I doubt I can come up with anything creative right now, as I’ve spent a lot of time away from here, but I’ve had some drama unfold. I won’t go into it now, but best case scenario, at least one of my friends is just trolling me and trying to make me laugh. I do want to get along better with others, though… I thought of making a fiery post here, but I don’t want to do it even when I arrive on chapters 11-12, since they talk about Satan destroying the firstborn of Egypt. I’m like, “Yikes.” That thing hates all of us, and I wish it would evaporate in the Son, no co-star! The funny thing is, not even the devil has a messed-up beginning, but he was a very handsome archangel called Lucifer, which still kinda freaks me out. And besides, I think I might get banned from making any posts, and I don’t want to get in trouble with WordPress but respect the staff at all times ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐ I sometimes forget that certain Scriptures, if preached, can get me banned from TV! (I’m not a TV preacher, though, just so you know. I turned 30 over three weeks ago but I don’t have any degrees… some of you might know why.) But the same letter that literally burns the false teachers with its prophetic indictment โ that’s the one which later says that God is able to keep us from stumbling, after having commanded us to have mercy on the doubtful ones (Jude 22). But this passage is found in page 36 of my NKJV Bible, page 46 of my NASB Bible (Old Testament), pages 80-81 of my VOICE copy, and pages 76-77 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.
I’m mostly going to make a note on why Pharaoh hardened himself again here… also, you’ll see me make more notes on individual plagues but won’t comment on any of them much. Sorry to freak you out, though… I honestly wish we could see more of God’s power act against destruction. Why the plagues happened, I’m not too sure, but for one thing, I can find that Egypt wanted to challenge God a lot, and I think that’s just ludicrous, but thankfully, Egypt is still invited to seek Jesus today. They even have Christmas as an official holiday still, so I’m super-thankful this is still legal. But I don’t think any of that’s happening right now… I pray against more bans on Christmas as the years go by… yet, like, why did the Egyptian leader harden himself again? I just don’t understand, except that he had probably been used to idols a lot, so, yeah… this’ll take its worshipers down a path we can’t afford to follow. It’s actually easier than you might think to go down that route, even in a Christian church. I pray God would help me avoid any idolatry, as it is un-Christian to go there. Thankfully, it’s not often unintentional, but I don’t know… it’s easy to get carried away at times, too. I’d rather be carried away by the Holy Spirit in every way He wants me to go even if it’s as if I should make an absolute fool of myself, but I’m forgetting what school is like, and how I’m supposed to operate in community I find pretty difficult since COVID-19 is very prevalent and I could get sick from it and be stuck inside for two weeks… I wish I could remain with others who love Jesus, even though more and more of my friends are getting married and having children left and right. Even one of my closest friends (his name is Josh) โ he’s having a girl soon, just like I’m having another niece, and I think he’s going to spend most of his time with her and his wife… I miss in-person connections big time ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ I feel like I can’t have many good friendships in this life, and whenever I try to, I eventually get driven into isolation because someone I know or live with might get offended and turn away from Jesus ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ I wish I could communicate with friends more often and not get attacked by closed-mindedness anymore ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ this pandemic managed to ruin the world indeed. And since I can get petitioned for literally anything here in Arizona, and I want to be a blessing to others in unconventional ways… I feel like I’m screwed. I don’t know where else to say anything like this at this late hour… but at least my roommate doesn’t think I’m annoying; I just don’t expect him or ANYONE ELSE to believe this for very long, no matter where I go. Maybe I should send this to Josh when I’m finished here; I hope he reads this.
Sorry, this kind of turned into a rant about what seems like nothing once again, but I think the hardness of heart(s) from others I’m being crushed by is ridiculous, and Hebrews 3:7-8 warns against this. I wonder how many people in Moses’ time knew this… you’ll definitely believe he’s associated with the severity of God, but I want to believe His goodness frames the start and end of creation ๐๐๐๐๐ I find it hard to believe this sometimes; I pray Jesus helps me with this… I just remembered something: in The Santa Clause 2, the high school principal had believed in Santa very fiercely for a good portion of her childhood. So fiercely, in fact, she actually got in fights with others, one resulting in a bloody nose. When that happened, her parents told her to grow up… I wonder if that’s how many people treat Jesus in this life… I don’t want to believe we must “grow up” into the world’s deception again in our 20s/30s and up… nope, I need Sun Stand Still by Steven Furtick again. It was written and published in 2010, but I can’t help but wonder that if I buy the book online, and… oh, who am I kidding? Nothing seems to work for this nation… for Trump and the other candidates with at least a little greed came forward several years back and created an unprecedented trend that is the reason our world can never be the same again ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ other countries are likely trapped in it, too. I feel like singing Green Day’s “Wake Me Up When September Ends” song… I wonder how badly revival’s been stopped around the world… but if I can’t see my nieces until Christmas once I see the newborn girl for the first time, I’ll be like, “Wake me up… when September ends.” Indeed, it’s been 20 years since 9/11, and it really sucks, but COVID-19 sucks even worse than that, makes 9/11 look tame, actually. I feel I can’t find anymore opportunities for happiness and advancement in life… I want Jesus back ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ yet even with Him never leaving me, I feel like it’s over… any chance I might ever have in encouragement for someone receptive in my town or in this world… I don’t want it to be over, but I’d rather not live anymore if I can’t see my family or grow in Christ some more… is this what it’s supposed to be like from now on? I’d like to know for sure…
But while I wait, I’ll pray (if I can) to find any good words for chapter 9, in which I’ll write three notes in, for plagues 5, 6, and 7. Ohh, I just read the NKJV Bible’s passage title here, it does indeed say flies. Reminds me of the Beezlebub thing (a.k.a. Lord Of The Flies) I heard about. Yikes. I hope I don’t get judged for anything I’m saying here…