, if I even have the chance to leave. As it is, I think Satan can use the low profile thing against me and rationalize it so I don’t know what happens until it’s too late. All this (and especially the reality of too little cash and needing to work for a very long time so that I don’t go anywhere until I’m 60, if I even get to live that long, since my mom had been lacking in funds herself to pay rent, yet I was able to move out a year later (this was in 2015-2016), but I didn’t find another place to live for 8 months, and I was homeless most of the time — I finally paid my first payment of rent to Jonathan in Cinco de Mayo 2017, and I’ve been living in the house since) — all this has scared me to death that I might do something (even something good) that might tick off someone and send a chain reaction of a more powerful wave of hostility so I don’t make it out by the time the first deliverance comes. I even fear there’s really nothing left from God for me, and that I’m completely delusional in thinking I can ever go further in solving even the slightest unresolved problem, for I still have debts to pay, I still don’t have a second job to match my Fry’s position in meeting student loan payments, and nothing has happened in terms of getting another interview (though I did have one for a cashiering position in a taco stand set up some time ago, but I couldn’t make it there) — I was just too busy. “I guess I’ll have to wait too long for an interview again… and the hiring managers can just keep worrying about themselves. That’s what they’re best at, right?” That’s what I said to my friend, Josh, as I was writing this down.

But pray that I find something; even if I’m getting several hundred dollars in cash again from someone, I need another part-time job to match my Fry’s shifts. I think that’s something you can pray about… and if you have any other prayer requests, you can submit them to my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down (if they’re good), then tape them to my bedroom walls! I’ll see you in the final portion of this chapter (and possibly the next in the same note)!

I love how Jacob and his uncle (his mom’s brother; see verse 10) met and were super-happy to see each other! I wish this would happen with other relatives — I’m always up for seeing my niece even when I don’t have enough for travelling to her house 👨‍👧👩🏽‍🤝‍🧑🏼 (my brother and his fianceé always should be included) — I’d like to get her to accept Jesus, as well as her parents doing the same. I don’t think it matters which order it’s in, but I pray my niece does it first so she may have more fun in her childhood than I did. I think some of my best days were when I was in college… but this era is nice, too (but I don’t think a lot of stuff behind the scenes is very good). Still, it’s been six years since I’ve been to class, and I accepted Christ in July 2009, so I’m probably not going to do well if I were in class again. I don’t think I have it in me to focus this good… anyway, I’m getting off-topic… Jacob and Rachel had never met, given the content of verse 12. This passage is found in pages 16-17 of my NKJV Bible, page 21 of my NASB Bible, pages 36-37 of my VOICE copy, and page 36 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I find it good that Jacob stayed with his uncle for a month to help with his livestock! I don’t know how old he was; he was probably in his 30s, but I do remember his vow he had just made to God (Genesis 28:20-22). I can’t promise anything, though, not even to God, for I not only need His help if I say anything to be faithful to it, but I also don’t expect Him to back me up in anything, either. Do you think I’m committing a sin by saying this? Comment below! (If you don’t want to comment here, that’s ok, I can send it to a friend, and I can copy and paste that last question in a Facebook message.) I heard my mom say something I shouldn’t have heard last Friday night in a belated Thanksgiving dinner, but I don’t want to mention it here. I don’t even want to believe her words, for they’ve never brought me peace, so why should I believe her ever again? My niece wasn’t there, either (for she and her mom were at the Philippines to visit an ancestor there, seeing that he wasn’t doing so well), but my brother stayed home; I don’t think he has a passport. Besides, we both know how ungodly our mom can be. I’ll call him if he’s not working after I finish writing this, but I don’t know if this is relevant… I don’t know if he’s even interested in hearing from me 😓 but I’m probably going to have the gift to my niece be the main focus in that phone convo. I pray for the right words to say here… I always feel like I’m upsetting the laws of creation with my mom around, as if God needed her to do what she does and say what she says. But He doesn’t need anyone, thankfully, He instead is interested in receiving people as anyone receives Jesus. I can’t help but think I’m only able to remember fear-based obedience if someone like my mom comes into the picture, though. But that’s not the case with the Holy Spirit 😌😌😌😌😌😌😌

Do you have a prayer request? Write one in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’m going to call my brother (his name is Chris) and see if he has an appropriate device to play the Frozen movies for my niece when she sees them, for I plan on getting a DVD or Blu-ray disc for it. I don’t know if I’ll write anything later today or even if I’ll bring up to Chris what I wrote on here besides my niece’s Christmas present, though.

See you later in the chapter!

