I really don’t like what the hairy man does here (see Genesis 25:25 for whom I’m speaking of) — Hebrews 12:16 speaks of him not just as squandering something sacred, but also as pretty sexual, and I don’t want to fall into this, for we’ve all messed up sexually, I think. Esau plans to kill his own brother Jacob as soon as he realizes what he had done to him, and as a result, a family feud is born. The Amplified Bible leaves a footnote on verse 41 that says this: “Here began a feud that was to cost countless lives throughout succeeding centuries. Esau’s descendants, the Amalekites, were the first enemies to obstruct the flight of Jacob’s descendants from Egypt (Exod. 17:8); and the Edomites even refused to let their uncle Jacob’s children pass through their land (Num. 20:17-20). Doeg, an Edomite, all but caused the death of Christ’s chosen ancestor David (I Sam. 21, 22). Bloody battles were fought between the two nations in the centuries that followed. It was Herod, of Esau’s race (Josephus, Antiquities of the Jews 14:1, Section 3), who had the male infants of Bethlehem slain in an effort to destroy the Christ Child (Matt. 2:16). Satan needs no better medium for his evil plans than a family feud, a “mere quarrel” between two brothers. ” And the commentator was right. My mom had tried to divide my brother and I along with many of our other relatives over the years, but between me and my brother himself, it didn’t work. And we almost killed each other at one point because neither of us knew what she had planned. I’m really hoping for no drama when I get to the Thanksgiving dinner in three and a half weeks (it’s on the 29th), but I want to see my niece there, otherwise, it won’t be worth it should any reprobate fury unfold. Indeed, my mom knows division is awful; I saw her get fired up about it once last summer or something like that. Yet she keeps attacking people for no good reason… I don’t know what she’s been up to aside from her job, but I don’t want to find out; I’m just certain she’s toxic, as a doctor has said before. Indeed, this passage is found in page 16 of my NKJV Bible, pages 20-21 of my NASB Bible, pages 35-36 of my VOICE copy, and pages 34-35 of my Amplified Bible (Classic Edition) copy.
I’m praying I don’t repeat Esau’s sins, either, for he actually frustrated his own parents — God hates it when someone sows discord among family members (Proverbs 6:19). And unfortunately, my mom has done this before, yet blames everyone for everything (see Jude 16 for speaking against the bellyaching of fault-finding), so I’m just hoping I can still be alive. I never know when she strikes someone with hateful words next, so I’m afraid to find that Bee might be mortally wounded by this. I don’t get it, why would anyone want to divide their own relatives? I just don’t understand… indeed, once Edom took credit for pulverizing Judah in 586 B.C., God spoke strongly against them in the context that they’d have no future (see the book of Obadiah, located right before the book of Jonah in the Prophets near the end of the Old Testament). It’s great to pray for any nation to gain disciples of Jesus, but we don’t know how many are left that are descended from Esau here. I mean, who knows? I’m already feeling like I stand alone in my convictions half the time; I don’t want my family divided into oblivion, either! 😭😭😭😭😭
I don’t know how the rest of my posts are going to go; I just pray I speak God’s blessing in them. For I feel so bad about my own mom trying to divide and control that other people that I’m not even related to can feel it, not counting the doctors I’ve talked to when I stayed in a mental hospital for nearly a month (that wasn’t my mom’s fault; someone else tried to shut me up because of my faith in Jesus). And when I discover something I hadn’t noticed before in the Bible, I’m afraid to tell anyone because they don’t seem to share the same heart of Christ as I do, even my roommates. I’m actually wondering why I’m still trying to be carefree when I know someone or something will put a damper on my spirits as soon as I get hopeful or confident about anything… I can’t seem to be fighting against the tide of the evil Jesus spoke of in Matthew 24:12. I hope a friend reads this…
Do you want to pray about anything? If you want to leave me a prayer request, write to me at my e-mail: ron.outland4727@gmail.com! I’ll read each one, write them down (if they’re good, I guess), and tape them to my bedroom walls! It’s about 10:40 a.m. at the time I’m finishing this post, so you can take care that I didn’t back out of what I said in the last two posts during the weekend. See ya!
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