Wow, this is amazing! I’ve had some pretty cool dreams before, one being that I was at a Hillsong worship night in Prescott in 2011, beating out Lil Wayne in approval (then I found myself in something like abstract art in a Sonic video game, and eventually in a tech store with a friend from New Zealand, though not being someone I know from Two Rivers), but Jacob certainly was blessed because of this revelation in the dream God gave him! This passage is found in page 16 of my NKJV Bible, page 21 of my NASB Bible, page 36 of my VOICE copy, and pages 35-36 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.

I just reread the last parts of chapter 3 of Brian Houston’s There Is More book, and remembered that it was the comfort of the Holy Spirit that gives me the power to live faithfully in Christ when things go sideways. It’s a shame that I discovered recently that freedom is going to be hated more and more often as if it were license to sin, though. For if the U.S. government really is working with Russia so they can enslave the world eventually, is this not a sign that the end of human history is almost upon us? But I don’t think you should surrender any godly dreams you have. Some dreams we have are our own, to be sure, but everyone is able to get a vision from God about how they can bless others and be the light of the world as Jesus said (Matthew 5:14). It’s really hard to concentrate on that when you see a lot of haters and/or delays that happen unnecessarily, though. I know I don’t have much of any clue how to move past that; I think I can only walk away. If I’m not allowed to do that, then I’m screwed. I’ve seen enough delays before I moved to Gilbert happen before, and most of them were endangering my very soul! (For I have been homeless twice prior to moving in with Jonathan.) If something happens because I’m writing this, I just might conclude that there’s no way for me to avoid these annoyances under any circumstance, for I don’t know if God will prevent another needless delay even just one more time. At least I can say something good and interesting, but I don’t want to embarrass Jesus as if He isn’t supposed to be outside of the churches He’s named in. If this nation restricts freedom of religion in any fashion like Russia did, I literally have no shot to go to any unreached people groups and have people accept Jesus there as I have hoped to do for so long. Even God has told me that I shouldn’t expect anything promising in the days ahead due to this. I don’t know what to think about the future; I’m afraid to find I won’t be able to be myself again. This really shouldn’t happen. I know Jacob accepted Jesus after his children were born, but I don’t know when this happened. I know he hadn’t begun to follow Him yet because he later played favourites in chapter 37 here. Maybe we should believe that even the worst-case scenario doesn’t mean the good words or deeds are wasted.

Any prayer requests? I know I want to pray that anyone reading this would be safe, especially since the hostility against the Holy Spirit is only growing, since most of it is coming from within the churches that are supposed to change the world. But if you have one, leave it in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com — I’ll read each one (I’ve got to get better at checking my e-mail each day), write any good ones down, then tape them to my bedroom walls! Oh, I should’ve mentioned this (I think the Holy Spirit just told me): that someone’s going to read this and believe my words are heretical and useless, as if Christ Jesus died for nothing. Those will come most likely from the “Christian” heretics who believe Jesus didn’t die for you… those guys are really the ones who hate God. Think about that next time you walk into a church and find yourself pissed off at someone who values obedience over love. You’ll quickly agree with me. Indeed, Jesus is saying the same thing now, too. (I have to say, though, this was kind of a postscript, but I just had some interesting words from Jesus to write down in this website.)

See you in chapter 29!

In these eight chapters, I notice that Jacob isn’t trying to deceive people anymore, but someone tricks Jacob at least once. Unfortunately, what Esau had said about him in Genesis 27:36 seems to be the theme for who he is… at least according to him. But I don’t think he had wanted to cause him any harm, yet Esau never forgave him anyway. I think Satan was doing a play on words against Jacob throughout these chapters… as if he deserved to be led into sin or something. I think God had plans for both Esau and Jacob… good ones, in terms of Jeremiah 29:11, in fact. It’s too bad that Isaac didn’t become Christian until after Jacob had convinced Esau to sell him his birthright… for what I don’t know. For I remember in Genesis 26:25 that he was convinced Jesus was God, yet his parents never saw Isaac worshipping Him… until he finally died at 180 (Genesis 35:28-29). At least he saw Jacob one more time before then… but I don’t think Jacob was converted until long after Joseph was born. When this happened, I don’t know. Still, these chapters are found in pages 16-21 of my NKJV Bible (yes, the text is small there), pages 20-27 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 35-47 of my VOICE copy (with the notes sandwiched between some of them), and pages 35-46 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy. Did Rebekah ever become convinced of Jesus, though? I can’t tell… indeed, how much more unsure am I about the rest of Jacob’s family except Joseph on this!

Have any prayer requests you want to talk to me about? Do that in my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down, and tape them to my bedroom walls! I do need to check my e-mail if anything has been submitted, though 😅 but over time, I can do notes all across this. Have a fun day, and I’ll see you in the next one!